#SPIDERVERSE / i like it when trouble brews; i won't dare change

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@wildkaart: ( from Pav! the buzzfeed unsolved meme you reblogged on your multi! ) "My demons are chasing me and they're doing the Naruto run."

𝐁𝐔𝐙𝐙𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐋𝐕𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

« ...demons can do the naruto run? » she looks as if this is the most horrifying news she has ever known. of course, she gets the idea that he's not being literal― but the mental image of a demon running at high speeds in such a silly manner is still present in her mind. it's uniquely horrific, in a way she can't quite explain.

but she brushes the thought aside, for now, in favor of sitting next to pavitr & setting a slow, unsteady hand upon his shoulder. it's meant to be a comforting gesture, but kitiara remains uncertain of her own ability to provide the same comfort he & maya have provided for her in her own times of need. though she has to take her hand back anyway, to be able to sign again.

« well, regardless... those demons don't have to win. i don't know if talking about them helps you... but whatever does help, i'm here to do it. just like you've done for me. »

there's a pause that follows before she signs again.

« ...why are they running like that, though? »

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@wildkaart: ( from Pavitr!!! ) i'll be right here, no matter what you need.

PROMPTS FOR HELPING OTHERS

her hands are wringing together nervously, & and her eyes are unable to meet pavitr's for several moments. it feels to her as if she's been put on the spot― but even if that were the case, it would be of her own accord. she had been the one to seek him out, after all, with the rising agitation of the symbiote within driving her to fear lashing out against the wrong targets. for all she has been doing to use venom to protect pavitr & maya, even without their knowing... slipping up would be devastating to her now.

it's best, then, to show her hand & get help for it before the worst comes to pass.

« i... i know that. this isn't something i can.... really put off, though. » signs finally made, kitiara nervously meets his eyes, doing her best to ignore venom's angry protests in her head. as well as the painful way he moves around inside, like an unforgiving pressure in her chest squeezing at her lungs, her gut, even her throat.

all this, because it's getting stir - crazy and eager for food & crime alike. to be freely himself, while kitiara, for the first time, is unsure about allowing it. talk about frustrating.

« i'm... i'm having a bit of trouble with something, » she finally starts, stopping to wince & cringe every once in a while over that internal pain. « i wasn't― i wasn't the only thing to come from 42 into this universe. i have― i brought something else. had to. don't know yet if we're even able to be separated― »

suddenly, kitiara lets out a shout, a mix of frustration & pain, before finally giving into venom's demands, at least somewhat. she allows him to come out, at least partially, nothing more than an inky, floating head hovering over her. but she allows him no chance to lash out if he wanted to by grabbing at those inky tendrils, then at his head, to reel him back. a far less painful ( but very raspy ) stand down is growled out, symbiote & host glaring at each other for several moments before finally, it does as commanded.

it's then that kitiara once more turns toward pavitr, if a bit fearfully.

« up until now... we've been doing pretty good. stayed in sync. in control. but... i don't want to keep doing the awful things we were doing before. it was cruel then, but... knowing you, & aunt maya, & everyone else i've been able to meet since coming here... i've realized i don't have to keep being like that. it doesn't sit right with me anymore. so we've started drifting apart― but neither of us really want to find out if really separating would be a death sentence or not. it has been before... so... i wanted to ask for help instead. to appeal to this thing, i guess? but also to just... keep me on the right track. not let me just give up and go back to what i was doing before. you're the only one i trust to at least give me a chance rather than throwing me out immediately, so... will you...? »

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@wildkaart replied to your post “« did you know symbiotes could have a specific...”:

Pavitr vc Kit you know I can literally get Indian streetfood for free as spider-man, right

« ...but i can pay for my own food? » signed with a bit of hesitance― she does think it's sweet, but she still feels a little bad about the idea of having him do anything of the sort.

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« did you know symbiotes could have a specific food taste? like, beyond raw meat? 'cause i didn't. » she is staring at just how much of her bank account has been spent at various indian restaurants for take - out. not that she regrets it, but she's realizing it's the only thing she eats now.