#... i've also been in and out of therapy since my teens and in trauma-specific therapy for most of my mid to late 20s 😎👉👉👉👉👉

[boyswanna-be-her]

It also re activated a really harmful traumatic experience i had when i was 16 where my clueless ass parents read my private diary bc "teens scary" and "range of emotions scary" i guess and then as a reaction had me REMOVED FROM HIGH SCHOOL IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS and put in a juvenile mental institution because they didn't understand that i could have an internal range of emotions beyond what i shared with them. That was a terrible experience and changed the trajectory of my life, and I really thought I'd metabolized it since then but wow. The quite specific experience of being diagnosed again as BAD/NOT VALID based on a silly gay journal that i maintain for personal wellness impacted me in ways that i'm sure i'll be unpacking for a while.

It's just like... the fear of being swatted during a normal day and people with name tags and checklists taking my fucking shoelaces away... i thought i was over it but it sure jumped right out with that ask!!! I dont want to go back to crazy people prison please. I go to therapy every 2 weeks and i am in regular contact with the same psychiatrist I've been seeing since 2016. Not beating the crazy person allegations but I would fully lose it if I somehow found myself in an inpatient situation, esp after the MANY weeks i spent visiting a completely incoherent and frankly scary Jonathan twice a day when he was inpatient for-- again, can't emphasize this enough-- weeks at a time, while having a full time publishing schedule.

All this is to say please please be careful what you say to strangers. This trauma has been brewing for decades and it's actually free to not contribute to it, esp when someone posts about hitting their stride.

[souryogurt64]

omg not the tyler joseph “i can’t carry the burden of being gay” or whatever it was i almost forgot about that 😭 i was very briefly very into 21p (like, up until their 3rd album came out, the really annoying one i think it was called blurry face) and their fans were just as bad if not worse with the mental health diagnoses.

i’ve seen maybe 1 or 2 recent posts about the gw mental health thing (i follow like 50 mcr blogs total and half of them haven’t been active since 2017 so i guess i don’t see as much as everyone else does) and it’s bizarre to me. maybe it’s because i work in neuro-psychological research and currently specifically on psychosis research but some of these write ups that i see on this website about psychosis are just straight up misinformation. and when u throw it on a post about gerard it makes ppl go even more insane and it’s uncomfortable to watch. also i absolutely hate any time someone tries to diagnose a celebrity (or even a character) because it does far far more harm than good, doesn’t even matter if it’s a correct dx or not. but i could go off about self/over diagnosing for hours.

SOMETHING ELSE REALLY BIZARRE ABOUT 21P BECAUSE IM ALREADY HERE. so fun fact my dad and tyler joseph’s mom went to high school together. they were really good friends but she was a year older and when she left for college they lost touch. he had pictures of the two of them together. he hates 21p music and brings it up every time it comes on the radio.

(Sorry to hijack what you said and only respond to one part of it haha, I don't want to open up The Bearer of the Gay Burden lmao, this is just an interesting topic I want to trauma dump on)

Yeah I think the internet has done a lot of damage to how people view therapy/medication/diagnoses. I was seeing therapists/ psychologists from 3-21, have been medicated since age 7, still regularly see a psychiatrist, and I was also taken to the hospital in a cop car (lmfao) as a teen so like mental health and doctors and stuff is something I'm very familiar with.

The number of times I have had someone very assertively tell me I'm faking having ADHD and the doctors I've seen my whole life are "wrong" because of my grades or ability to hold employment or clean my room is honestly jarring. Usually these are people who self diagnosed based off things they saw online and then had to see several doctors before they could get a diagnosis and medication, or people who have not received an official diagnosis at all. There can be a lot of barriers to seeing a doctor so whatever if you're looking into coping mechanisms or how to get tested for something but like. You are not a doctor because Twitter told you liking Steven Universe is a symptom of ADHD and depression and its unnerving you believe that so sincerely