#“i'm smiling but man if i don't want to fck you up for so many reasons :)”

[posalis]

it's a shame we have to play these games the love we had just fades away, away

[wyldwon]

I am a slut.

I also enjoy long periods of celibacy.

You'll see me in sweatpants and baggy shirts a lot.

Wearing the most exquisite body stockings underneath.

I'm the most selfless and the most selfish person I know.

I'm a cat person.

AND a dog person - defying all universal laws because I can.

I've got small tits - and big balls.

I'm extremely feminine - and also more masculine than many a man I know.

After 2 years of pretty hippie outfits and loads of make-up and jewellery and the whole get up,

I just spend a year and a half without make up and mostly in sweatpants -

Neither did much for how I feel at my core.

I'm extremely outgoing online and usually pretty introvert in real life.

I burp. Out loud. A lot.

Just thought I'd mention it.

I am not a polite person.

I don't care much for niceties and correctness and social obligations and not stepping on toes.

I am hella respectful though, which, like genuine love, isn't always easy to recognise by the untrained eye.

I have made TONS of really stupid mistakes in my life.

And if I could go back in time and change any of it, I wouldn't. I really wouldn't.

(ever wondered what genuine self love feels like? this is it)

Ive never been jealous, distrusting or insecure in my relationships

Been plenty needy on the other hand.

I don't pacify insecurities or enable projections.

This makes me a great friend or a terrible friend - up to you.

I tend to be judgemental when it comes to small petty shit,

Yet I am one of the most open-minded people when it comes to your biggest secrets and fuck ups.

I have a MASSIVE abandonment wound.

And yet my awareness and acknowledgement of this makes me more self-sufficient, stable and resilient than those who are yet to fully own theirs.

My sexual energy is my Vibranium

But before fully owning and integrating enough aspects of self - it was my Kryptonite.

I've made him wait nearly 2 months - when living together.

I've walked up to him and asked him if he wanted to fck.

(And if I made you guess which one ended up being a successful long term relationship and which one didn't - you'd guess wrong)

I 'm usually more one of the guys,

But with the added element of sexual chemistry.

My bod is Bangin,

But it is my weirdness that makes me truly sexy.

My dancing is a seamless fusion of hip hop temple contemporary belly dance martial flow arts capoeira yoga popping dancehall dirty dancing and some other dimensional shit

I've given up trying to define any part of myself

I've broken more hearts than I care to admit.

Also healed more than I can count.

I usually feel super awkward but I don't feel self conscious about my awkwardness.

I never share anything online to help you or be of service.

I do it because it's my highest excitement, aka 'because I feel like it'.

I'm not humble.

This doesn't make me arrogant - unless you say it does.

If you see me with a faint smile I'm hiding how depressed I am.

If you see me balling my eyes out, I probably feel great (please don't try and pacify me)

For every person that idiolizes me and thinks they love me

There is someone that despises me and thinks I should change this or that about myself

And every time I so much as get my hair trimmed

These people change

but the ratio remains the same.

I'm all of these things, and yet so much more.

I'm none of these things, because they don't define who I am at my core,

nor my worth.

I'm a little bit of everything, all rolled into one (like sushi),

And so are you.

What you see most in me - is what begs to be integrated in you.

Both the 'good', and the 'bad'.

This how we become whole.

By recognising the mirror when it stares us in the face.

By accepting our seeming paradoxes.

By uniting our apparent dichotomies.

Perfectly imperfect.

Imperfectly perfect.

Not by cutting off aspects of ourselves in order to fit in and 'be good'

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