#Those photos were gnarly but they didn't make me afraid

[stardustedknuckles]

Brains are fucking weird. I saw that recluse in my tub last night and of course it was still stuck under the cup this morning, so I... Spent a half hour looking up if it could be any other spider (it could! Southern house spiders look REMARKABLY similar and even have a marking behind their heads, though it's generally thinner than a recluse mark) and swapping the cup for glass so I could get good pictures of it and count the eyes. It took an hour because spiders are super fucking difficult to photograph with that amount of accuracy and I kept having to add light.

I finally got a definitive photo. 3 dots across the face, two eyes each even if too small for me to see individually. Definitely a recluse.

And I don't know what the point of any of that was but I felt like I could not walk away until I had properly identified it with that safety barrier between us. I'm not going to pick up the glass and kill it. I'm too afraid of it. I'm certainly not going to risk sliding something under the glass and dropping it on the way out the door, and also no offense but I really don't want to put it back out where it can get in again. I really wanted it to be a house spider so I could let it go. But it's not. And I used up an hour of my day and I still have to like. Do stuff. Just go about my day with something terrifying trapped in the bathtub. Wtf are brains.