#and she thinks im fucking delusional for thinking my brother raped me even tho i Know he did and i can't tell anyone how i know | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bugpov · 2 years

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i'd go like actually insane and throw myself out the window or smth if i didn't have any screens to entertain me like damn i got my phone taken away a lot when i was younger cuz i guess i was on it too much, so i just sat in my bed with all the dust and spider webs crying cuz i was alone with my anxiety and darkness and nothing to distract me cuz my family hardly talked or interacted with me and all my friends just liked to clown me and never wanted to hang out. like my family didn't even fucking feed me properly when i was little and they yelled at me and treated me like shit cuz i didn't wanna wash a sink full of their nasty ass dishes fuck u im not ur fucking child slave

#snail sounds #theyre fucking sociopaths like they don't even try to be empathetic #like it's one thing to be physically unable to feel empathy and still try to be emotionally considerate of others #but it's a whole other thing to *choose* emotional detachment and abuse #like oh you're depressed and that's why you're emotionally abusive well get fucked cuz we're all fucking depressed #there is no excuse for child abuse and neglect like im so fucked up now i can barely take care of myself #like im really trying here . i force myself to brush my teeth everyday and brush my hair and sit outside in the sun #i have to force myself to eat and to get up and go to work #i just wanna die my mom is the only one in my huge entire family who ever calls me #and she thinks im fucking delusional for thinking my brother raped me even tho i Know he did and i can't tell anyone how i know #cuz it's just too fucking disturbing and graphic and violent and so i just have to live with this shit #fuck therapy and fuck getting help i tried to do that several times and none of those therapists took me seriously about anything #and all my problems are downplayed #and now i owe almost 3k to my insurance company for meds that gave me hallucinations and fatigue #fuck meds and fuck therapy what i need is for the world to get it's shit together and start fucking gardening #i don't give a damn about property taxes or bullshit rules or anything like that #i will do absolutely anything to bring this broken system down to its knees and crumble #and we can all go back to living like normal human beings instead of these weird as fuck aliens tryna colonize the moon #i hope all these politicians and rich people fucking kill themselves or some shit im so tired of being nice #they didn't earn their success they all trampled innocent people and gods beautiful land to get to where they are now #and deep down theyre all terrified cuz they know they're done for #capitalism is coming to an end and these rich bastards are gonna be begging for mercy for us all to come back and be servants again #these stupid bitches love to act like theyre god so theyre merciless and have the power to make all kinds of miracles happen and they dont #i have reason to believe that god is basically powerless at this point cuz people dont believe in him #it's time for the gardening revolution #everyone is just gonna chill the fuck out and garden instead of exploiting immigrants #no one should be eating off of shelves anymore it's time to go back to eating off trees and vines #im sick of going to this cold as fuck grocery store scanning peoples groceries even tho they can do it all themselves #proportionatly being paid way more than someone whos getting blisters out in the sun picking vegetables all day #it's undignified like this is the most important job in the world and they get treated so badly it's undignified and im pissed

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