#I won't blame him for not joining in the current arc no matter how much I wished he was

[haru-chi]

Why isn't Natori's cousin arc talked about much ?

It was such a masterpiece of a story. it was very powerful and tragic which just hurts so much and I'm not over it or I'll ever be, it also had so many things to talk about .. like a lot for example:

-the undying trust Natori had for Natsume that no words reached his heart like Natsume's words

-that deep sad desire inside his heart which later on got crushed in the ugliest of ways not once but twice

-the fact that the Natori clan might have some secret that led people fearing their return or hating them which might be what led someone to break the barriers that protect their house ?

-Natori hating himself more and more for being weak and having such simple desire (NOOOOO PLEASE T^T)

-Natori pushing himself through his trauma for Natsume's sake !!!

-Natori's family being as worse as Natsume's relatives! I SO HATE THEM AS MUCH AS NATSUME'S RELATIVES!! THOSE COWRDS!!

-some more exorcist lore! "I thought he would wear a hat" pleaaase that killed me I can't see him doing it xDDD

-Natori's complicated emotions about the Matoba ><

-"Mitsuru was never going to be the family I dreamed of. If she had been born, she wouldn't have been my ally but my enemy" >> this simply shattered my heart to pieces that I remember I took moments off the pages to recomposed myself .. too much I just can't okay T^T

-big BIG BIG respect for Natori's resolve and pride as an exorcist even if that actually hurts him or cast him in the dark since I thought he might actually regret being an exorcist sometimes but aaaaaaaaaaaa that resolve !!! I was happy yet sad and crying !!!

-"I'm glad you're the one who exorcised me Natori Shuuichi" >> nope I'm okay not breaking down in tears or anything at all T^T

-a bit on Natori and his shiki's relationship T^T

-Natsume's respect for Natori's choice at the end that he didn't interfere and hating himself for not being able to find a solution for both >&lt;

-WHAT WAS NATORI GONNA DO TO HIMSELF IF NATSUME DIDN'T APPEAR THIS IDIOT!!!!

I feel there's more things worth mentioning but those are what's on my mind right now, I so wanna expand on everything and talk much about them but can't with this very unstable health of mine for now T^T

must come back to it one day .. I must since this story is just another masterpiece from Midorikawa-sensei that need more people to talk about it .. no simple words can express what I feel about this arc ..