#I don't remotely mind considering myself expendable
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It is not in vain x50
#Vio's Personal#Having it repeat would have communicated my feeling better but I will spare you#My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness -pensive-#Everything seems to be in vain. I don't trust anyone you see. And I don't trust thusly that anything will get better#You see. There is nothing that makes things getting better necessary (in this life)#Expecting that to me feels dangerous. If I required it then it isn't love#There is thus a degree of expendability I consider myself and everything with#I don't remotely mind considering myself expendable#But I'm losing the thread when it comes to others#If my life is only for failure and being forgotten then whatever#But everyone in my life is dying#so to speak. But that's kind of what it is#Everyone is gone and everyone is dying y'know?#Naturally I am too lawful to question it#Not in terms of fairness etc#But the thread in my mind unravels#It is the product of a sin cursed Earth and so I am witnessing what death is#Of course#I understand#But idk. When I asked about it in prayer#'why is nobody freed' I could had been lead to Job or anything like that#To my memory that answer started with like 'who are you oh man to question God' or something#Which is generally how I live#But kind of what I was lead to for this was like#that song... which bit was it#a part of it mentions 'You heal and I've witnessed it'#And I recalled very well that God did heal me (again and again)#And it's kind of....#I don't think that I'm wrong in how a lot of my thinking is geared per se#There's really hard realities in life and you have to be able to accept them
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