#bc she's a monster and her motives are monstrous and Killing is Monstrous and thus human emotions = weakness and a monstrous temptation | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cannibalismyuri · 1 year

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something about the fact that el has been bought up with such exclusive ideas about good / bad people irks me because she's literally using entirely objective terminology (re: monster / superhero) for the two ends of her morality spectrum, and that fails to take into account the extreme grey area between the implications of those two terms. and humans as a whole cannot be monsters or superheroes and if she views herself as either one or another and cant accept herself as both or neither, that means she's been bought up with a distinct lack of association of sense of self with humanity. do you guys ever think about that?

#bc can u imagine how she uses these two extremes as her moral compass and as a result‚ she can Literally never be up to standard?#and she's been raised as a weapon and what she believes is a killing machine and she only knows violence.#and she associates that w being a monster. when she Cant be confined to the label.#she doesnt understand that she cant be a monster or a superhero bc she is Distinctly human despite being raised to not be one.#she has been taught to use her completely normal human emotions in supernatural ways‚ mostly for killing‚ and thats connected her powers‚#and by extension‚ her inherent sense of self to negative human emotions. and now she views them as a Monster Trait.#bc she's a monster and her motives are monstrous and Killing is Monstrous and thus human emotions = weakness and a monstrous temptation #not to be indulged in beyond using her powers. she's afraid of emotions in general. not just negative ones. shes afraid of GENUINE HAPPINES #she views herself as a superhero or a monster at separate intervals but she is Always‚ ALWAYS a killing machine/weapon underneath that.#she is never just a human with normal human emotions and reactions and processes and trauma.#she doesnt view herself like that. she was bought up not to view herself like that. god she is so fucked up.#el hopper #el hopper analysis #stranger things (sara's version)#robin pinkeoni & doozy googoogagayes if u guys see this: this is all bc of u guys i didn't Want to think abt this 🥲

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