#and how she wound up with a patron who was aizen's father

[keikakudori]

sometimes i think of what aizen could have been like if naoko had lived longer or survived his power eating away at her ( though her health would've been irreparably damaged to be really honest here ) and i think he might've been much more stable. i know that she would have loved gin and kaname and adopted them without hesitation. naoko was a wonderful woman and, sure, she might've been a sex worker ( indeed she was one of the top earners at the brothel she worked at ) but she loved her son deeply and she would have absolutely mothered both gin and kaname if she'd ever had the chance to meet them. her loss really did damage aizen, especially since he lost her during what's considered the formative years for a child, and though he can't remember her face so clearly anymore? he remembers the smell of the incense she favored and her perfumes and the beautiful kimono she wore on a constant basis. i'm just really thinking about aizen and his mother right now because i just get very soft thinking of how much aizen loved her too, with all the adoration of a child. he doesn't think about it, but she still does influence him, though not overtly as others have done. i don't know i'm just. i'm thinking about it. i'm thinking about it a lot.