#best thing I've ever done was stop doing counselling as a degree bc if i continued id have slowly killed myself | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

funkylittledemon · 4 months

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so sick and twisted that i spent so much time looking after other people that asking for help is now an unforgivable sin to me. like no i wont make anyone else Help me bc all i am is someone to Help others so i shouldn't need help or do anything to make anyone else feel like that and whats worse is like 5 years ago my friend predicted this shit like I've been feeling guilty about getting basic help for over 5 years and it just gets worse

#best thing I've ever done was stop doing counselling as a degree bc if i continued id have slowly killed myself #to me if im upset its manipulation. bc ppl are nice and will want to make sure im okay but if they didnt know i was upset they wouldn't #feel like that so i shouldn't let them know I'm upset to make sure they feel okay bc if they're worrying abt me they're worrying #and other ppl worrying is worse than me worrying and then I'm in my room alone crying for no reason and i can't ask for help #god i just sobbed for a good 15 mins #idk this is just another vent post in a sea of vent posts im just anither guy going thru shit #but ive been going thru the same shit for 7 years now & i don't think im getting over it any time soon #i feel bad bc i want someone to care #i really want someone to care and people will but if i tell them they'll worry and i can't make people worry

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