#If you don't know what trauma center is. thats ok. I know and all you need to know is it makes me go insane

[its-a-me-mango]

YOU CANNOT USE ANYTHING RELATED TO TRAUMA CENTER AROUND ME AND EXPECT ME TO FOCUS ON ANYTHING ELSE, THIS IS ALL THAT HAPPENED, THIS WAS THE WHOLE EPISODE.

[diodellet]

ooohh that ask game has some interesting questions hmm how abt 16, 18, and 23?

i am realizing just how much this ask game is making me bare my soul goshhh (/not srs), thanks for sending me an ask, bibi!

16. What makes you immediately close a fic that otherwise seemed good?

hm...well, most of the time i try to stick it out even if i'm not enjoying the fic from the first few sentences. like, maybe it's just me but a lot of the first words of a fic tends to be the (for lack of a better word) "the gunk" that precedes the actual story? like some stories just have slow starts, but they do get gud.

but to answer the q, i guess stuff that makes me roll my eyes at a fic, in the context of x readers would probably have to be:

disclaimer: most of the time, i don't mind reading these. but there are just moments where they bother me as i'm reading

reader getting carried bridal style (i dont like it, i hate it. id rather be carried like a sack of potatoes. or id rather be carried like a goat by its shepherd. but i do like seeing characters getting princess-carried) just carry me like this instead 🤧🤧👇

royalty AU++CEO/office/corporate-setting AU (like secret princess of a kingdom or being a secretary, for example) i'm not a big fan of those kinds of settings. like ok sure a chara can look good in business formal or in some fine furs, but once the eye candy wears off thats when i exit the fic oops.

fics centered around marriage: i don't really enjoy reading proposals. also thinking of how the rings, the dresses, and the flowers look is hard bcs of my (partial?) aphantasia, but weddings Are Pretty Fun as a background setting. overall, i think what bothers me most is that the chara loses a bit of their personality after they get wed together with the reader.

^^actually in relation to this... im not that big of a fan of prom/dance settings, they both read very similarly, especially since the reader tends to be placed in the more passive role of being asked out. (but when you make it angsty or hurt/comfort, ok i will read it i'm a simple girl)

Oh and ig this is just me wishing for more in the Imposter-SAGAU genre of fanfic (i mean i'm still looking around, i don't feel desperate enough to write smth of my own), but i kinda wish the charas weren't so doe-eyed and quick to apologize to the reader. like, i get the feeling of wanting to write The Good Bits Immediately (e.g. being fawned over, getting to lord that blunder over the characters) but the potential of slowburn trauma recovery and developing a relationship from straight-up antagonism is Right There.

18. What media do you want to get into because of artists/writers you like?

i think i'd want to try reading more poetry? like, if i rb a lot of web weaving, i gotta know sumn other than "deep" pop lyrics (u wont find me saying nice things about ms sw*ft). so far i'm thinking of starting with ocean vuong and richard siken (basic ik but i mean, their works are good)

dunmeshi! i've been putting it off for forever 🙈🙈 (<-girlie watched frieren and forgor abt dunmeshi bcs they got yorushika to do the 2nd OP) but senshi,,,, SENSHI THE MAN THAT U ARE,,,,

Oh! and i'm rlly curious about alien stage! my sibling's dipping into it and he told me it was basically america's got talent x the promised neverland. and he said the magic words "toxic yaoi" and "doomed yuri," i Gotta watch it atp. (also like, carole and tuesday rearranged my brain, im ready to put a sadder spin on it😤)

23. What would you make a 5 hour video essay on, if you had enough time and motivation?

as soon as i read this all my hyperfixations have: left the server HAHAHA

maybe in terms of recent ones, i could try analyzing madds buckley's my love is sick. i wrote about that album for a final paper in a basic music elective, but i was constrained to only 3 pages so i only talked about 2-3 songs. but i could pretend to be a music major and regale ppl with how the leitmotifs tie together and completely destroy me add a new layer of meaning to the songs on subsequent listens. Also like, these songs just Get It (not sure what "it" is exactly, but there's smth related to first love and love lost*)

(but atm im just yoinking songs from there to use for fic/chapter titles, i plan on using one for this ruggie timeloop angst fic im plotting out anyway)

(art appreciation ask questions, please bug me to rb some underrated art and fic)

[sodrippy]

p1: asdfgjl you becoming Amos stan within the first half of the season, dare I say ICONIC™ (also: I KNEW IT!!) I haven't read the books bc what I love best about the show is the mystery and I feel like reading them would spoil some of it for me but I know there's an amos novella that gives a bit of a backstory and honestly I don't think there's anything wrong with him besides the childhood trauma that is Really Heavily implied

p2: also I’ve noticed that he sticks close to characters he considers good ppl (his love for naomi for expl) bc he trust them to tell him if what he’s doing is wrong, like he listens to naomi bc she’s his moral compass and the fact that he cares and worries about if what he’s doing is ok means he’s def not a sociopath just really pragmatic and traumatised also im pretty certain it’s book canon that he’s not straight

honestly thank god i was like ‘mate if amos was not one of the characters you thought id love im a fake’ but truly…..we STAN!!!!! i love him sm hes valid all the time even when hes not, alright. yeah same im like, should i maybe read the books once im done w the most recent season, but then if i do that its spoilers for the show and ill be less inclined to watch it maybe and all that. 

oh yeah totally, like the first really Wild thing that struck me was when he shoots semi, before that i was really just like ‘tbh thats valid’ bc all the things he did/said were pretty much just ‘either you die or you die!’ and it makes sense, but the thing with semi i was like oh okay…but same absolutely i think his main thing is just trauma related empathy issues and such, and ur so right he makes a choice to attach himself to Moral Centers which mood makes me even more sure hes not got any kind of sociopathic tendencies or anything of that sort hes just like ‘welcome to my twisted mind but also maybe lets not’ like hes just reacting to the world around him most of the time and lets be honest if ur out there in space with twelve different factions trying to kill you would you not want someone whos got your back like that no matter what??