#+ im going to see hamilton with faye this year by myself and after that it'll have proved to my mum that i can | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

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i wanna see dodie live again so muchhhh :-( i wanna see her live with faye!! i just wanna cry to secret for the mad live.... last time i was just so overwhelmed because it was my first ever concert experience + i had to be with my mum so my tear ducts were like NO ONE IS LEAVING !!!!!!! and i was emotional just not in the way that my brain usually registers as ‘real’ aka crying (i’m so used to crying so often bc i am very sentimental and sensitive that my brain believes that INTENSE emotions r naturally followed by crying but ! not always!! but my emotions are real regardless of whether i cry or not and that’s a weird thing to try to overcome in my head asdfgfidfi) but i just wanna have that experience tbh... that song gives me so much comfort AAAH more and more recently too actually, it’s weird thinking back and feeling like i didn’t deserve to relate to that song and others like sick of losing soulmates but now it’s just like oh yeah i’ve had that feeling i’m valid in relating to this... so hearing that live again as who i am now would just be euphoricccc !!!! :(

#chatter #it's almost been a year since i saw her aaaaaaaaaa #i mean i probably AM going to see her again the next chance i get !! like it's super super likely!! + shes a uk musician and #she's pretty obviously going to tour here again bc she freaking lives here #anddd i'll most likely get to see her with faye the next time because 1. it wont be like last time where it was my first ever concert #so i have Experience kinda now !!#+ im going to see hamilton with faye this year by myself and after that it'll have proved to my mum that i can #handle myself in the real world without her and that'll open up to opportunity of seeing concerts without her #because i mean. she doesn't know these bands and musicians who make my heart soar she's just there for me #and that feels unfair to her to kinda just rob her of time by making her take me to those concerts ashjkdffdh #so i'd love to start doing things differently i just want to go to them with friends instead!!!!!! people who know these musicians!!#sorry this turned into such a long ramble DJHKFJGHKJDF #'i can't verbalise good' @ myself be quiet i've gotten so much better at putting my thoughts into words ur doing great #APPARENTLY OTHER PEOPLE DON'T HAVE A CONSTANT GOING MONOLOGUE LIKE I DO #THAT'S WHY MY RAMBLES ARE PROBABLY LIKE THIS!?

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