@korezni said : ‘ they write that i’m happy. they know that i’m not. ‘
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bill denbrough cuts a rug
if bill denbrough were a smarter man , he’d know not to let his emotions run too high , the sleeve of his thick blue sweater pulled up to cover up his immensely huge heart , taking much more precaution when walking around the busy & glamorous streets of hollywood he has now come to call his home. a place like this will eat you up billy , came susan’s voice in the back of his head , serving as some strange , mock guardian angel during moments of deep thought & contemplation. you gotta keep yourself ready for anything ! remember to focus on the work , don’t waste it all away for a pretty face ! there’s a soft laugh that leaves his lips at that , knowing that despite the warning , it was already much too late to avoid that. of course , it wasn’t his pretty face that garnered his attention , although it certainly wasn’t something he could ignore ------ the royal’s perfectly chiseled features like something out of a storybook illustration , hair that was once cut at a military length when he first met him , now growing out & much softer , the look suiting when paired with his gray coat & bright , hazel eyes so full of warmth & contentment , particularly when the writer was near. wow , he hadn’t meant to fall for him , he wasn’t looking for that at all when they first met , romance the last thing on his mind. nik produced his first movie , so , of course , bill had to get to know him , both curious to find out that not only was his financier a wealthy fan , but royalty from an unknown country ( or nation ? he wasn’t much for maps , that was eddie kaspbrak’s job , the town compass ... who’s eddie kaspbrak ? ). working closer with him turned their partnership into a deep , close friendship , one that bill had been more than thankful for since the day he came to los angeles , just as some guy from maine with a typewriter , a suitcase full of musty clothes & a dream. one movie became two , & then another & then , it seemed that nik was to be his permanent producer for all of the projects that adapted his stories , ensuring that the film directors & actors did their best to capture bill’s words properly for other audiences to see. such devotion & kindness from such a man made it easy for the lonely author to fall for him , their first kiss nothing short of romantic , followed by more sweet gestures , their usual hand holding now laced with more meaning between their fingers. their love was something bill had never imagined for himself , but now it was everything he wanted & more. unfortunately , there was a catch , of course there was. the greatest love stories always had some sort of conflict tossed in , making the reunion between the two all that much sweeter , uniting them in a bond that would seem unbreakable. as much as the young , would be king wanted to anchor his heart here , here with bill in his home , where they sat eating dinner together , the record player playing a soft , mournful sounding instrumental in the background , he couldn’t. responsibilities back in ravka called him back often , & it wasn’t as though they were something he could ignore. weeks have turned into months & the separation would always take its toll , despite all the phone calls & letters they would exchange between one another. now that they knew how deeply they felt about each other , there was no turning back. waiting for him was hard enough , & bill feared the day nik would leave for ravka , only to never come back. not by choice , but by necessity. christ , he thinks , sipping at his wine that they paired along with their dinner ( an eggplant parmesan ------ bill forever thankful by how kind the royal was for finding dishes they could both share & enjoy ) , blue eyes cast over to his boyfriend , his melancholy gaze mirroring his own.
they were connected in such a way that sometimes , words were not needed. him , a wordsmith of sorts , never had to speak whenever he was with nikolai. & truth be told , there was a comfort in not needing to say or describe everything that was happening , to know that with one look , his lover could figure out exactly what he was thinking & feeling. but this time , the royal does speak , & his words raise such a concern that bill puts his fork down , hand immediately reaching over to gently grab his , the gloves are off & always are whenever it was just the two of them. of course the people in ravka would think that he was happy & content with how things were going , never once imagining that perhaps the royal didn’t want all this responsibility in the first place , that maybe , just maybe , he wanted to have a normal , mundane life where he could stay here , stay with with him , stay in his little apartment & visit him on set or in his own home whenever he pleased. nik had to leave in the morning , & bill knew that just like him , the trips were wearing on the royal too. not seeing him smile did things to the author’s heart , feeling like a gutted fish to see ruined features so sad & almost mournful. to end their night like this when they’d go at least a few weeks without seeing one another again ( only a few weeks he hopes ) was something bill couldn’t let stand. so he wouldn’t.
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a plan is set in motionas bill release his boyfriend’s hand from his grasp , scooting his chair back with a loud creak against the wooden floor , offering nik his infamous , tired smile , reserved in the evenings when they were alone. there’s an unmistakable twinkle in his eye , one that could only mean he was planning something , a crazy , half - baked idea that , he hopes , would be the medicine the royal needed to be at ease for the evening. heading straight for the record player that sat in bill’s living room , he lifts the needle up to turn off that retched classical piece ( not that he hated classical , but fur elise did send shivers up his spine for some god awful reason ) & switch it for something a little more lively. a smile grows across his cheeks as he spots a familiar record kept in a nearby pile ------ a frankie valli & the four seasons record he got with nik on one of their many trips to the record store. an oldie , but a goodie ! removing the sleeve off of the old record , bill placed it on & returns the needle back in place , the music slowly starting. you’re just too good to be true , can’t take my eyes off of you ! you feel like heaven to touch , i wanna hold you so much ! as the music plays , bill walks over to the royal & takes his hand in his own , not waiting for a response before tugging him up onto on his feet & leading him across the living room , stopping only when there was enough room for them to move. dancing had become a past time for them , funny enough , as bill had never been much of a dancer his whole life. but with nik ? he felt like he could sway with the best of them , confidence in his chest rising as he takes the lead , moving with him as he began to sing along to the words , unafraid if he sounded out of tune or ridiculous ------ it was only meant for him. ❝ ... at long last love has arrived , & i thank saints i’m alive , ❞ he added in that word for him , hoping it would be enough to garner a giggle as his own smile grows more crazy & playful , the swaying movements turning more fast paced as he pulls him into a swing like dance , laughing as he sings between bursts of air. ❝ i love you baby ! & if it’s quite alright , i need you baby ! to warm the lonely nights , i love you baby ! trust in me when i say ! ❞
the laughter begins to die down as their bodies collide against one another , blue gaze meeting hazel & , oh ------ in the dim lighting of his home , it really made nik look more lovelier than he didn’t think possible. christ , he thinks , his singing subsiding as the record continues , the last few words couldn’t have hit closer to home : ... now that i've found you stay & let me love you , baby , let me love you ... ❝ nik , ❞ came the author’s breathless tone�� , tip toeing up to capture his lips before waiting to hear him speak , his heart feeling so full , he swears it could almost burst. bill knows nik is struggling with leaving & this show of love & fun , what he could have every night if he wasn’t of royal blood , only makes the pain of leaving all that more hurtful. bill just didn’t want things to end on a bad note , but it was sort of inevitable when no matter how happy they are , he still had to leave. for ravka , for his nation. ❝ i love you , “ he whispers against his lips , body still pressed close as they sway together , less to the tune of the record & more to a rhythm of their own design. ❝ i wish you didn’t have to leave ... i want you to stay. i want you to move in with me , i .... i just want you. no titles , nothing. just ... you. ❞ don’t waste it all away for a pretty face ! came susan’s voice again , but he wouldn’t listen. bill denbrough would give up the movie business all together if it meant nik could stay here with him ------ pretty face or not , he was more than worth it. love made it worth it.
norman fucking rockwell starters / not accepting !
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