#I got up for the first time today (it's 7pm) and was suprised at how weak and shaky i felt

[anarcho-masochist]

It really is like my brain went, "Wow, those are powerful intrusive thoughts you've got there. You know what's more powerful? Your desire to see this guy traumatized. Have 1.5 days of maladaptive daydreaming about them."

[nikrangdan]

photographer!ni-ki

pairing: photographystudent!ni-ki x gender neutral reader

genre: fluff, comedy

description: every time you went to the park you noticed a mysterious boy who would take pictures of the scenery on his cute little camera. you liked to see what he’d take pictures of from afar but one day you noticed his camera pointing straight at.. you

for ni-ki’s bday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE <33 sorry i posted a day late but i hope u all enjoy!

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“y/n!”

you groan before getting out of your bed at 10am

it was a saturday why was your mom yelling at u ..

you walked into the kitchen all sluggishly and rubbed your eyes

“you need to start taking suki on walks to the park. you need the exercise too.” your mom doesn’t even spare u a glance before walking out the door to run some errands

right

u forgot u were taking care of ur cousins dog while he was out of town... her name was suki

shes a little shiba inu AND SHES THE CUTEST THING EVER!!!!

WELP

u dont even have a choice anymore

u got somewhat ready before heading out with suki in your arms

shes so soft and fluffy

though u dont like to admit it, u kinda agreed with ur mom about u needing to exercise and get out the house

you’ve been cooped up in your room for days with no social or nature interaction

so

the park was about a 10 minute drive from ur house

and it was actually a really pretty park...

there was a lake and really pretty flowers everywhere and alot of gazebos and benches

and a nice open field of greenery

it basically looked like a park out of a movie

so you weren’t suprised that there was a decent amount of people there

but not too much thankfully.. or else you would’ve driven to another park with less people

you got out the car with suki and put her on the leash

let the walking begin!!!!

it was a really nice day out... the sun was shining but it wasnt too hot or cold

you led her onto the sidewalk and she began sniffing at the grass around her

whenever a few people would pass they would coo at how adorable she was

it wasnt until 5 minutes later that ur eyes locked onto a figure infront of the lake

you were just walking with suki in silence.. admiring the scenery

until u caught sight of a boy

u could only see his back but u noticed the camera over his shoulder

he was standing in one of those photographer poses where like one leg is bent and kind of out while his back is hunched to get that perfect angle of a shot

he was infront of the sidewalk railings where the lake begins and he was taking photos of the scenery across from it

it was a beautiful sight honestly

there was another sidewalk but behind it was colorful trees and blossoming flowers and bushes

u understood why he’d take pictures of it

you didnt see his face but u kind of acknowledged the boy before walking past him with suki

basically thinking he was just another passerby that you noticed making a single appearance in your life and never expecting to see him again

OH BOY U WERE WRONG

the next time you see him is 3 days later at the same park

you were walking suki again but this time at 7pm after dinner

the sun was almost done setting so the sky was getting darker but there was still a hint of the orange circle peeking from below

this time you walked further down the sidewalk path towards the scattered gazebos

and you noticed the same boy again

this time he was sat in one of the gazebos with his tiny camera in his hands

his back was hunched over again and he was looking closely at the pictures he had taken

‘oh its him again’ u thought

and that was it

LOL

u just acknowledged him in ur head AGAIN before u thought nothing of it and continued ur walk with suki

so the NEXT time u saw him was another 2 days later at 7pm again

you wanted to take suki on a quick walk

but you got tired after like 10 minutes so you sat down on a blanket u brought

suki was just laying next to u while u were on ur phone

it wasnt fully dark out yet and there was still a few people in the park

the fairy lights that were placed around were lit up already

it was super pretty and the weather was nice

after staring at ur phone for a few mins u looked up just to look around

and u saw Him again

wow

why do u keep seeing him !?!?!

his back was faced towards u like always

and he was like 40 feet away from u so he looked so tiny

but u could tell it was him because of his blond hair and black coat he always wore

you kind of zoned out and unfortunately ur eyes were trained on his back without u even noticing

and he

turned

around

for the first time EVER!!!!

its like he sensed someone staring at him

but yes he turned around with his camera in his hand

the first thing u noticed was that he got a new camera

it was a larger black one

definitely more expensive

Awe good for him!!!!!

and then u glanced up to see his face

and u made EYE CONTACT

u looked away so fast

because

He was SO CUTE.............

u awkwardly started looking to your left and tried turning ur face away from him

‘oh look at those beautiful um... birds.. yeah’

hopefully he didnt notice

*nervously sweats*

u didnt dare look back in that direction so u spent the rest of your evening in the park on ur phone or playing with suki

eventually it reached 8pm so u packed up ur stuff and went home

U were still kind of thinking about that boy....

so u were like

i need to go back

and u did Lol

u went back the next day at 6pm this time with suki

it was lighter out and the sky was beautiful

perfect for a certain boy to be taking photos

*evil laugh*

u were walking for like 15 minutes and u didnt see him anywhere :((((

the one time u go there for HIM

u settled down under a tree

suki immediately went on the blanket when u sat down too

you played tug of war with her and fed her some treats while playing

playing with her for 10 minutes straight definitely tired u out so u laid down and just stared at the sky

it was a faded blue turning into orange and pink

U were kinda bored so u sat up and started petting suki

you would occasionally glance up at the strangers walking past u

and

let me tell u what Happened..

u looked up at another lady walking her dog and went like

‘aweee that dog is so cute’ in ur head

and u took ur eyes off the dog and glanced to ur right

idk bc u felt like it

AND GUESS WHAT U SEE???!??????

THE BOY

LIKE 20 FEET AWAY

STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIELD

AND HE HAD HIS CAMERA UP TO HIS FACE

and it WAS POINTED AT U ??!?!

as soon as u looked in his direction he jumped and put his hands down

he like

Blushed????? and awkwardly smiled u know rubbing the neck and all that

he was embarrassed

ur cheeks were turning so red

BUT HE WAS SO ADORABLE

was kind of weird.... stalkerish but um

he cleared that up BECAUSE

He started walking over to u

he was wearing black jeans that were ripped on the knees with black high top converse

and a gray sweater with a black coat over it

HE JUST LOOKED CUTE OK

ur were like OMg []£{€]%[#{%€]£{

n he just Plop

he stood right infront of u basically towering bc u were sitting under the tree

suki noticed the boy and tilted her head like hmmmm???

u had the SMALLEST smile on ur face bc u wanted to seem friendly but not TOO friendly

he had his camera strap over his arm while he held it and his other hand was rubbing the name of his neck

“uh... sorry about that.. i didn’t mean to seem weird or anything!” he waved his hands infront of him to deny it

u just sat there while he talked like ❤️_❤️

“im uh taking photos for my class and i thought u looked nice so i took some pictures.. im really sorry i should’ve asked first now i seem weird or something im really-,”

u cut him off so he didnt ramble any longer

“no its okay! i get it” you gave him a warm smile and pet suki while she drifted to your side and kept her eyes on him

u both just stared at eachother for a few seconds before you spoke

“um.. would you like to sit?” you scooted over and made room for him in the blanket

WOW U WERE FEELING BOLD TODAY...

“uh sure” he set his camera down and sat beside u

“this is suki.. shes my cousins dog” u said when she climbed into his lap and started sniffing him

he grinned and pet her before looking up at you

“im ni-ki by the way” his cheeks turned a bit pink which u thought was cute

“y/n” you smiled

“suki seems to like you” u laughed

“so how long have you been working on this project or whatever?”

“oh um i started last week... i just have to make a portfolio of photos i take and turn it in” he said while keeping his eyes trained on suki

u noticed he didnt make eye contact with u often but u knew it was probably because he was nervous because u do that too

“can i see the pictures...?” u hesitantly ask him

his eyes light up when u say that

“yeah!”

AWE HES SO EXCITED

he picks up his camera next to him and clicks a few buttons

“oh by the way... ive noticed u at the park before! you’re always with the camera” you laugh

“ah yeah, this park is where most of my project photos are taken.”

he leans over and shows you the pictures on the device

“woah” you let out a gasp

he showed u the picture he took of you first

How does a picture look better than real life...

you’ve never really been into photography but now that you’ve seen his work u might just have to start getting into it

“this isnt even done yet, i still have to edit it so it’ll look even more perfect” he shyly says

“this is amazing what the heck” your jaw is Dropped

“thanks”

“i need to see the final result” u said because it was such a nice picture

“um.. if you give me your number i can show you it” he sent you a cheeky grin

SMOOTH.....

he was so AGGGHGGHG ur kind of obsessed

you two exchange numbers and talk about random things for a whole hour until he says he has to go

“it was really nice meeting you.. i had fun” he tells you as he starts standing up

suki is sleeping so he tries not to wake her up

“i had fun too” you smile

“would you like me to walk you to your car?”

A GENTLEMAN !!?!?!?!

“oh yeah, thanks”

you two spend another 2 minutes together as you walk side by side with suki in your arms and he held your blanket and bag for you

you reached your car and thanked him

“ill see you soon, dont forget to text me! and good luck on the project, i know you’ll do great”

“thank you..”

ni-ki’s cheeks turn pink once more before he turns around and starts walking away with a smile on his face

he is just the cutest thing ever

you definitely need to see him again

[icyblasty]

Entry #6

Saturday July 13,2019

I keep expecting to see him one last time because the last time that I saw him was last Saturday and didn’t go well because I have no Idea he is going to quit his job. I have a 2-8pm shift today, I was just chilling a while ago when I realized that my dad is not at home. I texted him and he said that he cannot give me a ride because he is in the hospital and was having some check ups. I was rushing because during that time I was so scared of not seeing him and didn’t have a proper goodbye. I called the taxi and got to McDonald’s at 1:15 pm, yes, I am so freakin’ early. I WAS SO PRETTY EARLY and guess what? I DIDN’T SEE HIM. I was thinking that I should’ve said goodbye properly last saturday if only I knew. But then, JM (our manager) told me to stay til’ 10pm because he needs me. Bro, I was like I don’t wanna stay til’ 10pm when my day is not going well. I expect too much a while ago and just lead me to disappointment because I really didn’t see him. He didn’t even snapback me. When I started working, It went pretty smooth. Eileen told me that he didn’t work today, made me feel sad at that moment. Time goes by so fast. That I didn’t notice It’s almost 4pm. I was in the first booth, until Jax went there to take lane 2 and cash, while I was sent to the Window to help Taylor.

BUT THEN!!!!!! I was making something that time, probably a coffee or ice coffee. When Eileen called my name and said “He’s here” and I was like “what? who?” and she whispered it to me saying “Juan” “Juan is here”. OMYGOSH. Can you believe that??? I was actually thinking that he is not coming today. I keep telling Eileen “are u sure that’s him?” “for real??? omg, you’re joking right?” and then she smiled and said “No”. Taylor and Eileen starts teasing me and giving me this weird look because they know that I’m expecting to see him today. I was not really ready to say hello or what Until JM told me to get the trays at the back since we don’t have any trays left in the window. BRUH, I WAS THINKING OF SAYING NO BUT TAYLOR THAT TIME IS TAKING THE ORDERS. I went there and I said “I need more trays” and then he said “what? you need more? You can have just five trays” and I said “I need more TRAYS” and then he said “Okay, you clean it” and I was like “Clean or else. I need more trays. You are in the first booth then you have to clean those” and I went back in front after saying those. I am not really sure why I always act like that towards him. I don’t know why I give him so much attitudes when I am just not like this to everyone. AGAIN, Taylor and Eileen gaves me this weird look and I was like “Okay, I just said Hi and thats it” and they both laughed. As the time goes by, when JM sent me to check or somehow clean the lobby, I got the chance to collect some trays and go to first booth to see him. Even went to get a McDonald 🧢 because I thought it was the cap that one of the customer lost when they went to McDonald ‘s last week. When I go there, JUAN WAS LIKE “Okay what do you want from me?” BRUH I LITERALY IGNORED HIM and went back to the lobby to clean some dirty tables.

I got my break time around 5:30ish and because I don’t know what to do. I called my bestfriend JUNE and asked for the advice. Literally, I don’t know how to approach him because I’m very shy. I don’t know I feel so shy when he do something that makes me feel like i’m special. Balwinder and I was talking about something and I don’t know why Juan is like not going to the crew room when he found out we are there and talking something. I got back around 6:10pm and I don’t know why I keep avoiding him or making contacts with him or ignoring him.

UNTIL around 6-7pm there was this lady in the front and was looking for a timing to asks something from someone. I couldn’t help it because she was looking towards my way and when I went to the front, she looks suprised and when she goes near I RECOGNIZED HER! YES... SHE’S JUAN MOTHER! She was like “Hi dear, Okay so I came here because my son is working here and I think he is in the back. I need to asks something from him. I wonder if you could asks him about the keys.” and I was like “Oh you are Juan’s mother.” and she said “Yes yes. If you could asks him about the car keys” and I was like “yeah sure, I’ll just go and grab the keys to him or I’ll call him” and she smiled and said “Oh please thank you” BRO I JUST MEET JUAN RAMIREZ’S MOTHER and his half sister. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I went to the back and said to Juan “So... your mom... is in the window right now and was asking for the car keys or idk.” and He was like “Oh okay okay. You need to take this lane and cash for a second” and I freaked out because who will be left in the window since Taylor is off. and I was like “Bruh I need to run the window too.” and he said “well I need to go and give the key to my mom” and JM is shouting where I am already and I said “I’M HERE!!!!” and He was asking if why i am in the first booth and I said because Juan is talking with his mom at the moment and JM said it’s okay. Juan went back already and I was taking order that time. I was kinda sticking out my tongue so he said “why are you sticking out your tongue. u want a kiss dont you?” and BRUH HE LITERALLY DISTRACT ME FROM THE ORDER. He was laughing when I finish taking order and I just rolled my eyes and went back to the window. WHATS EVEN MORE COOLER IS THAT, I was the one who gives his mom’s order. It was a small coffee 1 cream, Brownie cookie, strawberry danish and a blueberry danish and when I gave it to her. She said “Thank you and Thank you for calling my son.” She’s very pretty ❤️🥰😍 and she’s very nice and very kind. I even loved her voice, it’s very calm. The best thing is that she even smiled at me.

After that, I was running the window and then Juan went there to annoy me once again. He tryna keep holding my hands but he failed as I don’t wanna do it when a lot of people can see it. BUT, MY HAND THAT TIME IS LIKE WAITING FOR THE FOOD AND HE FREAKIN’ HOLD MY HAND. 😩🥰 The guy in the kitchen was literally saw that and smiled at us. And I took Juan’s hand away because Ugh 😩 I feel shy. Juan is laughing that time because of what he did. The guy in the kitchen laughed out. Until JM went infront was kinda asking him why is he such a not nice guy while he’s mom is very nice. I just overheard that his parents are separated and he got to lived with his dad for now. and that the girl with her mom a while ago is his half sister. I was pretty shocked because how I wish my parents can be a good friends just like them. 😐 But yeah, I don’t know why he’s like that but I still like him no matter what.

A lot of things happened today that I will cherished and keep ♾ forever. He kinda didn’t say anything whenever Balwinder and I was annoying each other or maybe won’t come near when Balwinder and I was just talking and laughing. I even kinda hear him say something when Karan, Wei , Balwinder and I was talking about their 🧔 beards. Wei was like I like white guys more than brown guys and I tryna defending myself to them because Juan is really the guy that I like. Then, Juan said something that make us split up and shut up. When he was supposed to help me out when Wei is on break, Karan told him to stock up and I feel like he doesn’t wanna do those. He even stared at me and give me this weird look. I don’t know if he gets annoyed because I’m so noisy or what but he keeps doing things that I get annoyed... just like throwing boxes real hard, throwing dirty scotch taped on me, or even gives me the whole Bag B and wants me to stock it for him. 🙄🙄🙄 I hate it when he does that... But for sure, I’m going to miss it. ☹️ After stocking those, Balwinder thought that Juan and I didn’t talk anymore so he keeps singing “we don’t talk anymore” BUT HE HAS NO IDEA HOW EVERYTHING WORKS 😂 and I was like yeah yeah that’s true. He just did all the stock up and never helped me. 🙄🤧 Until Wei is back and Jax is off early so... Juan got to go in the first booth. He was there but he still keeps coming in front. Even make a joke like “Cledd and I would make a cute couple” and I said “wth” and then he said “I like your watch... Can I see it?” and I said no because bruh, it’s very cheap 😂 and Juan is saying something and even kinda slightly hugged me and said “no cledd, im just joking” Wei was just staring at us 🙅💁🏻‍♀️ But yeah he went back to the first booth and around 10:55 pm I got to changed my clothes because I was planning to have a picture or impressed him 🙄🙅😐 but he just do nothing.... so Ig idk. 🤷🏻‍♀️ He was busy taking orders and running it. So I didnt bother him. Until JM, forgot to asks break time signs... he went in front and was looking for Juan because he didnt sign the break time sheet. and JM told him to go back to the first booth. I was left in the office and was looking at Juan in the CCTV 😂😂😂 IT MIGHT HARD TO EXPLAIN WHAT HE DID BUT ILL TRY. I was looking at him in the CCTV and when he passes by the office 😂 he literally stopped by and he knocked and the next thing that I know he is sticking out his lips for a kiss. He keeps begging for a kiss 😩🙄

It was already 10:20pm but JM is still doing something. I gotta wait them tho. So I went to first booth and saw Juan there. I just keep staring at him and Idk. I was just doing nothing and just blanky staring at him. I CANT STAY STILL BECAUSE I WANNA TAKE PICTURE WITH HIM AND I WANNA HUGGED HIM AND I WANNA DO THE HANDSHAKE FOR THE LAST TIME. DO EVERYTHING WITH HIM FOR THE LAST MOMENT!!! I Just wanna say goodbye properly. 🤧☹️ I just can’t stay still. Until JM keep saying that he is done we are going but then he is not yet done. It looks like it’s a sign for me to go for it. Karan and I was talking about him... Karan said go hug him I’ll look in the CCTV. I WAS SO BRAVE and went to the first booth and open my arms wide and said “come here give me a hug, its my last day too” and this tall guy ruined the mood 😂 just kidding. He said “tomorrow is my last day.” and I said “well I don’t work tomorrow” and he said “come here.” THEN WE HUGGED.

I just couldn’t stay still because a hug is not enough 🙄 dzuh I NEED SOMETHING THAT I WILL FOREVER KEEP IN MY MEMORIES. what is it? A PICTURE! I keep going back to the office and then walk around and then go to look at Juan and then go just stare at him and then go back to the office and that one just keep repeating. 🙄🙄🙄 ik, i’m so not straight forward. I went to Juan and Wei in the crew room and I was like “yow guys, did u know that they were talking about the two of you in the office” and then Wei was like “what is it all about?” and Juan is like “probably talking about how hot we are and how we captured girls heart” and i was like choking because wtf Juan. I was thinking of maybe I could left a note to Juan about how I like him because JM keep saying we are ready to go. Btw, JM just found out today that I like him and supported me ❤️❤️🥰😍😩 So I was silently writing in the tray liner until Wei is taking order in the first booth 🙄 and ruined my letter. I was like “omg wei, i forgot what to write now” and then I finished writing “I like you.” until Juan suddenly appear to take order 🙅 He first noticed the lowkey I like you words written on a Tray liner and was trying to get it but then I said “No. It’s for Wei” but then he stared at me and look at Wei and he stared once again and smiled. He comes near this time and said “For whom is that?” and I said “You” HE IS TAKING ORDERS THAT TIME, and he just need to hear those words. He said “what?” and I said “it’s for you.” He smiled and took the orders already. So I go back to the office. I am still cannot stay-still and keeps walking around. Until JM finally finished everything and wore is cap and said “We should go now.” JM went to the washroom and I was like “shet, this would be the last time. I gotta do something” and then when JM is finished using the washroom, I hold JM and said “JM... I don’t wanna go home... It’s Juan’s last day... I still want to take a picture with him” BRUH, it might not be exactly but thats how it started.

JM dragged me back to the first booth and said “Sus ako bahala” I was so shy and don’t know what to do. He dragged me and he said to Juan “Juan! let’s take picture bro since its your last day” and Juan said “Oh sure. Omg.” He was excited and he was supposed to take pictures with his phone but then I said “DONT USE UR FUCKING PHONE” I LITERALLY SWEAR 😂 and then he said “Okay...” Then we took pictures. I hugged him one more time and this time... tightly. It was just the two of us this time. ❤️ since JM went back infront. Until THAT ONE PICTURE IS NOT ENOUGH!!! Actually, it is not enough 😂😂 I stared at him and he said “now what?” and I said “I’m going now...I just wanna say bye.” and then he said “Oh shut up. You’ll be here tomorrow.” and I said “I don’t. Remember? I am not working.” then we are kinda holding out hands but not intertwined hands and then said to him “I am going to cry” and then he said “why?” and I said “because I’m going to miss you” Then he holds my hand and hugged me and then I probably he said this because he don’t want me to feel sad or what. He said “Oh shut up, we are still going to talk on snapchat” and I said jokingly to him “I am going to delete my snapchat.” and then he hold my hand and said “Okay so...Ig... good bye Cledd?” he looked in my eyes and I swallowed my saliva and confidently said this to him, “Let’s take a picture.” and said “Just the two of us” and then he smiled and said “Okay... JUST THE TWO OF US. First, we need to get good lighting. Second, good background and Third nice picture” That time his hands is on my shoulder while looking for the right spot... Until Wei 🙄🙄 suddenly appear and said “oh are you taking picture?? I wanna join!” and I was like being selfish that time and said “Go, just the two of us” and then Juan was like “Wei go away. Just the two of us first” and then Wei was doing the photobombing but Juan didn’t capture it because it was so annoying. We tryna make good picture. Wei even wanna take one with his pouty lips pointing at me but Juan was like “Wei!!! us first” and then when we finish taking ours. Wei was kinda sad 😂😂😂 so I said “okay wei, you can join now” and we got to take a picture together. We hugged once again. Then, yeah, I gotta say my last good bye. Wei even said it was a good thing we took a picture because this might be the last time that we will see each other unless we make plans outside from work. Then Karanbir and JM went at the back because I think JM needs to punch out and Karanbir was just following him. I hugged him one last time and tighly. Then Karanbir said “Oh give her a kiss Juan” and then I said “no way” and then Juan is pouting his lips toward me and when I face towards him wtf 😂😂😂 I slapped him and we all laughed. Karanbir suggest kissing my hands but then I said no thanks. Then, Juan sharing that there are lots of germs in the hands so better not. But then he said “If I see her tomorrow, I’ll kiss her” or like “If she’ll come over tomorrow, I’ll kiss her” but then yeah, that’s it we kinda hugged again and he said goodbye to Wei and Karanbir and he lastly said, “Bye Cledd.”

That’s how it all ends July 13 2019 ❤️🥰💕 I was very thankful to Karanbir and JM 😭😭🥰❤️💯💘