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into-the-milgramverse · 3 months ago

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Do you ever think about how Amane's warnings were either seen as threats (by Mahiru and audience) or as just test of patience (by Shidou)? Do you ever think about how Amane likely was just trying to protect the ones she cares about? Do you think she didn't actually want to kill Shidou, but felt like she had to to save Mahiru? Do you think that's why she's mad at us for not stopping him?

First MV, shows her helping a (cartoon) cat, getting punished, then promising to be good. Gets voted guilty and punished, giving a message that practicing medicine is bad and deserves punishment.

Second MV, shows what the punishment was and that the cartoon cat was real cat.

Do you think after that first vote result, she started to think of Milgram as the same as her mom? That Milgram has the same rules against medicine? That if Shidou continues to practice it, Milgram will punish both him and kill Mahiru?

Do you think Amane killed Shidou immediately after knowing that he was voted Innocent? Do you think she felt like that was a huge risk and that she'd get punished again, this time for ending a life too early before it was supposed to, but that she thought it was worth it to protect Mahiru from same fate that the cat she took care of faced? Or do you think she waited until she was voted Innocent as well, to get confirmation that it's acceptable to punish someone for breaking the rules? Do you think even then it felt like a risk given how close she was to being voted Guilty again? Do you think she's currently scared of what we'll do now?

Do you think she regrets the decision? Do you think she too blames herself now for Mahiru's death, along with millions of voices that blame her for it?

#Amane thoughts randomly spawned while I was listening to MeMe (vocals only) vers. on loop #Started somewhere after “that moment at 02:33 mark sounds so angelic with how Natsuki Hanae's voice echoes” thought #somehow brain immediately connected “Mikoto's voice -> аngеliс -> аngеls -> Gоd -> rеligiоn -> Amane”#catch the subtle censoring so I stop getting those fuckass tumblr ads that keep showing up every time I mention those specific words #or go through Amane or Fuuta tags (scrolling through Amane and Fuuta tags and there's 99% chance I'll get jumpscared by rеligiоus ad)#Oh my gоd 99%... 99.. a 9.... Like... Like... 09... Mikoto reference... (fucking hell get him out of my head too. Why is here.)#Mikoto why are you fucking everywhere. I can't escape him either.#Mikoto thoughts would be at least bearable if they were actually easy to put into words in some way or another.#But they're such a fucking mess that I can't even do a “something something (insert vague ideas)” with him.#Don't mind the tags. Focus on Amane post above. I'm just losing my mind in the tags. As usual. :)#Okay. Uh. Completely losing it Because Of fucking Mess Of Mikoto Thoughts aside. Back to Amane.#I actually believe Amane doesn't and never has hated Shidou. She may have been frustrated by how he brushes her warnings aside and how he #he would treat her as a child and. If minigrams are to be taken into account. how he never took no for an answer no matter how many times #she told him she won't eat the pancakes. but being frustrated with someone's actions =/= hating them.#She did not hate him. She did not hate Mahiru. She had nothing against either of them. She was trying to save them from Milgram's punishment #And when both of them ignored her warnings. She had to take matters into her own hands to try saving at least one of them.#It's 02:10 AM and I'm over here getting sad over a fictional child that is constantly misunderstood and seen as evil by the fandom #meanwhile a fictional man from same media won't leave my mind either. Help. Sobbing Crying Breaking down Shattering into millions of pieces #that. that last one. may have been a poor choice of words. given what fictional man it's about. 😶#Anyways. Throwing this into the wild. Good luck to anyone who's about to read this wall of text (post).#Double (... 😶) the luck to whoever also reads through this nonsensical second wall of text in tags.

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