#also if I don't reply you later it's because I'm busy with the... zine thing

[kafkaoftherubble]

Did you see my post about the octopath OCs-?

Heh?! WHERE?!

POINT ME THE WAY!!!

[dear-alex-chill]

An update

Lately I haven't been active and it's spanned much longer than I intended. I originally thought it was the Team Science Zine sucking up all my energy (that zine was awesome but a beast to make) but I now realize that may have been me trying to convince myself of an untrue reality. I've been exhausted all the time with no time for me. I'm also dealing with more personal issues and being in a period of transition uses a lot of spoons. Hopefully I'll resolve some issues through therapy or other means but it's a lot to balance and I don't necessarily have the resources to take on everything. Unfortunately, art and writing has taken a backseat for the time due to everything going on. It is what it is, I hope to create again one day. However, the end of DAC as an account may be nearing.

I know I've been silent/quiet for months. I know I've not finished anything. I have few WIPs but they're limited in development and not something I want to post. Overall the Dear-Alex-Chill account is fading on all fronts and I'm not sure I want it to revive. I know my stuff rarely shows up in places, in part because of the niche I drew myself into, but also a lack of relevancy in what I produce. I honestly haven't touched digital art in a while, I do miss it. However, I'm exhausted constantly or I'm under the perception I'm too busy to do it, carving time is hard right now. I am considering leaving everything up and just sorta orphaning my account, I would never delete my writing and I don't like the prospect of deleting my art, but actively maintaining a social media like that is taxing and not something I can do right now. DAC might turn into an archive of sorts and when I'm ready I'll start anew entirely with a new name and page. Or maybe I'll come back in a while ready to get going again, I'm not sure.

Some of the lack of desire to revive was a slightly toxic culture. When things blew up around me (not really at me though but like Tumblr? Yk) I felt the need to step back and a part of me just never wanted to return. Moots, I love you guys, you're the reason I stayed so long. But sometimes it's hard to want to engage in a community of people that dislike you and that you generally dislike, it's tiresome. Wacky and Sikyu especially, you guys were awesome to talk to (I'm just mentioning you two specifically because I feel really bad for leaving you guys with no context after months of hyper-dumping hcs and ideas. Anyone I've repeatedly dmed or shared my hcs with and talked to, I do miss you all. Everyone is owed an apology but that's a lot of names to write.) It's hard to stay in a place you don't want to be, especially when you feel you're leaving those close to you, but I think it's of my best interest to step away from DT and TtS/RTA.

To my followers, I'm sorry you haven't gotten what you followed for.

To the anons and haters, cool. Have fun with your lives, I believe in karma but don't act on it, it's not my job to enforce karma, that's the universe's job.

To my mutuals/friends, I haven't forgotten you all and I do think about you. It's just hard to reply or I feel bad reaching out after so much silence. Hopefully I'll be chatty again or return to some normalcy later and I'm sorry I didn't tell any of you earlier.

Overall this just serves as a message/wellness check. I'm still here, I still lurk, but I don't really know if I want to stay active. When I decide to either orphan or revive, I'll let you all know in a new post, but for now here's what's been happening. I love y'all.

See ya later.

(yes this was on insta in slides form, Tumblr hates me uploading more than 3 photos at a time)

[echoooyao]

Final Reflection

This is a very meaningful semester and the first year of my university.

I think it's a good start, because I'm beginning to feel the difficulty and realize my ignorance. I think learning design is like swimming in the sea. People on the shore always feel very simple because they don't study in depth. Andy and Karen are "extraditors" who successfully “dragged me into the sea”.HAHAHAHA, THANK YOU SO MUCH!:-P

I would describe this feeling as I were swimming in the sea. I had to move myself without being flooded. But the process is pleasant, because inner satisfaction and brain fullness can make you really feel “I AM DONING SOMETHING COOL!”.

My goal this semester is to experience many different skills and learn a lot of new things.

I think I did it!It will be the best gift to myself for my 19 years old birthday. (BTW, I have ten days left for my birthday!)

To my surprise, this semester has been something I've always wanted to do but didn't have time to do. For example, to make a ZINE, an interview, and to record my own learning experience.

To be honestly, I visited a zine shop at flineders station before, and I thought it was cool. I decided to make a zine for myself. I thought for a long time about what I wanted to do. Then I received a new brief, called "ASK ME ANYTHING!".

As making a zine, I had the opportunity to interview many designers and illustrators who interested me. For the first time, I felt that I was so close to them. I received many replies, and I promised that every reply would be a zine, so it was a busy holiday hahaha.

When I was doing zine, I insisted on using Indesign. Even though I could do it in other ways, I felt that I had never touched Indesign, and I wanted to learn more. It was a good opportunity for me to learn. Although there were many difficulties during this period, I overcame them one by one, and finally succeeded. It was a very proud for myself! But I don't think I'm enough. I'll keep learning anyway.

As for interviewers, I also wanted to go back to my country and interview some old people in ancient villages, because I have always been interested in many traditional things in China. I should continue my research journey in tumblr, which I think is very meaningful!

This semester's lecture has taught me a lot about the history art and design movement of new contacts, which I hadn't learned much about before. Because of the language, I usually need to spend a long time to understand these after lecture.

I find it most impressive that I learned about a designer named David Carson in class who is the first in my list. I was initially attracted by Andy Walter's cover which presented in the lecture. Later, because of his works, I began to really understand the charm of typesetting and fonts.

I really understand the connotation of design this semester. To be honest, I used to think that design was cool and that designers were cool, so I learned to design. Now I think design is really cool! I always want to know more, but I always feel that time is not enough!

 BTW,I got a birthday suprise from my friends!I am soooo happy!

All in all, this semester is enjoyable and helpful!

Amazing final exhibition and great pizza!