#𝗢𝗢𝗖: // but god they must regularly go 'is she really worth it?'

[doctordonovan-a]

 a section 31 ramble;   okay but today’s edit really has me thinking.  the quote   'you are a flower,   my dear.   so sweet,   so gentle and so bright. though I fear that you will not survive the cold of night'   and how applicable it is about maeve’s relationship with section 31?  because maeve’s a genius,  but more than that,  maeve sees patterns and people’s true natures in a way few others do. 

 so she’s not naive.  when she’s told her only option is join section 31 or probably be locked up for the fact mary genetically altered her and hid the fact she was half romulan?  she knows.  she knows they’re trying to turn her into a weapon.  they want to take away all she is and keep only what’s useful. 

 imagine being stuck in a situation where you know your morals / nature will get you killed. knowing you're 100% smart enough and sharp enough you could survive if you just... surrender to being what she needs to be. 

 and yet still choosing no, I'm going down as me, nobody's making me into a monster.  it’s akin to how in canon she says to diane  “if you're gonna kill me, you kill me, but I am not jumping.”  she’s fully capable of staring down a barrel and still make the decision that if she’s about to die,  she’s dying as her.   especially in her star trek verse  -  she’s so aware of how mary changed her,  how mary never cared about who maeve was just who she wanted this child to be.  

 in eras like TOS  /  SNW maeve can never be openly romulan,  it’s a secret and mask she’ll have to keep up for the rest of her life.  she knows she’s tied to S31 for the rest of her life and she knows it’s going to kill her.

she’s there to screw them over as much as she can,   and to help when something seems worth it.   at least in DS9 / voyager / etc eras she has a little bit of hope she’ll be able to get herself out of this once she meets people she accidentally starts openly caring for.