itsybitsyparker

[pluralpuppygirls]

So uh, don't scroll down if you don't wanna hear about injuries in that area (This is informative for people using epilators)

So uhhhhh if you are AMAB, don't use the epilator on your balls. Write that down in your handy dandy notebook! I may or may not have done just that and uhhhhh very fucking bad idea. Also wouldn't recommend with ass hair, just because that is a sensitive area too. If you insist on not using a razor, just tweeze. You may still bleed, but it's not as easy to just lose skin. The epilator does that, but a bit too fast.

Your safest bet is probs something designed specifically for that area, but I very much advise against testing the waters in that area with much else than that or a tweezer if you wanna

[sunrisesthings]

Oversized Hoodie

November 19, 2022

Hello, world! I've learned a lot about myself today. It was a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I was quite disappointed that one of my friends cancelled her lakad with me :( I'm already dressed so I still continue going to the mall despite of being alone. While waiting for my family to arrive to have dinner with them, I roamed around and looked for food because I was starving. I happened to buy a corn dog and an ice cream with a flavor of toblerone. My loneliness subsides the moment I taste the ice cream. I'm such a fan of sweet foods. Thankfully and hopefully I won't be able to develop a resistance to insulin.

Looking at this crowd of people around me, most of them have a companion and I can't stop asking myself why am I alone? I don't wish for more companies. Even one or two people would be enough to be with me during those times.

I can manage to be alone tho. Hovering around, looking for novels to read, eating alone and trying new things. But sometimes, I get scared by big crowds. I can't move around when my social anxiety attacks. I can't even talk to people that much. So I find wearing this oversized hoodie a very comforting one. My arms were fully covered and it was lengthy enough to reach my upper legs. It's so thick that I can't feel the coldness of the air inside and outside of the mall.

I can't deny the loneliness I felt inside :( I'm such a good company tho. Sometimes I don't feel comfortable with a lot of people but I'm a good company when it comes to being with my close ones.

I just think that maybe, God knows that I can do these things alone and I don't need anybody right now or maybe I was destined to be like this forever so maybe this was a practice? To be completely fine being alone.

Ended the day knowing that I didn't pass the DOST exam again. I wasn't that surprised, I didn't have a review and I did a lot of guessing. But a part of me, a little part of me hopes for something that maybe miracles do happen. Unfortunately, that's not the case for me.

I wasn't that 'magaling' I didn't even know if I'm the 'average one'. Sometimes I hate myself for being like this. I feel sorry for my parents too. They deserve a child that they can post on social media having a caption of "hey my daughter passed this exam!"

They didn't experience having that child and I felt really bad for that :<

I know there's still so much more in life. There would be comprehensive exams, board exam, and NMAT. I can't lose myself yet just because of this.

I know that scholarship would be a big help for me and my family. But maybe, God's plan was better than mine. Still there's a part of me that says, maybe it was for me but I let it pass, I didn't fight for it. My efforts weren't enough and that's true. But for the sake of me not blaming myself with everything, I learned to be gentle with myself and think that it wasn't really for me. Maybe God gave me a sign that there's a different path I should take and in order for that to happen, I should learn to accept the fact that there are some things that I wasn't supposed to have.

I still hope for better days, and for my victories in life and I will do my best for it to come true.

"When the time is right, I the Lord, will make it happen"

Isaiah 60:22