#I don't DO WELL with music lessons!!! I'm a self-learner I thought we learned this when I was in HIGH SCHOOL | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

swinging-stars-from-satellites · 10 months

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how the HECK do I explain to my parents that I do not want bass guitar lessons from my dad, I want to teach myself from the books and videos that I have. I will literally throw away every plan I have to learn this instrument if I have to learn this way I'm not even kidding. this is why I quit guitar after two months my freshman year of high school.

#and I live in their house and pay pretty much no bills so it's not like I can make my own decision on this #like lol. I have no agency to choose to do things I want to do because my parents foot all my bills and unfortunately #they're actually really good parents despite the fact that I get frustrated with them so I actually do respect them #this would be much easier if they sucked.#I don't DO WELL with music lessons!!! I'm a self-learner I thought we learned this when I was in HIGH SCHOOL #I'm too much of a perfectionist to do ''proper'' lessons bc I get so stressed out and embarrassed whenever I do stuff wrong #that it completely shuts my brain down!! and it's WORSE with my DAD because I ESPECIALLY want to do well with him #like... this is why learning hobbies from my parents DOESN'T work for me!! I want it to be FUN not a fucking... class #and now I'm ticked off and about to cry when we were supposed to be having a fun family holiday outing. yay

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