#But you don't question your canon you won't do anything but confuse yourself severely

[youve-been-etho-d]

I don't have many memories from anything but I do think I have vague FNS memories, lol

[fictolotus]

faq

q: what's self shipping? what's an f/o? what a s/i?

a: self shipping is exactly what is says on the tin - shipping yourself with fictional characters. for many people, including myself, it's a coping mechanism. f/o is short for "fictional other", a play on s/o or "significant other", n it's a character you self ship with. s/i stands for "self insert", or a character who is basically you that is in the source's universe.

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q: why do you go by multiple different names?

a: well, my actual name is rory. i used to go by keith, n key is a shortening of that (kei, but spelled differently). lotus is just a cute nickname based on my url. i've gone by several other names in the past, most notably cas and cash, but i don't really use those anymore.

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q: i'm confused about your sexuality!

a: i'm multisexual, mlm/vincian, nln/diamoric, and wlw/sapphic. i call myself both omni + bi!

i'm aromantic, which means i don't experience romantic attraction. i'm aromid, which means that i share experiences with alloaros + aroaces due to me being acespec (greyace, specifically)!

i am also fictosexual + fictoromantic. i know these are controversial labels to some people, but they're very important to me; n as they were originally coined for aspec people, i refuse to feel guilty about using them.

i am attracted to fictional characters regardless of gender, but i have a preference for men + enbies, probably due to my irl preference in attraction.

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q: wait, if you're transmasculine and agender, how come your s/i(s) look so feminine?

a: i'm extremely gnc (gender non-conforming) and i'm a femme. i actually dislike looking super masculine - the only reason i wear masc stuff irl is so i pass. however, since my s/is are fictional, i can have them wear anything i want, and they will never be misgendered no matter how feminine they are!

also, all of my s/is have had or end up having top surgery (or the magic equivalent), so i don't usually draw them in binders unless i'm drawing a backstory. this is partially to relieve my dysphoria (i desperately want top surgery lmao) and partially to open up new outfit options. but hey, if you were wondering what the scars on my s/is chest in every canon are from, now you know!

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q: what do the acronyms on your f/o list stand for?

a: they're acronyms for the source material! here's a list of the full names!

NDRV3 - New Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony

SDR2 - Super Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair

DR: THH - Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc

BNHA - Boku No Hero Academia

DDLC - Doki Doki Literature Club

UT/DR - Undertale/Deltarune

YTTD - Your Turn To Die

MC - Minecraft

SDV - Stardew Valley

STH - Sonic The Hedgehog

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q: why do you use [certain pronouns] for [f/o]?

a: as a trans + nonbinary person, i headcanon a lot of my f/os as trans and/or nonbinary. here's a list of my (headcanoned) nonb f/os, the gender headcanon, n the pronouns i use!

Izuku Midoriya - Bigender - Any pronouns

Rantaro Amami - Genderfluid - Any pronouns

Sayori - Demigirl - She/they

Mina Ashido - Feminine Xenogender - She/xe

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q: you said you're neurodivergent/mentally ill, but how?

a: i have the following conditions (in order of how much i use this blog to cope with them):

madd (maladaptive daydreaming disorder)

bpd (borderline personality disorder)

hpd (histrionic personality disorder)

trauma, possible c-ptsd (complex post-traumatic stress disorder)

anxiety disorders (generalized and social)

schizophrenia/psychosis

mdd (major depressive disorder)

did (dissociative identity disorder)

also, as mentioned in my about, i'm on the autism spectrum.

some of these are professionally diagnosed, some i'm in testing for, n some are self diagnosed.

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q: you said you're disabled, but how?

a: i have scoliosis + other crap that causes me chronic pain. a lot of activities are difficult for me because of that. i tend to be very self-consious about my disability, n hide it well, even when my symptoms and pain are really bad. i would consider myself to be "invisibly disabled".

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q: what is [insert group on my dni]?

a: it's probably a discourse term for a group of bad peope. please ask off anon or message me if you need an explanation; but keep in mind that this is a coping blog n it may take me a while to answer questions abt negative things.

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q: i have a question that's not on this list!

a: send me an ask or a dm! please understand that interaction with others is hard for me n i run out of spoons very quickly, so i likely won't answer right away. it's nothing against you, i'll get to it!