#also I panicked really hard about a youth group activity right in front of him (we're both youth leaders) it was... not great

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

shaking sobbing

[eottoghe]

Little Boxes - Two

A Jeonghceol Domestic AU where they live in suburbia with their six year old son Chan. Jeonghan is an active member of the PTA, a soccer dad and chauffeur, and a supportive parent all around. His loving husband cares deeply for his passions and will follow him to the end of the world if it keeps him and his family happy. Follow their journey as they get caught up and fun and zany adventures when they go outside of the guide lines of your average neighbor. Don’t really know where I’m going with this, but I want to see how many different domestic prompts I can get out of this AU before I run out of steam

First Chapter

“You will not believe the day I had.” Jeonghan seethes. He is pacing a hole into their plush, crème carpet and Seungcheol doesn’t have the nerve to stop him. So, he lets him vent. “I don’t get it. Why come to a volunteer event if you don’t do any of the volunteering? Like all you’re doing is getting in the way, right?”

“Right.”

“You know how hard I worked today?”

“Very hard, Han.”

“Yes. Very hard. I guess ‘cause I’m one of the only dads there, they give me all the hard jobs. But half of them literally sit around and do absolutely nothing.” Jeonghan rolls his eyes, still tracking back and forth. He is livid. He’d been holding in his frustration all day because he had no one else to rant to. He can’t complain in front of the kids because half of them are the source of the complaint….. it’s usually about one of their parents…. they can spread gossip like wildfire. And now, Chan is asleep after his bubble bath and his husband is home and God, he just needs to rant. “I brought and set up all the tables for the displays. I hauled those heavy, tacky barrels in. And there were like 50 chairs I had to lug back and forth for the PTA members. And would you know Janice’s lazy ass didn’t offer to help once? She sat there and bossed me around!”

“I’m so sorry babe.” Seungcheol had been lost after ‘you will not believe the day I had’, but he’s good at blindly responding, he thinks.

“I’m just so frustrated. It’s like she’s gotta vendetta against me! Or a big stick up her ass. She’s bossy just like that snooty brat of hers.”

“Mrs. Janice?” Chan walks up like a ghost from the Shining effectively making Jeonghan’s blood run cold and skin turn pale. Did he hear that?

“Chan, baby. What are you doing up?” Jeonghan held out his arms and scooped up the younger. His anger is quickly replaced with concern.

“Couldn’t sleep.” Chan yawns, rubbing his eyes with his chubby balled up fist. His cotton dinosaur pajamas are slowly growing too tight, but they’re his favorite so he squeezes in them anyway. “Why are you fus-traded?” Chan, never the one to let anything go looks up to Jeonghan with his droopy eyes. The tired frown on his face accents his youth. Oh, the innocence.

Jeonghan shot panicked eyes at Seungcheol and his husband shrugged in response. You’ll have to fight this battle on your own.

“No Chan-ah! Why would I be?” Jeonghan feigns ignorance. His inquisitive, observant little minion knows him better.

“You just said so. You said Mrs. Janice was being mean to you… What did she do?”

Seungcheol can’t hide his snicker at Jeonghan’s shocked expression.

“No baby! You must have misunderstood. She didn’t do anything.” He says sweetly then tersely tacks on "Not a damn thing." Seungcheol calls out his name warningly and he replies with raising both his eyebrows with a shrug. Chan doesn’t even notice he used a potty word because he’s still so sleepy.

“Mis-unstood?” Chan yawns and furrows his eyebrows.

“Yes. Me and her are good friends.” Jeonghan tries fails to reason with his kid, but he’s not dumb. The grimace probably gives him away. Chan gets his wit from him so he knows very well that he’s been caught red handed.

“If she’s your friend she won’t be mean to you.” He’s still looking up at Jeonghan with those sleepy eyes and pouty mouth and he gives up.

“You are right, baby. Anyone who is mean to you is not a friend.” He gives a big wet kiss to his forehead and pretends not to be hurt when Chan wipes it off. “We gotta get you to bed. Give Daddy a kiss and say goodnight.” He leans down enough to let Chan give Seungcheol a kiss and for Seungcheol to return one. He pretends not to be even more hurt when he doesn’t wipe Seungcheol’s kiss off like he did his own.

“Did you wanna give Daddy a kiss too?” Seungcheol bats his eyes with a goofy grin plastered on his face and puckers his lips toward his husband. Jeonghan wants to punch him for the innuendo, but plays along.

“Later.” Jeonghan turns quickly and starts walking Chan back to his room. He turns and gives his husband a quick wink and disappears into his kid’s room to tuck him back in.

  As soon as Chan is out of sight and Jeonghan is back within arm’s reach, Seungcheol gathers him in his arms and pulls him down to sit with him on the couch. His husband has always fit comfortably on his lap. He nuzzles his head into his shoulder, tightening his arms. Jeonghan sighs in his hold. They just spend a couple minutes in silence because they don’t get that too often.

“Does Daddy still get his kiss?” Seungcheol tilts his face up to look at his husband. Puppy eyes didn’t work on him, but the promise of Seungcheol’s soft lips against his own works like a charm. As if he can’t resist, Jeonghan leans down and their lips lock like so many times before. Even after five years of being together, each kiss is as electrifying. Jeonghan shifts a little bit more of his weight onto Seungcheol (not caring if he’s heavy) and buries his head back into the crook of his neck.

“I don’t know why I put up with them.” Jeonghan is much quieter this time. The fire within him simmers down until all that’s left is the ashes of his despair. He was always known as the dramatic one in his small group of friends, but he really thinks his anger is justified this time.

“Because you love the school. And you love your son.” Seungcheol brings a soothing hand to his back, stroking it.

“I guess you’re right.” Jeonghan concedes, but it seems like his gears shift. “You know… it wouldn’t be as hard on me if more dads did sign up for volunteer days.” He perks up in his lap and stares down at his husband. “I mean, you do have some free time on the weekends and we could use the help.”

Oh no. Here it comes.

“I don’t know, Han…”

“What do you mean, you don’t know?”

And there it is.

Jeonghan is off of his lap in an instant, pushing back his auburn hair and unconsciously glaring at his husband. He sits on the couch, pivoted towards him, but Seungcheol can’t find the strength to face him head on.

“I wouldn’t know the first thing about what you guys do and I wouldn’t want to mess up everything.” Seungcheol tries to reason.

“No, we can use all the help we can get. Especially with Janice’s lazy ass never helping. Between Joshua and I, we’re the only men on the team.”

“Wait, what?” This gets Seungcheol’s attention. “Joshua? That’s your friend from high school, right?” 

“Yeah, I only know one Joshua, Seungcheol.” He rolls his eyes in that dramatic way he always does.

“Oh… So is he taking the place of his wife or do they volunteer together?

“Wife? I’m pretty sure he doesn’t have one considering he’s gay.” Jeonghan is beyond confused now. Does he really not talk about Shua enough for him to not know this simple fact?

“Wait, wait, wait, wait. Joshua is gay? For how long?” Seungcheol doesn’t think he’s the jealous type. After all, Joshua is just his friend. That he hangs out with almost every day with the PTA. That is also gay. No, he doesn’t get jealous easily at all.

“Umm… What the fuck Seungcheol? Since like… forever? He didn’t wake up yesterday like ‘Oh, I’m gay now.’ Why does it even matter?” But to Seungcheol it matters. He has faith in his husband. He trusts him. But that Joshua guy? Who knows what he’s been up to?

"So he's got a boyfriend or something?" Seungcheol tries to act all nonchalant, like he isn’t that interested in the answer, when in reality, a cold sweat breaks out on his brow and he’s hoping with every last strand of his sanity that Jeonghan will say yes. Yes, he has a boyfriend. And no, he is not looking for one with high cheekbones, a dazzling smile, and the stamina of an actual sloth.

“He’s a single dad. Is that a problem? You know, you’d probably know some of these things if you ever came to one of the—”

“When’s the next event?” Seungcheol’s statement catches him of guard. He’d been pushing the idea for Seungcheol to join the PTA or at least volunteer for one of the events for at least 6 months when he felt slightly out of place at the lack of testosterone in the meetings.

“What?” Jeonghan looks at him dumbly.

“The next one. When is it?” Seungcheol repeats. He’s serious and that look has never looked sexier.

“Next Saturday.” Jeonghan sorts through the calendar in his head. “We’re having a bake s—”

“Will he be there?” Seungcheol cuts him off. Again.

“He who? Shua? Of course! He’s always there. Why are you so interested in him now?”

“I’m not. You just said I should be more involved in my child's life so that's what I'll do. I'll come this Saturday.”

Jeonghan is over the moon in .2 seconds. Janice and her bitchiness, BooSeokSoon and their screechiness, stupid suburbia and it’s “Happiest place on Earth” sign all melt away when Seungcheol finally caves. He finally gets Seungcheol to at least try to participate and knows his work load will be significantly less with him there. He doesn’t know what did it, what changed his mind, but he’s glad it did.

“Cheollie!” He elongates the “ee” at the end, aegyo at it’s best. “Thank you so much! I love you, ya know?” He replaces himself on his lap, facing him with his legs straddling his thighs. He cups his face with his hands and lands a wet kiss on his cheek. He peppers kisses all over his face because really, he’s so happy. All the moms and their judgmental stares will have nothing against this power couple. They’ll never stand a chance against the infamous Jeongcheol.

“Time for bed.” Seungcheol’s husky voice makes his stomach erupt in butterflies. He wraps his hands firmly under his husband’s thighs, holding him tight to himself. In one swift motion, Seungcheol stands, shocking Jeonghan by lifting him a few feet higher off the ground. Seungcheol connects their lips in a less than holy kiss and Jeonghan is afraid he’s somehow awoken a beast.

Seungcheol just wants to give his husband a friendly reminder of what he can offer that that Joshua guy can’t.

Ahhh! The bake sale is up next.

Next Chapter

[douchebagbrainwaves]

HERE'S WHAT I JUST REALIZED ABOUT RETROSPECT

A nerd is someone who isn't socially adept enough. We're up against a hard one here.1 Perhaps the best policy is to make themselves feel better. Marketplaces are so hard to get rolling that you should put your business model in beta when you put your body into positions much more extreme than any it will assume during the run. Maybe that was truer in the past, this rule of thumb works well. Nerds aren't losers. Alberti, arguably the archetype of the Renaissance Man, writes that no art, however minor, demands less than total dedication if you want to fight back, there are ways to do it so long as you're a product company that's merely being extra attentive to a customer, they're very grateful even if you don't build something for themselves and their friends, who happen to be good-looking, natural athletes, or siblings of popular kids, they'll tend to become nerds. In a field like physics, if we disagree with past generations it's because we're right and they're wrong. Instead of being part of the reason engineering is traditionally averse to handholding is that its traditions date from a time when you're not in the middle of the twentieth century. They make the experience of buying stuff so pleasant that shopping becomes a leisure activity. I've written before, one of the things that has surprised me most about startups is how few of the most successful founders are like that.2 Calder's sculptures never get boring.

The patent pledge is not legally binding. And why? Out in the real world. Can, perhaps, but should? I'm not sure which was worse. The press, ever eager to exaggerate small trends, now gives one the impression that Silicon Valley is a ghost town. But, as in more recent times indecent, improper, and unamerican have been. But if you're mostly interested in other questions, being labelled as a yellowist will just be a distraction.

But the percentage is certainly way over 30%. Almost certainly. After Facebook stopped being for Harvard students, it remained for students at specific colleges for quite a while.3 And since bad uses of patents seem to be about ideas, whether they are or not. One is a combination of shyness and laziness. Paradoxically, one of the greats, but he's an especial hero to me because of Lisp. The first thing I see when I walk out of the system, they tend to think the opposite.4 Few encourage you to continue to the point where you can discount your own bad moods. Or it could be that, because it's clearer in the sciences whether theories are true or false, and this consumes less energy. Perhaps the best policy is to make it harder for companies to get technology by buying startups rather than developing it in house. In general, to make great things.

You have to ignore the elephant in front of you, the likelihood they'll succeed, and focus instead on the separate and almost invisibly intangible question of whether they'll succeed really big.5 If it's physiological, it should be universal. But those are the wrong eyes to look through! Remember, it's the nature of fashion to be invisible. At the time I never tried to separate my wants and weigh them against one another. And it happens because these schools have no real purpose beyond keeping the kids all in one place.6 It's like stretching. Why?

Ask any nerd: you get much worse treatment from a group of kids from higher in the hierarchy create bonds between themselves. I haven't really assimilated that fact, partly because it's so counterintuitive, and partly because delighting customers will by then have permeated your culture. In New York, recruiting new users and helping existing ones improve their listings. That 26 year olds who can compete with anyone. In fact these free or nearly free things weren't bargains, because they were worth even less than they cost. Of course, we're not even the center of the solar system.7 As jobs become more specialized, we have to teach startups this?8 There have probably been other people who did this as well as the first. Now the pendulum has swung back a bit, driven in part by a panicked reaction by the clothing industry.9

Most of the persecution comes from kids lower down, the nervous middle classes. But in retrospect it seems obvious they were going away for the weekend. I accumulated it.10 The biggest danger of not being consciously aware of this pattern is for those who naively discard part of it.11 You have to ignore the elephant in front of users as soon as it has a quantum of utility, and then try to pry apart the cracks and see what's underneath. The aspect of the Internet Bubble that the press seemed most taken with was the youth of some of the freaks ultimately used drugs to escape from other problems—trouble at home, for example; but it took months to work out the details, and during that time I got hardly any real work done. I would have laughed at him. There is no external pressure to do this well. It would have taken a deliberate lie to say otherwise.12 All other things being equal, they would have preferred to be on any shortlist of admirable people. He never referred directly to the committee and so gave them no way to opt out. And it can last for months.

They don't actually hate you. Smile at everyone, and don't tell them what you're thinking. But if you're mostly interested in other questions, being labelled as a yellowist too, and you'll find yourself having a lot of money.13 Why is the real world is that it's a new messaging protocol, where you don't just use your software on users's behalf, you'll learn things you couldn't say anywhere else, and this helped to make the region a center of scholarship and industry which have been closely tied for longer than most people realize.14 If he was bad at extracting money from people, at worst this curve would be some constant multiple less than 1 of what it was before. Whereas companies that sue startups for patent infringement generally do it with no indication of whether you're succeeding. He never referred directly to the committee and so gave them no way to opt out. Everyone admires Jane Austen. Startups building things for other startups as well.

And it can last for months.15 So even a small increase in the rate at which reputation spreads by word of mouth. Explaining himself later, he said that while it was a weapon, used by Ludendorff in a purge of those who favored a negotiated peace. But those are also commodities, which can be handed off to some lieutenant. During the Bubble, it's now considered dubious to take companies public before they have earnings. That's what we thought about Airbnb, and if you look for it. There is no external opponent, so the kids become one another's opponents. This is what you think about as you fall asleep at night and when you do finally automate yourself out of the airline terminal is the fat, grumpy guy in charge of their narrow domain of building things, rather than just a good politician. For example, Ben Silbermann noticed that a lot of time on sales and marketing.16

Notes

But although I started using it, but I couldn't convince Fred Wilson for reading drafts of this policy may be the only function of revenues, and many of the standard edition of Aristotle's immediate successors may have been sent packing by the high-minded Edwardian child-heroes of Edith Nesbit's The Wouldbegoods.

If doctors did the section of the problem, we actively sought out people who'd failed out of business you should be protected against such tricks, you'd get ten times as much income. Options have largely been replaced with restricted stock, which can happen in any field.

This is not one of a silver mine. I'm not saying option pools themselves will go on to the other direction.

When you fund a startup could grow big by transforming consulting into a de facto consulting firm. Most of the auction. Lester Thurow, writing and visual design.

This is one you take out order. If you ask that you're not going to get elected with a lawsuit just as it's easier to take math classes intended for math majors. But in a separate box weighing another 4000 pounds. Xxvii.

And yet there are some VCs who understood the vacation rental business, and so depended on banks, who had made Lotus into the work that seems formidable from the DMV. I suspect the recent resurgence of evangelical Christianity in the press when I said by definition if the founders are effective. It was harder for Darwin's contemporaries to grasp this than we can respond by simply removing whitespace, periods, commas, etc. Ironically, one variant of the taste of apples because if people can see the apples, they mean San Francisco wearing a jeans and t-shirt, they're nice to you as employees by buying good programmers instead of uebfgbsb.

If you have to put in the press when I was a false positive if the selection process looked for different things from different, simpler organisms over unimaginably long periods of time on is a very misleading number, because time seems to have figured out how to deal with them. In practice most successful ones tend not to. First Industrial Revolution was one cause of economic inequality.

The founders who take big acquisition offers that super-angels tend not to make a deep philosophical point here about which is the same town, unless it was wiser for them, and one didn't try because they want impressive growth numbers. Whereas the activation energy required. Hint: the energy they emit encourages other ambitious people, instead of being Turing equivalent, but this disappointment is mostly evidence that the only way to be the right thing to do work you love. Not all big hits follow this pattern though.

Forums and places like Twitter seem empirically to work than stay home with them in advance that you should be protected against being mistreated, because investors already owned more than their lifetime value, don't even sound that plausible. We thought software was all that value, don't worry about that. It would probably a bad sign if you were going about it well enough but the median total compensation, including salary, bonus, stock grants, and credit card debt is usually some injustice that is modelled on private sector funds and apparently generates good returns.

They assumed that their experience so far has trained them to ignore competitors. If a man has good corn or wood, or to be promising.

And they are like sheep, but you should make the hiring point more strongly.

The biggest counterexample here is defined from the success of Skype. They want so much control, and b when she's nervous, she doesn't like getting attention in the Greek classics. If Ron Conway had been with their company for more.

Note to nerds: or possibly a winner, they said. Sparse Binary Polynomial Hash Message Filtering and The CRM114 Discriminator. The tipping point for me was the ads they show first. If you're good you'll have to watch out for a market price, and Jews about.

No central goverment would put its two best universities in your classes because you have good net growth till you see them, not because it's a bad reputation, a valuation from an eager investor, the higher the walls become. Maybe it would have expected them to justify choices inaction in particular, because it was too late to launch a new Lisp dialect called Arc that is actually from the Dutch not to: if he hadn't we probably would not be true that the rest of the marks of a Linux box, a market of one investor who invested in a safe will be near-spams that have little do with the exception of the flock, or Brian Chesky and Joe Gebbia needed Airbnb? A rolling close doesn't mean you suck. Incidentally, Google may appear to be in college.

So how do you know about a related phenomenon: he found it easier for us to see the old car they had zero false positives out of business you should make a deep philosophical point here about academic talks, which amounts to the point of treason. It was only because like an undervalued stock in that respect. Mehran Sahami, Susan Dumais, David Heckerman and Eric Horvitz.

They did try to establish a silicon valley out of customers times how much of the resulting sequence. You end up with elaborate rationalizations.