#I'M SLEEPY SO I MAFE THIS

[kiskisur]

morax breeding and degradation..yeah, I'm horny too

(literally almost drifted off while making this)

the dragon panted, rutting into you and whimpering against your neck.

it had been hours since morax has been fucking you, you were just cuddling up next to him next thing you know he's buried deep inside you!!

"so tight.. fuck- you're such a whore around my cock~ you like being treated like a brat?" he continued to abuse the spots that made you melt into his arms, crying out.

he kept fucking you harshly, panting and grunting with each thrust he made.

He brought his lips to your ear, his voice dripping with smug satisfaction.

"so hot.. haA~ w-wanna breed you full.." he added, his pleasure building up as his grip on your waist tightened.

It's gonna be a long night.

[benefits1986]

Growing Up All Over Again

Asking for help and accepting help given is the theme of this Caterie chapter.

Fight or flight is easier said than done. By flight, I don't mean tapping out. I mean reworking, shaping up and showing up. It's not about the messiness. It's not even about words and actions. It's me allowing people to help and me accepting the help given. It's a total shift but over the long break, I've been trying to wrap my head and hypothalamus around this bit. Mahirap pala. Pero kaya. Alam mo 'yung vibe na, shemay. I realized na seeing my ina's sleepy hometown from my BGC spot is both paralyzing and inspiring. Sakto kasi nung tama ng ilaw nung maaga akong pumasok last week. Andun na naman ako sa point na okay, kaya mo na 'yan kasi natawid mo naman ang mga ganaps noon. Let this be a reminder na all things come and go. 'Di na tulad noon na default ko is "whatever" kasi mas madaling maging dissociated and mas convenient din. This is an attempt to use what I've learned in the name of unlearning the murky side of life for the past decade. 'Di rin siya madali kasi nga part na siya ng system ko, pero, maiba naman. I'm holding onto how I helped mom and ina make it through with grace. Medyo graphic siya, pero, sige na nga. Dati kasi, lagi kong bitbit, the most pressing numbers are vital signs. 'Pag hindi ganun ang usapan, I purposefully distance myself not only from the work to be done but and everything that goes with it. 'Yung generally seryoso naman ako as much as I can pero moody ako so maraming loop holes pa rin. 'Di maaiwasan 'yun e. Pero I never ever took myself seriously. Parang malaking joke lang talaga sa akin ang mga nakaraang taon na umabot na sa dekada. 'Yung tingin ko superficial 'yung mga labor ko pero siguro, 'yung naging bitbit ko e is magkaroon ng solid connections sa kung sino mang kasama ko. 'Yun, 'di mafe-fake 'yun. So, ngayon, para maiba naman... ganun pa rin naman pero mas kailangan kong tignan na vital signs ang mga bagay-bagay na 'di naman go for the kill. More of delivering decently and more intentionally. Again, I'm not gonna make it agad-agad and will fail so miserably, pero, ayokong sayangin 'to. 'Di dahil may gusto akong patunayan pero simply put, siguro, kaya ako andito is to learn how to value myself better the right way. 'Yung kinder approach instead of the barda way. 'Yung gentle pero firm which does not only happen outside but most importantly, kinder self-talk. Dati kasi, sobrang negative ko mag-motivate sa sarili ko e. It gets things done like when I had to make choices for my mom and lola, I'd be like: Wala naman kasing ibang gagawa so no choice. Ang lala 'di ba? Ang lala talaga. So, simulan natin dito: Gawin mo kasi kaya mo. Kaya mo at gusto mo 'yan. Puwede ka namang mag-no pero pinili mong gawin kasi may ambag ka na uniquely ikaw ang may bitbit. Huy. Bakit naiiyak na naman ako? Ganun talaga e. When Caterie is crawling, maraming bato at rough edges na nadaanan.

And this time around din, pag kinakamusta ako ng small circle ko, mas may kwento na beyond "OK NAMAN" or "OK LANG". Hindi na sobrang monosyllabic na sagot na need pa ng ilang hours or araw bago mag-open up kahit onti. LOL.

Lapag ko lang 'to dito para 'pag nag-backread ako, check ko kung anong naganap starting today. LUH.