#I'M KINDA SCARED I'LL FRICK IT UP AND BE FIRED BUT NOT AS SCARED OF IT AS I THOUGHT I'D BE

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I GOT AN EMAIL SAYING WELCOME TO ROUND 1 AND ORIENTATION IS TOMORROW AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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Day one of fixing my life

Let's start with a brief introduction:

Hi I'm Izen (it is not my real life name, just the one i like and think is better/fits me more than my real one). I've turned 15 years old on January 12th and I'm from Poland. I'm questioning being queer (probably genderfluid omnisexual). I'm depressed aNDD HAVE FRICKING ANIXETY. TO TOP IT OF. THANK YOU BUT DEPRESSION IS ENOUGH-

Random info about me:

1. I HAVE AWFUL MEMORY. I- i'm not even kidding. I can't remember MOST OF THE IMPORTANT STUFF THAT I SHOULD REMEMBER. IT'S FRUSTRATING.

2. I love cats, frogs, rats and snakes! I generally love animals. (Excluding dogs. THEY- THEY SCARE ME.) I also have like. 3 cats. And a snail. So that's cool?

3. I LOVE COOKING AND BAKING BUT I DON'T DO IT AS OFTEN AS I'D LIKE TO!!

4. I'm into witchcraft and i wish to get into it seriously yet i kinda can't because. I-i'm not sure if i even have a reason i just don't learn/practice as often as i want to - *laughs in pain*

5. My favorite colour is yellow (hA hA wHo wOuLd hAvE GuEsSeD?)

6. I like sewing and want to learn knitting! I have alot of hobbies/things i'm interested in yet i'm not into any of them deep enough to say i'm a part of the community? (Wait is there such thing as knitting community?)

So, since it's my first day, lets start with some most basic problems.

TO-DO LIST !

1. Clean up room.

2. Get a jar and start saving up money.

3. GET RID OF USELESS THINGS!!! A BIG PROBLEM FOR ME!!!

First things i did: got a jar for my money and put everything i have in it (other than coins). I'm gonna save up for stuff for my new room i think? Mom doesn't really work right now (she got fired due to corona :/) and we're moving in march (i think) so i can at least help her this way.

Next i started clearing out my wardrobe and getting rid of clothes i never liked/wore. I'm gonna sell some, and if they won't get sold i'll donate them to thrift stores. I buy alot of stuff in these, so it's only fair if i give something in return - there are people with worse material situation than me that don't really have the privelege to choose between buying them from store or thrifting.

IT'S SO EMPTY NOW LMAO.

While cleaning stuff i found alot of uh. Swimming suits. And i'm kinda upset - i'm not sure why though. It might be because all of them are female. Orrrrr it might be because a bottom of one of my suit got lost while i was with my dad and uh. I'm not on good terms with my dad. And i really liked the suit :'). I might try and look for a similar bottom...it'd be such a waste to get rid of the top. Also! If any of you have tips on how to dress more masculine in summer (when i can't bind myself and need to wear feminine swimsuits) i'd be glad to read 'em!

Now time to get rid of my piles of fabric i wanted to make projects with HSJDHJAHSH- There is ALOT. AND BY ALOT I MEAN ALOT. LIKE. WHOLE DRAWERS OF SCRAPS.

Also here's a pic of my cat Wifi! She's so adorable i just wanna give her paw kisses and hug her bUT I GOTTA CLEAN UP- 😭 adorable bby

I'll give more updates later because- i'm not sure how long posts can be yet :'^)

SORRY FOR ANY SPELLING MISTAKES! IF YOU FIND SOME PLEASE POINT THEM OUT! ITS TOTALLY OKAY!

That is all for now, gonna update soon!

PEACE OUT ! ✌