#This week a co-worker at my job that I've been at for almost 5 months now was like

[theirloveisgross]

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[tarothermit1]

My life is flashing before my eyes. One of my co workers finally passed her exam and she's officially a Behavior analyst. I'm trying not to compare my journey to hers, but God damn... I've been in this field for 5 years now, started collecting my hours October 2020, and I still have 500 more hours to go.

But I don't have anyone else to blame but myself because I haven't been working full time like my peers. But the journey in your career is always a unique one.

I'm just about done with thesis, the hard part is over. But I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place because I'm moving in 5 weeks and just ??? Where is this going I haven't even received irb approval. Not sure what's taking long but i need to hurry and graduate.

It's funny, I'm comparing myself to my peer who has already graduated, didn't have to do a thesis project and worked full time this whole time. Meanwhile, I haven't even graduated yet. Just give me my honorary degree already.

When I move to Miami, it'll be a new start. I'll be done with school by then and I can just focus on collecting the rest of these 500 hours. It's been a long time coming but I am almost at the top of the mountain. I've been working my ass off the passed 2 years and I'm still not done.

I hope to collect my hours the earliest in July, the latest in August. But I need to get this done by the end of the year. I've been in this phase in my life for far too long at this point.

The agenda in Miami, find a decent job where they provide quality supervision, collect 500 hours 🤞🤞we're shooting for being done by December 2023. Study for the exam for 3 months, take the exam and at least officially become a behavior analyst by this time next year

We're almost done.. just keep swimming.

[imlovedandalive-blog1]

It's been a while. To sum it up, I dropped out of college temporarily and I'm possibly going full time at stop and shop. Jesus christ I should have kept up with this. So much has happened. I'll go off the last 6 months. Over the summer I started dating grace. We had been friends with benefits for a month or 2 before we dated. We had so much fun. We wound up breaking up the start of September or so. I never really felt as close to her as much as the rest. I knew it wouldn't last deep down. I also had started work at stop and shop in early August. Within a month I was moved to the service desk and then quickly became a cdh. Which means in charge of the front end. I have also been offered a full time position which I am waiting for the current full time cdh to move up so I can take her spot. I would love to take it. Work there is absolutely awesome. I love helping people and my co workers are awesome. I feel like 99% of the people really love me there. The workers and the customers. I get a lot of compliments and things like that. I'm really glad I got this opportunity to move up in the company. Maybe that's my life. Maybe its not. Either way I'm happy and I always have an alternate path. Which takes a lot of stress off my mind. I have also been seeing this girl who will remain anonymous. For now. I've loved her for a while and I have always wanted her but I couldn't have her. I finally do. It's a dream come true. I have had my eyes on her throughout all my other girlfriends. We hang out a lot and I feel so alive with her. Its great. If it lasts it lasts if it doesn't, life goes on. It's part of my life. My story. I've been writing songs for my band with a more positive outlook. My favorite lyrics I ever wrote is "I've had my share of hard goodbyes. People come and go but it's just part of life. I wouldn't change the past good or bad, I'm just grateful for what I've had" it sums me up perfectly. My outlooks on life has always been positive. Or really I just dont care as much as others. I'm usually pretty happy. I've just been sleeping, waking up, working and possibly seeing friends. I like it. But if I get the full time I'll have a real schedule so its gonna be awesome. 8-5 on most days. I'll be so happy. I'm 18 and I might have a full time job. I'm proud. I've been saving so much money as well. I put away almost all my paycheck every week. I want to retire early. I fucking love life.

Still a lot of things I left out I can try and get to. I'll try.