#spilled ink

[inkskinned]

i am sorry, mama. i know you did your best but i turned out wrong. i only ever sharpen my teeth on my own legs. i can't hunt and every song in my chest sounds more like a siren call. i tremble at every loud noise. i fear i am unlovable. you used to tell me to bark back and bite hard. i let every hand muzzle me and consider it gentle. touchstarved. i'm sorry. you wanted to raise a wolf but i am just a bad dog.

[remanence-of-love]

[nightmareevara]

Being someone's safe place is the greatest honor.

[perfeqt]

Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.

William C. Hannan

[thoughtkick]

Fall in love with the person who enjoys your madness, not an idiot who forces you to be normal.

Unknown

[usefulquotes7]

[emotionalwords]

[spitblossoms]

[quotefeeling]

Be a good person, but don't waste time to prove it.

Unknown

[thehopefulquotes]

My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.

Anaïs Nin

[perfectquote]

I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much you enjoy their existence.

Unknown

[inkskinned]

it is hard to explain but there is something so unwell about the cultural fear of ugliness. the strange quiet irradiation of any imperfect sight. the pores and the stomachs and the legs displaced into a digital trashbin. somehow this effect spilling over - the removal of a grinning strangers in the back of a picture. of placing more-photogenic clouds into a frame. of cleaning up and arranging breakfast plates so the final image is of a table overflowing with surplus - while nobody eats, and instead mimes food moving towards their mouth like tantalus.

ever-thinner ever-more-muscled ever-prettier. your landlord's sticky white paint sprayed over every surface. girlchildren with get-ready-with-me accounts and skincare routines. beige walls and beige floors and beige toys in toddler hands. AI-generated "imagined prettier" birds and bugs and bees.

pretty! fuckable! impossible! straighten teeth. use facetune and lightroom and four other products. remove the cars along the street from the video remove the spraypaint from the garden wall remove the native plants from their home, welcome grass. welcome pretty. let the lot that walmart-still-owns lay fallow and rotting. don't touch that, it's ugly! close your eyes.

erect anti-homelessness spikes. erect anti-bird spikes. now it looks defensive, which is better than protective. put the ramp at the back of the building, you don't want to ruin the aesthetic of anything.

you are a single person in this world, and in this photo! don't let the lives of other people ruin what would otherwise be a shared moment! erase each person from in front of the tourist trap. erase your comfortable shoes and AI generate platforms. you weren't smiling perfectly, smile again. no matter if you had been genuinely enjoying a moment. you are not in a meadow with friends, you're in a catalogue of your own life! smile again! you know what, forget it.

we will just edit the right face in.

[remanence-of-love]

[mysticaletherealliving]

Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed.

- Friedrich Nietzsche

[thepersonalquotes]

[thoughtkick]

Your absolute best won’t be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person. Remember that.

Unknown