#(im trying to survive the college war so forgive me)

[luvreyn]

My Manhwa List (2020) Part 6

sHi! How arth thou? I’m back to give you another list of recommendation! 

Beware of the Villainess

Description:

Sit back and take in this romantic tale of an angelic heroine and her devoted suitors as they vie for the depths of her love... or not. This story’s about to go through some edits! After an accident, a modern-day college student awakens as the story’s villainess, Melissa Foddebrat. She’s far from anyone’s favorite, but she IS the daughter of the duke. Determined to live it up, this new Melissa is doing things her way — antiquated society, be damned! All idiots, prepare to step aside or perish!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 4.5/5

- art = 4.5/5

- C O M E D I C  G O L D 

- their meme-able face are so funny lmao

- ml is so cute & soft & deserves everything in the world

- mc is such a bad-ass like?? she’s so cool & she doesnt deserve to be treated less by that stupid prince ok

- she is beauty, she is grace, she is the queen!

- all i do is fangirl over the mc basically

- isekai

- i love her dynamic with her bro cause honestly same that’s how my sibs and are act sometimes lmao

- her maid is so cool 

- a bad-ass with a heart

- ml has this past and secret and i’m living for it

- a gem basically

- overall verdict, a highly recommended manhwa that will make you all sort of emotions. one of the best manhwas released this 2020 ok i said what i said

I Became the Villain's Mother

Description:

Summoned into her favorite novel as the infamous Duchess Roselia Chade, Haena is bathed in riches, power, and a family of her own. Life couldn’t be better, save for the small detail that her beloved stepson, Einspanner Chade, is also the evil mastermind destined to kill her. At this point in the story Ein is still just an adorable child yet to reach his cruel awakening, and so Roselia is determined to stop him from becoming a ruthless killer. But with the duke getting in her way and trying to poison his own son, safely raising a child that was primed for villainy may prove harder than she originally thought. The survival of both mother and child depends on whether Roselia can successfully rewrite their tragic ending!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 5/5 ok i’m loving it already despite the few chaps released

- art = 3/5

- IM LOVING THE TWIST

- this is an all out war between father & son ok

- ain is so cute like??

- i s e k a i 

- ain is such a bad ass cute little devil

- i know i know i’m collecting so many isekai-ish manhwas bcoz why not

- i love the mc so much shes so adorable and her previous job is awesome (i know you dont care but i wanted to be a daycare teacher too when i was a kid so yay)  

- she’s such an awesome mom like?? 

- the dad... the dad is idk but he’s a terrible dad for me (right now)

- ^ why is this like a discouragement comment like idek what i’m thinking yet i’m not gonna delete it 

- i love that this is mostly a son-mom manhwa bcoz it’s such a breath of fresh air and not to mention almost all dad-daughters manhwa are hurting me

- i’m here for the mom and son interactions basically

- overall verdict, a highly recommended manhwas for our souls! 

Marked By King Bs

Description:

High school is hard enough without a target on your back, but that’s exactly the situation Annie finds herself in when she crosses a group of the most popular kids in school. Marked by the king bee himself, the notorious Ashton Griffin, Annie becomes his newest fixation--and he is determined to make her life miserable. Now at his beck and call, Annie must stay on Ashton’s good side to maintain her peaceful life and avoid becoming a social pariah. As she navigates her way through alienating social cliques, persistent old crushes, and the hot upstairs neighbor who never puts a shirt on, Annie will soon learn that there’s more to being popular than meets the eye. She just wanted to live a normal life, but maybe there’s no escaping these king bees. An official comic adaptation based on the hit dating-sim game. I AM TARGETED BY THEM!!!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 3/5 

- ngl but i can already feel the slight cliche-ness of this story and yet i’m still here forgive me this is a guilty pleasure manhwa

- art = 4/5

- i love the mc (yes, that quickly)

- dark haired boyo is mine ok??

- kinda funny

- i miss the school life setting so hihihi

- verdict, a cute and good read!

Pixel of Life

Description:

After finding out her boyfriend has been cheating with her boss, Hana loses her menial desk job of 5 years. Countless rejections later, she finally lands an interview at a small art gallery. Hana jumps at the chance to leave the drama of the past few months behind. But her high school friend (and worst enemy) Jiyeon is the gallery owner? Their most peculiar romance is about to begin… or not?!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- o m g

- plot =4/5 this deserves more read tbh

- art = 4/5

- i’m starting to relate to mc since i started working cause #adultingsucks

- one of my dream jobs huhuhu

- i so love the twist 

- the s i b l i n g s

- i wanna know what happens next!!!

- s u s p e n s e 

- mix with mystery and spinkle with secrets and viola i present to you: the pixel of life

- verdict, a super good read!

The Antagonist’s Pet

Description:

Blessed with the face of an angel, young Sasha Tartt knows a life-altering secret: in this romance novel where she’s just a side character, she’s the only one who knows the true ending! When the antagonist of the story takes a particular liking to her, she must make a decision: help the clever and beautiful Rebecca find a happy ending, or side with the sweet-natured protagonist to ensure her own survival? On top of that, Sasha has to juggle the affections of her bespectacled love interest and tame a dragon boy! Can Sasha learn new tricks to win the hearts of these main characters? Based on the hit novel.

WHY YOU SHOULD READ:

- plot = 4/5 so few chaps yet so good

- art = 3/5

- i so love that she acts dumb when she’s not cause i love scheming characters

- W O M E N  E M P O W E R M E N T

- who run the world? girls! 

- i love that she loves the villain cause girl same

- idec whether there’s an ml or not cause we stay for their future bond

- she is beauty, she is grace, she’s the villainess pet

- ^ it sounds better in my head

- verdict, a refreshing manhwa that will leave you wanting for moreee!

[aquagenesis]

im losing my fucking mind so everyone bear with me i’m fine though i’m just losing my mind.

i keep thinking back on a lot of my delusions i’ve been locked in for the past seven years and the more i think about them the more they all make sense.  the way i kept hearing someone’s voice in my head, the way my paranoia kept getting increasingly worse in the three years post-the relationship when i knew i was still being surveilled.

the way my immediate reaction to everything is suicide because i feel like i was cheated out of my way out following my living will being stolen from me.  i survived and i didn’t want to and there was no way for me to tell anyone what was happening because i was genuinely fearful for my life and well-being on all fronts.  i had to succeed if i was going to try again.  i had to.  so now it doesn’t even feel like the end anymore; it feels like that’s the only way out.

the way any time i have to help someone else, or do something for someone else, i freak out if i feel like it’s going too far.  my absolute aversion to being stuck in a house while everyone else is free to go wherever they want.  my fear of being alone, my fear of not being financially secure, my fear of showing any signs of personality or dislike because i’m afraid i’m going to get screamed at and abandoned and told if i’m so unhappy well why don’t i just go back.

i have to admit to myself that coming off that relationship, i was severely unwell.  i have to admit that being used as a turf war grudge match piece between my TWO wildly different abusive exes warped my brain to feel like that’s just.  what it was always going to be.  i was always going to be an accessory, i would always be a trophy, nobody would ever come and help me because they truly thought what was happening to me was wrong.  it sucks, and it sucks even more because i was then 20 or 21 or whatever i was forced to just move on with life and pretend like none of it had ever happened.

if he hadn’t found someone else it still would have been me.  i would be there now.  we were almost engaged, i was almost there.  i can’t stop thinking of the life i could be leading even though it rips me apart every time.  i can’t stop thinking one day the delusion will drop and my girlfriend will actually be him, i’ll be waking up next to him.  i can’t stop thinking of my period as the only thing keeping me from living that life.  i can’t stop remembering i was cast aside as “entertainment” because he realized he was gay and i wasn’t homicidal or obedient enough even though he spent the better part of a year blackmailing me out of a personality and out of my own autonomy.  i can’t stop thinking about the people who were looking in my windows, about the cars circling my house, about whoever it was that smashed through my window and got me institutionalized.

i can’t stop thinking about the fact that maybe if i could just get away; maybe if i could have one of those retreats where they’d send “hysterical” women into the mountains for “fresh air” maybe i’d be able to forget.  maybe if money wasn’t the thing that mattered above all, i’d be able to forget.  maybe if i didn’t know if i crawled back to him and groveled my problems would be solved, i’d be able to forget.  i don’t even want him or for my problems to be solved at the exchange of myself.  i’d rather suffer and die than ever go back to him, but maybe that’s the problem.  i’m still viewing him as an option i have to go through, i’m still viewing him as right behind me all the time just waiting to grab me again and take me away from everything.

it’s so strange to think after everything he did he’d really just be over this, but i wasn’t integral to him in the first place.  it’s so strange to think after three years it could really just be over.  it’s so strange to think dropping off the face of the earth, cutting off all my hair, changing my name could fix everything.

i don’t belong to him.  i know i don’t.  i know a living will is useless unless it has the need to be used; i know he doesn’t care enough about specifically me.  he could find anyone else; i didn’t need him as much as he needed me to.  but when he said it over and over that he owned me, he could buy me off my parents and wouldn’t they just agree if he wrote a blank check.  they wanted to get rid of me anyway, and he only made their problems with me worse.  his words still echo in my head and when i look around the world at so many people who look and sound and act just like him it’s so fucking impossible to forgive anyone for anything they do like him.  oh, you want money?  fucking colonizer.  you want security?  would you sell out the welsh people to the english to make your fortune?  would you subscribe to killing people for the sake of your career?

and they do.  i can’t even hate engineers or people who get into defense but i want to so badly because that’s what he wanted.  “your government pays you openly on college campuses to pretend you’re defending your country that’s covered by anti-nuclear warheads?  why do they bother pretending?”  “america sounds great; in the UK it’s so much harder to get a job where you can kill whoever you want”.

he was fucking disgusting.  he was insatiable.  he was every abusive ex rolled into one and the one thing he didn’t do, which was sexually exploit me, got taken up by everyone i dated after him because they were at least willing to call me beautiful and that they loved me.  and they’d tell him what they were doing to me, to try to get to him.  they would send him my pictures, they would send him everything i said about him and gloat They had me and not him.

how am i supposed to move on.  how am i supposed to be alright after this.  even if it was just all talk, to be dehumanized and objectified to every extent of the terms.  constantly.  by people who claimed to love me.

god i wish i could like, say “oh yeah hey i’m uh.  i’m not allowed to be involved with mainstream society because everything fucking triggers me.  capitalism triggers me.  people buying me shit triggers me.  the concept of sex and nudes triggers me.  vacations and disney trigger me.”  holy fucking god how am i supposed to be functional when my fucking life was on demand.  when i couldn’t eat or drink what he didn’t want me to or WHEN he wanted me to.  when i wasn’t allowed to do anything in case he wanted me.  it makes me sick to my fucking stomach.