#`003. a man hollowed by guilt ; allows for the world to eat him whole ' inner workings

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BRUCE IS DEMISEXUAL / DEMIROMANTIC WITH AN EQUAL INTEREST IN BOTH GENDERS.

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COGNITIVE   ASSESSMENT!

bold   what   always   applies. italicize what   sometimes   applies.   strike   what   never   applies.

alcoholism.   binge   drinking.   amnesia.   anxiety.   appetite   loss.  binge   eating.   codependency.   cynicism.   defensiveness.   denial.   depersonalisation.   depression.   derealisation.   devaluation.   displacement.   dissociation.   drug   abuse.   dysphoria.   emotional   detachment.   flashbacks.   flat   affect.   guilt.   hallucinations.   hypersomnia. hypervigilance.   hypochondria.   idealization.   insomnia. intellectualization.   introjection. isolation.  low   self-esteem.   love   bombing.   narcissism.   night   terrors.   obsessive   compulsion.   overeating.   panic   attacks.   passive   aggression.   paranoia.   phobias.   projection.   psychosis.   rationalization.   regression.   repression.   restrictive   eating.   risky   sex.   self-harm/self-destruction.  somatization.   splitting.   sublimation.   suicidal   ideation.   sleepwalking.  suppression.  thousand-yard   stare.  triggers.   trust   issues.  violence.   whiplash   temper.

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*     ERA  AESTHETICS     !

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MEDIEVAL      ——          tired eyes.   coffee stains on the table.   listening to the bustle of the city.  unmade beds.   loose ponytails.  sunlight seeping through the curtains.   chapped lips.   walking barefoot across the floorboards.   dusty dictionaries.   black and white reruns.  huge sweaters.   the ticking of the clock.  hearing birds in the morning.   fireplaces.   falling asleep during class.

RENAISSANCE   ——            freckles.   the sun rising.   watching the sea.   taking shots of the city. historical museums.   bright eyes.   looking up at the clouds.  walls covered in artworks.  drawing in the middle of lessons.  tracing your fingers on the sand.  painting for hours.   staying in uncrowded coffee-shops.   worn paperbacks.   messy braids.  going to bed with your socks on.

BAROQUE        ——            dark hair.  a little sophisticated.   always observing the world around you.  intricate designs.  high ceilings.  extravagant musical pieces.   dim lights.   colourless photographs.   fancy furniture.   pale skin.   hearing soft footfalls coming from outside the room.   mischievous looks.   bitten nails.   candlelight dinners.  dark shades of lipstick.

CLASSICAL      ——            chandeliers.   the clinking of a teacup.  laced clothing.  modern architecture.   light hair.    watching the view from the terrace.  hidden birthmarks.  drinking tea in the morning.  wandering about in an empty building.   botanical gardens.   old films.  ancient marble sculptures.  expensive perfume.  breakfasts in bed.   reading about mythology.

ROMANTIC     ——           compassion.   short writings on scraps of paper.   blushed cheeks.  a bouquet of roses.  reading collections of poetry late at night.   loose hair.  carpeted floors.   attending operas.  faint music playing in the background.   staying under the covers until midday.   the night sky.   streetlights.   picking flowers.  dancing around in silk dresses.  scented candles.

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41. What associations do they bring to mind? Words or phrases, images, metaphors or motifs? Why?

ASSOCIATIONS ARE DEPENDENT UPON EMOTIONS TOWARD THE OBJECT.  so in regards to his mother to whom he was close  ;  the grace on to  my roughness, the pause before the storm, magnanimous,  “ don’t ride motorcycles.and make sure to breathe and look before you begin.”  to him she was  the emblem of what was good in the world, the softness of a home, and the  stand from which to take off.  whereas his father much the same was the mind of the family and so ; e=mc2 ,  chemical reactions, and healing.  he is golden , to his mother’s silver, and he was “ as quick as a flash.” and laboratory of actions, experiments, and just living for he was always curious. for the league of assassins it its the very antithesis of these two ; obsidian ,  “ cloak and dagger,: mismatched eyes,  long tongues, and sharp teeth.  hunters and trappers, devils in human skin. while lastly for himself  some of the associations are ; the start of “ spring fever,” hollowed lungs, and battered heart,  leather skin, a “ chamber of secrets ,”  and lastly a thousand different things in one.  @hismanners

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EACH OF THE ROBINS REPRESENT SOMETHING OF BRUCE. something he is trying to deal with or capture better. dick is him dealing with his loss, and jason his rage. tim is him owning his intelligence and damian his brainwashing. so they way he tries to make them be js what he needs for himself a specific times.

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BRUCE HAS BEEN IN LOVE TWICE. once with tommy and now with selina. the latter is true , the former is haunted. he has an ease with selina, and a place to heal in humor and saftey. it is growing old and understanding. its heartfelt and pure. with tommy its all anger and brutality. its a game of stealing and uprooting. of abuse and greed. tommy wanted the life bruce had, and the fact the wanye's saved his mother over him made him a lunatic trying strip down bruce. whereas selina and him were a clever and funny adversaries that started with nicknames and a tug and pull. and he loves selina with everything but first loves can be viruses and that is how tommy behaves in him.

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THE LEAGUE MADE PREY OF BRUCE. he was overly rattled at his inability to kill his parenrs murder, wasnt communicating well with alfred as he was the one who stopped him from committing the murder, alongside him always being alone and drinking. he is 18 when they find him and they wanted to end gotham and uses him for it as he bad the capability to be a great heir. so his training is basically torture. they would train him to deal with the harshest of elements from being thrown almost naked and forced to surive below zero temps with wild animals and no food to being burned and whipped. he would also have to endure 12 hour days of physical and emotional combats that have left him with ptsd, depression and dissociative disorder. other things was his being fed an animal he was taking care of on the guise of his eating what was offered to be reunited with it. later on he was drugged and forced to sire damien.

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DO NOT ALLOW BRUCE NEAR TALIA. the way i am doing it is that she quite basically used bruce as a means to try and get some more power in thr league and therefore abused her power over him. he is quite honestly still reeling from the damage and tries to keep daimen away from in fear that she might try and use him for a power play.

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how did bruce feel when dick quit as robin and moved to blüdhaven for the police academy?

OH HE WAS GLAD.  he was glad that dick wasn’t going to allow himself to be ruined, he thought it would give them both a better chance to start again. because at the heart of everything bruce did feel as though he did take advantage of dick’s pain and try to make him hone it the way he did. i don’t think bruce was mentally prepared to fully understand how to balance someone who was so filled with light and joyfulness. he was still despairing over his treatment during his training. he was young too, just about 25,  and only three years free of the brutality of the league and he tried to latch on to dick’s just pleasant nature and he almost ruined him, and no matter how hard he tried to not do the same for jason he ended up dragging him into deeper horrors with the surfacing of the joker. but the fact that dick had gotten out, allowed him to deal with the nightmares in a small way because he had someone who was far away from it all. @choosehero

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UNDER THE SCARECROW SERUM.  bruce usually sees a few different things depending on what he’s thinking about. it can range from his parents holding him guilty, screaming coward you made us leave and you got us killed. why are you living out our peace. or he’ll see himself the last one standing out of his new family. he’ll see the robins, batgirl, batwoman, alfred and so forth dead because of him maimed and ruined. or he’ll see himself the reason for the justice leagues fall. it all ends with him being the reason of great horrors because that what he sees himself as

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THE WAY I SEE IT . bruce is to afraid to make lasting relationships because he thinks he will get the person killed  as he did his parents. he seems himself as something bad for people. and that’s why he took on the face of the bat for himself. because they both terrified but are also misunderstood.

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BRUCE IS THE WORST TO ADMIT IT. but the robins are not just sidekicks they are forms of a family he was denied and that is why he keeps a cycle of them going. but the issue is that since he isnt able to deal or fix his own issues of rage guilt and ptsd the robins are often left with that same mark. he knows that he has quite honestly damaged jason and dick in some regard and for that he tried not to see them any more. daimien on the other hand is the physical manifestation of talia's power hold over him. i don't see their realtionship as in talia and bruce's to be consensual in regards to bruce and i feel like that is one of the reasons he keeps damien super far away from her. he knows as a member of the leauge of assassins there isnt anything to stop her from wanting to countinue their work and power and it terrfies him even though he worked and trained for them because his time with thrm brought the worst of him out .

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P & n , Valentine’s Day meme

N. WHAT IS MY MUSE LIKE IN BED. when there is a deep connection bruce likes to be slow. he has things for wanting to feel and open up every part of his partner.  he loves to whisper hands down people’s skins,  to trace his name over and over into it  so that they become his.  there is nothing he leaves bare on a person because he sees them as something sacred. so he’ll touch a person until they  feel a high off it, or  like there a weight on them that has be let out and fed .because each part is left raised and just ready to be consumed .  and then when he finally does it is hardly ever fast cause he is the kind of a person who likes to savor it cause its such a thunderous and bare connection.

P.  WHAT DOES MY MUSE LOOK FOR IN A PARTNER. the ability to command but also understand,  he wants a person ( irregardless of gender) with good eyes,  and a dynamic personality , ( the ability to adapt to situations, to be open, and to be thrilled in public and private, to be able to stand their ground for when he can’t .) he is looking for someone  who he can become  something with for the long run, make a home  and maybe a family. someone who can stand the burns and the scars and not ask questions until he’s ready.  someone who has overcome  where he has not. i guess he’s looking for both a safety net  and a thrill.  * @gothamcartel

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BRUCE WANYE LOVES KIDS. i am being 100 percent honest, all kids he has taken in have been the pride and joys of his life and they are his children just as much as damian is. he might make mistakes big and small but he will admit and work to do better. cause that is what bruce wayne is all about striving to do better  and learning from your mistake. also the kids of the justice league are spoiled rotten with love and gifts by him.  he is the shadow in the alleyway when it is needed but more than anything he is a man that loves and needs love.

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would bruce ever leave gotham for good?

OH GOD YES. gotham city has sunk its teeth into bruce over and over again. it has ruined the man and made a monster out of the bat. bruce had thought that he could be himself, he could navigate the crime of the city on a humane level but getting to the age of 18 he realized that it wasn’t going to be anything but violence.  and he hates how he has let that control him. as long as he is in gotham there is nothing for him but heartache and anguish.  he is dying for gotham and gotham doesn’t care. bruce wayne has becoming a punching bag for the news to hide that he is the punching bag for the corruption and the beasts that has allowed to breed. he wants to leave the girt , and the death, the grimness and the horrors. he wants to go somewhere were he can be a man over a fiend, a dream over a nightmare and lastly be seen as two good halves rather then a hedonist and a brute. @absrbs

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THE COURT OF OWLS AND BRUCE WAYNE. due to his wealth bruce has been asked to apart of the court of owls, they see him as an ample tool to disrupt the very bases of society due to the way his parents were murdered. it is on learning that bruce is also batman do they try to make him a talon one of higher regard but still a talon.  but the question becomes how do you manipulate someone who has to very strong personalities even in the face of being broken. you go after his son, and other loved ones.  so that when he’s to busy protecting them you can manipulate him from the back using mind altering drugs that make him submissive.  i think the court of owls had the time of their life knowing they had bruce wayne in their hands because for all the gruff bruce wayne is still all heart and you strike that you strike him down. they pass around  him for missions, and for feedings, for anything. the for the court master of that time was rather interested in him in more ways than just his strength and made bruce his personal talon, and iced him when nightwing, damien, selina , alfred and few others finally found out where he was. therefore it isn’t a time he fully remembers he has flashbacks but they are not concrete and they are the one things that worry him as they tend to flame his anger.