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ghostprinceiii · 2 years

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Okay it's 4am so this is gonna be kinda sappy or whatever but So Much of what I read involves romance (and I read,,, So Much in general) that I've kinda become desensitized? to it? or something? Idk I've gotten really used to it and I can appreciate it in writing from like a narrative standpoint or whatever, but then occasionally I'll come across a story about an aromantic/aroace character and I just have one of those "oh" moments, y'know? where I'm reminded that I can be happy too. I could have the kind of meaningful relationships these characters have and I don't have to force myself into a romantic relationship to have that. Like, that's genuinely an option and it's so good. Cuz, like, I knew that, but until you see an example of it and you can kindof picture yourself like that more clearly you don't really know it.

#In fiction in particular the character being aromantic really drives home the point of having really strong and close friendships (separate #from queerplatonic relationships) cuz like you *know* that its distinctly platonic. They're aromantic so there's a guarantee that it's not #being written that way to lead into romance or have romantic undertones that just aren't explicitly stated or expanded on. Which is very #good and comfortable for me. There's also just the whole 'this character is Like Me' thing which is nice.#ghostprince posts #idk I was doing art earlier involving the aroace flag and thinking about moving up my next doctor's appointment to talk about top surgery #and just generally being kinda introspective. And now it's 4am and I'm reading a fanfic about an aromantic character and his friends during #valentines day and how they're showing affection all-the-same with no expectations or strings attached #and like 'oooo cringe fanfiction' or whatever but something I've been tryna work on is acknowledging that my interests are genuine and #aren't something I need to be embarrassed about and I should allow myself to be expressive about what brings me joy or something.#Mostly this involves explaining Minecraft mechanics and the OBS Studio settings menu to my dad. But it's progress. I dont think I can go #about it in the same way as my brother but I'd like to start working towards being a more genuine and happy person if I can? I've still got #all of ths mental illness and physical ailments and everything so my efforts may not work out if I can even work up the energy to try #but I'm atleast starting to *want* to try being me and being happy for once. Idk I just think that'd be nice.#I also want to buy a custom-made cowboy hat.#DNRB #not a vent but still a personal post so no reblogging please

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