#but then she has those very liberal ideas that don't seem to be purely for show

[thewritingpossum]

Heartbreaking: the worst person on this show just made a great point

[swearyshera]

So we are at the end of the road on something that has always been about the journey, not the destination.  I’ve taken my time to gather some thoughts.  This blog has meant a lot to many people, not the least of which is me.  I’ve had a hard time these last few years – I think it’s been hard times for everyone, in one way or another.  Personally, I seem to remember discovering this blog not too long before I had a breakdown and handled it very poorly, making bad decisions that cost me a lot of friends, or at least people whom I thought were my friends up until a breaking point.  (Your blog was unrelated to this).  When I came out of hospitalization I had a few things to rely upon – a video therapy group was one, certain family members and, well, as silly as it sounds, hitting up tumblr for my daily dose of Sweary She-Ra to make me laugh. And then in mid-January, 2023, one of the people who was closest to me in my entire life died suddenly of technically unknown cause but considering his health issues, probably a heart-issue. It was sudden and devastating.  We shared She-Ra and the Princesses of Power together because he was kind of curious about it and I was a nostalgia-fan of the ‘80s series.  We both became massive fans of Entrapta.  In fact, my nephew / best friend got me into the fandom in the first place because he had a silly idea for a fanfic about Entrapta wrecking havoc in the Fright Zone just post first-season and had little confidence in his fanfic writing, but decided to pass along said idea to me, an inveterate fic-writer for many fandoms.  I was put through the wringer this year – it’s the first time I’ve been in partial charge of a memorial service.  I am feeling better now than I did at the beginning of this year because I’ve found the strength to keep doing things that he and I liked to do together and time helps.  And again, in all of this, I had a silly little comic where a sparkly purple princess calls people “twattingler,” others make liberal use of the word that originally meant Fornication Under Consent of the King, one character swears all the time but apologizes for it, one character is contractually obligated to use Ned Flanders style cursing and there’s a fourth wall breaker and an incompetent boss with indecipherable accent and Marxist unicorns and all the rest.  No matter what was happening with my emotions I could just… take a little break and look at the funny fancomic.  Sweary She-Ra for me has been like a warm mug of tea on a cold day or a bowl of baked macaroni and cheese with a butter-cracker crust made out of the old 1960-70 something Betty Crocker cookbook.  It’s been Internet comfort food that has been sorely needed at times.  So thank you.  I just want to thank you for this funny little fan project.  I don’t think you have any idea how much it has meant to your audience.  @freedfromthegalactichivemind

And I don't know if the audience has any idea how much it has meant to me!

When I started this, things were pretty shit, weren't they? Here in the UK we'd just come out of the second Covid Lockdown, with the third expected to happen imminently; the weather was miserable, we'd barely seen our friends in months, the world in general just sucked. And I'd love to say that I felt a calling to break through that with some humour, but no... it was nothing like that. This is what happened...

And so it all went from there.

I almost just went for random scenes as I thought of them, rather than starting from the beginning. But I thought "Eh, fuck it, let's see how far I get", and the rest is history.

Even as the storylines got more complex (bear in mind, I started purely with the intention to do the original script with a few swear words peppered in), I always wanted to keep things upbeat. The painful moments are those 'this is the good stuff, hurt me more' moments rather than actually horrifying things - I know there's been a couple of exceptions, but in general it's held true.

But I've always been driven by one thing - the world isn't very funny right now; it's stressful, sometimes downright terrifying. And if I can alleviate that for ten, twenty seconds per day and make that tiny bit of difference to someone, then I consider that a job done. I'm not out here claiming to have the cure for depression, or some kind of plan to save the world, but I (hopefully) can make a few people smile in the midst of all the shit that's happening, even if it's just for a moment.

So much has changed in the last three years, but this blog has been such a central part of my world, it'll be weird when it's over (maybe that's why I don't want to stop there!). But if this coming Friday really is the last chapter in this part of my life, I'll still be happy that it happened. And if you've ever smiled or laughed at the blog, I'm happy that happened as well.

[blackswallowtailbutterfly]

All right, since I've been asked, I think with the issue of male sexual victimization in regard to feminism is it's too many separate discussions at once that get blended into one other. So I am going to attempt to separate them based on what I have observed over the years and add my beliefs on those points. I believe the big ones are, in no particular order of importance, Male Suffering, The Word "Rape", and The Responsibility of Feminists (indented for clarity).

(Disclaimer: I want to make clear that what initially drew me to feminism was it was the only ideology that attempted to answer why sexual assault happens and what should be done about it that didn't look at it as only individual actions, but a whole, worldwide culture that upheld it. And that is still one of the primary things for me. It's what drove me out of TRA circles (cotton ceiling). It's what alienated from liberal spaces (justification of pedophilic and rape fetishes, lolicon, ddlg etc.). The encouraging of sexual assault is just not something I'm ever going to justify, no matter who does it or to whom.)

1) Male Suffering

We know men suffer from male sexual violence and coercion, but what about when the perpetrator is female? We've all seen men laugh off having sex with the high school teacher. Many men don't seem to talk about sexual assault being hurtful to them unless it's to derail feminist discussions or to garner pity and trust from women. Men can't get pregnant. The average man cannot be held down by the average woman. If he is not being penetrated he's unlikely to come away with any physical injuries if the assault is coercive. But I argue yes, he does still suffer. He doesn't suffer in the all encompassing terror of knowing this could happen again (has for most women), knowing most of your sex's lineage has been through rape, knowing the world thinks this is what you're for, and knowing this will remain ubiquitous long after you. But he suffers nonetheless. Consider: if a woman is attacked and beaten up by a group of women, it's assault. It's terrifying on an individual level. and she will be traumatized. But it's not like a woman being jumped by a group of men, or like a same sex attracted individual getting jumped by homohobes, or like a Black person getting jumped by white people. It's not a hate crime. But it's still assault. I argue that if sexual assault was rare and purely individual, only committed by a few sickos, it would still be extremely traumatic to the individual. More so than physical assault even because sex is supposed to be a mutually wanted act. Any perversion of that is inherently traumatic for the person on the receiving end. Again, regardless of who is doing it to whom. Why do so many men joke about it then? Well, for the same reason women usually don't: we know it could happen to us; it has happened to most of us, and it's primarily men doing it to women. When men joke about the opposite it's pure contempt. It's "ha ha, we can do this to you and mentally destroy you and the very idea that you could do that to us is funny". The men and boys who are victimized by women? They don't care about them. Why would they? "Man up! Take a joke! Wish it was me! ha ha!" If it didn't happen to them, they don't care. If it did happen to them, well, that's another discussion.

2) The Word "Rape"

I made a post years ago inviting discussion about this very thing and didn't really get much of a response, but I'm bring it back here. Is rape a specific kind of sexual assault (victim must be penetrated, for example)? Is it what the law determines? Or, is it men's sexual assault of women? I'm coming more and more to believe it should be the third. Sexual assault describes all sexual victimization that goes beyond sexual harassment. I'll use physical assault vs hate crime as an example again: if a man punches another man in the face, assuming no homophobia, racism, etc. is at play that is an individual attack. It's a bad one. The man punched could end up with a broken nose or jaw, missing teeth, etc. and he should get justice and medical care and any therapy he needs. But it isn't a hate crime. Just as women who are sexually assaulted feel all their female ancestors, sisters, and the women who will come after them, when men sexually assault women they know their male lineage has had generations of conquest through the rape of women. Sexual assault is always an individual trauma but it also beyond that when men sexually assault women. Rape for a long time meant only what men do to women and only under very specific circumstances. Before that it meant abduction. How did it get from that to it's current meaning? Because of what men did (and do) to the women they abduct, often with the intention of forcibly marrying them. Why should rape now include the sexual victimization of men? Maybe it should! It's not so much that male victims shouldn't be included under a widely known word describing sexual assault. It's that there should be a word that describes male sexual assault of women only. If it's not rape, we could bring back outrage, I suppose. But why is sexual assault not enough? If it's law, well, push for change. My country doesn't have a law for rape; it all counts under sexual assault. There are no hate crime laws regarding what men do to women. Words are some of the few tools we have. I am asking genuinely, though. Once again, I believe sexual assault is traumatic for the victim regardless of who is doing it to whom, and that also goes for female on female sexual assault and male on male sexual assault. I suppose it could be argued that it's still rape if a woman sexually assaults a woman to impress a male partner. Or that male on male sexual assault is still rape if it's a tool of war or part of a hate crime. But again more and more I do think we need a word that is specific to male sexual assault of women. Generations upon generations of people have not been born to sexually assaulted men or to women sexually assaulted by other women. Gangs of female soldiers don't sack a village and rape all the men or women in it. Sexual assault is always an individual trauma. Rape is man's attempt at conquest over woman. To use another comparison: the witch. We know some men were accused of witchcraft, but it was (and still is) primarily targeted towards women. And this is why we say that men cannot now be witches. Not when they dealt the sentence of sexual torture against women who owned land and/or had knowledge of herbs.

3) The Responsibility of Feminists

I believe that men can be sexually assaulted by women. I believe even if it isn't rape, it's still terribly traumatic. So what is the responsibility of feminists to male victims of sexual assault? I argue none at all. Individual feminists may have compassion--I certainly do. They may choose to campaign for male victims in addition to their feminist work. But feminism is not about equality as some suppose it is; it is a movement for the liberation of women and girls from male violence and control. People can care about two things at once. But it is not feminism's obligation to address male victims. No, not even when the perpetrator is a woman. Male victims of sexual assault do not gain a magical insight into what it's like to be a woman. He may share various symptoms of trauma with a female sexual assault victim, but there is not a whole history behind it. He is still a man. And he displays his self-entitlement as a man when he demands that feminists include him. See, it's pattern: thing sucks, women speak out about it, push for changes and supports, men come out of the woodwork to say "What about me? I too suffer from this! Why aren't you helping me?" Well, where were you before? It's a matter of priorities. Men don't like being assaulted or murdered or sexually assaulted or tortured, etc.. And yet these things go on and on and on. Why? We're told it's only a few bad apples. Not all men. So why haven't the supposed majority of good men put a stop to the few bad men? Because men benefit from a violent world, and the benefits to men as a class ultimately outweigh the harm to the individual. A man blackmailed into sex with a woman he doesn't want may well go home and coerce his wife. There are billions of men on the planet and my love of science tells me they can't all be bad. Even, say, 0.001% of 4 billion is 4 million. And whatever the number actually is--we'll never know--there are bound to be some male victims of sexual assault and men who have not been sexually victimized who genuinely want to see change to reduce human-on-human violence even at the expense of the benefits they have as men in Patriarchy. But it's not enough of them, and it's certainly not the ones who demand feminist attention.

So those are the big three, as far as I can think of right now. There are subcategories, I suppose, such as believing male victims. That would fall under the feminist responsibility discussion, and my personal opinion is that as an anti-sexual assault activist you absolutely have an obligation to believe all alleged victims, but as a feminist you only have the obligation to believe all female victims.

I think it would be good, if we're going to be talking about this issue (and I think it's arguably a waste of time in feminist spaces) to keep the discussions separate. Feminists put off by one can still participate in either of the other two. Feminists making observations regarding another need not engage with the rest. Likewise feminists setting boundaries regarding what they want to discuss need not be forced to justify it with her opinions regarding the others. In each case she can simply say, "That is a different discussion".

[9800sblog]

How is taehyung feel toward his fs at these days?

do I have his energy permission to do and share this reading? 2 of cups

there are two contrasting energies, one is much more practical, the other is impressive. I don't usually do readings this deep but the message I got was that this information needs to "find a real way to get it out of him".

he thinks this person is incredibly sexy, they are charismatic and kind, and he likes their energy, it feels comfortable, a little underwhelming, I must say. there is a lot of ugliness here, he might think this person is uncompromising, too difficult to talk to, they don't listen to him, I think he feels misunderstood and small. he doesn't seem confident that they're gonna make it, he may think he's been led astray by his attraction and excitement. he seems to be holding tightly to his money, he may think this person will dry him out because they love shiny things. he seems to love to give money to them, because it doesn't matter as much to him as this person matters to him, but i think he is investing and saving money for his dream family. there is a lot of heartbreak in here, from what I've read about him through tarot, he seems to idealize romance a lot, and it's like no matter how much he tries, he just can't get the results he wants. so he may marry for practicality, the one that feels the closest to what he really dreams of, because he might think that he's being realistic and nice to himself. and wouldn't say he doesn't like this person, but there's something missing.

this is what he fantasizes about, this is where explores his imagination, he feels like a kid, he's just so purely happy that I cannot find the words to really describe it. I have a paper on my desk where i am right now, where I drew a bunch of ramdom flowers, I could see him hopping through those very colorful, vivid flowers with the biggest smile and the wind blowing on his face, the drawings are in black and white. he loves this energy, this is like a really good dream, where he's wearing loose clothes in a cottage and just playing around, having the best time of his life, i cannot describe how good, pure and liberating this energy feels. in practical, conscious ways, it doesn't seem possible and he gets really really sad about that, but he just kind of gives up and moves on, because he thinks there's nothing he can do about it, like he doesn't have control over this. also, he currently has a girlfriend, he might feel it's not fair if he fantasizes, instead of focusing on being good to a real partner that he already, currently has. I just remembered this one book that I read, the protagonist would have these dreams with this other person she has never met, they lived in an island and they had something they had to achieve. the dreams kept happening throughout her whole life, they saw each other grow up and mature, she felt the most fulfilled in her entire life while she had those fantasies. except, they accidentally met in real life one day, they were real people and they weren't the dream that the other had seen in their mind, they had saggy boobs and beer belly, instead of six-packs and strong arms. i dont know what happens next because i have adhd and can't remember the last time i finished a book, but that was the energy and I totally forgot about this story until now (i still have the book, it's called hugo & rose). it's like he won't know what love is until he meets this person, he might have an idea and he might love people close to him, but nothing would feel as groundbreaking as this.

[giorgiastastes]

버닝 / Burning (2018)

"It's too close, you might not see it"

What to say about this movie...

The film itself is quite simple, even too easy at first sighting I'd dare to say, but the meaning behind, the interpretations and smart details is what makes it unique and pretty much a masterpiece.

I'm sure that most people, or at least those who usually watch unchallenging to elaborate movies, won't like it. If you're looking for something what will be "explained to you", for the director to give you that big plot twist or long monologue, you won't find it here. But if you want to watch a work of art that'll make you think, reflect and crash your minds, you have a good journey in front of you.

I remember that as soon as I've finished watching it I went online to look for theories, to see if someone else had the same idea as me, if I got it right and what I've missed, and then I planned to write here my thoughts on the real explaination, but after rewatching and searching I've figured it out BURNING doesn't really have a "true" explaination in my idea, or better, the director definitely knows what he believes is the so called truth, but the strength of it is how free of interpretations it is. I've read hundreds theories and honestly all of them could fit just right, so for once I've decided to do something different.

In here I will summarize all the theories, under layers and explaination that I've read, figured out or found, and I will leave to you, the reader, to believe your own "truth"

This will be full of spoilers, it's actually a summarization of the after watch, so read at your own risk, and since I'm taking for granted that you've watched the movie and remember it quite well too, I won't always repeat the plot when not necessary.

• Ben sells organs on the black market. That's how he gets his money and Haemi is aware of this, and decided to sell her own organs to pay off her debt. She even says I'D SELL MY ORGANS IF I WERE YOUNGER. She could also be unaware of this and that's why she dissapears.

• Ben is a serial killer. He seduces fragile women who are very easy preys to such an handsome and carismactic young man, and then gets rid of them after he gets tired. This happens about every couple of months, which corresponds to his journey in Africa timeline. They are the greenhouses he burns, because he knows nobody will look for them, and in fact the police does not care about the greenhouses, just like they don't care about missing women nobody knows about.

Ben also owns all the qualities of a maniac sociopath who's keen on control and feels no emotion or empathy. He never cries for example. He also feels pride in his crime and he's almost tempted to confess them to show how good he is. That's why he says to Jongsu that he will burn a greenhouse close to him, but he didn't mean it in a special terminology, but more like in an emotional sense. He will kill the the closest thing the other has, which is Haemi. He also states that she dissapeared like "smoke".

This would also be justified by the creepy call the protagonist receives by Haemi before she dissapears. The biggest evidence placed by the director to prove that this theory is the most correct one is in the last scene, where Ben is putting makeup on a new girl. For a non Korean speaker it's quite hard to get the reference but Makeup and corpses' cremation are spelled in the same way in the hangul language, therefore the movie showing us Ben doing the girl's makeup is the alternative way to say he's killed her and is now cremating the body, hence his obsession with fires.

He's the one who cleaned Haemi's room and took her cat. He also keeps his victims personal objects as a throphy of some sort.

• Ben is a pimp. He's the trainer for these beautiful, young but poor women who are ready to sell themselves when he convinces them to do so. This is shown as Haemi also become less and less shy as the movie goes on, as seen in the undressing scene, while being more bold and provocative too. He changed her drastically, or maybe only let her discover a different, more free, part of herself. He also applies makeup on them how he would do to a doll, playing dress up for a woman who's now becoming just an object of desire that can be bought.

• Ben is a human trafficker. He sends women into slavery while promising them a life of luxury and happiness. That's why he shows off his idyllic lifestyle, and then sells them in Africa (where he goes frequently), where they'll never be found.

• Ben is a life guru. He teaches unsecure and frustrated women to feel liberated and less oppressed, to leave it all behind and start from scratch. They pay him, that's why he's rich. He also keeps a "souvenir" of every woman he has turned. This could explain why he shows up to the meeting with Jongsu in the finale. If he actually killed or sold these women he wouldn't fall into the other man's trick.

• Ben doesn't exist. He's just the symbol of everything Jongsu is not but aspires to be. He's rich, confident, cultured and attractive. Every flaw and layer of insecurity Jongsu seems to have, Ben lacks. And in the end, when the protagonist finally becomes brave enough to mature, to actually chase the woman he loves, he's able to kill the shadow of himself that only reminded him of how miserable he was.

• Ben and Jongsu are the same person. Much Fight Club like, they're the same human being, just different, extreme sides of one. Jongsu could have a personality disorder or maybe we're just shown two sides of him that prove his mental health issues. That's also why Haemi seems to be involved with both of them without choosing a side, because one is the gentle but insecure fraction, the other the bold but arrogant one. And then, in the end, when such division is making him go insane, he decides to kill his alter ego.

• It's just a love triangle. One of my favorite songs of all time had a similar topic. There's the main character, a shy and quiet boy, who falls in love with a girl who feels foreign and unreachable to him. But he's not the only one in her life. She also has another lover who's much more attractive and manly in a way, and all three start to share this peculiar poliamorous love story, mostly platonic. She's very pretty and feels as free as Venus, torn between two men. Then one day she leaves, and she'll never come back. But while the second boy easily moves on with his life, figuring out it was just a näive fling, the singer remains stuck, obsessing over her day and night, trying to find answers and solutions just not to deal with the realization of her not loving him enough to stay.

• Every character represents a social stereotypes and criticism of modern South Korean classes. I think this is very straightforward, especially Jongsu's jealousy of Ben's wealth, and Haemi's attempt to RISE in the social pyramid, surrounding herself with high class people like Ben or his friends, even letting them make joke of her, to mock her, all of it just to feel part of their group and reality.

• It's all in Jongsu's head.

• The disappearance of Haemi, whether it happened or not or HOW it happened are not the main focus on the movie, which instead is the characters dealing with such loss and lack of knowledge on what happened. Much like the Russian movie Loveless (2017), where the event is only used as an artistical device to let the story progress and the characters' grief culminate. Maybe we really don't need to know what happened to her, maybe she's dead, maybe she's alive and better than ever, but to the movie's intent such information is superficial, it's just the human need to fill our curiosity when were too afraid to deal with the pain of remaining unaware of it. Jongsu is sure she's been killed and that brings him to his next move, but the viewer, he doesn't need to know, because he doesn't need to act, to keep the story going.

• Haemi might have killed herself. Ben is the only one who knows about this and that's why she gives him her cat. She also shows multiple signs of advanced depression, for more than half of the movie is almost like she's not there, like she's already just the memory, the ghost of a girl who once was there.

• The movie itself is just a metaphor. The metaphor is many times used by the characters and maybe not only as a word, part of a dialogue, but the overall film might be A BIG, CRIPTIC METAPHOR.

• Everything is hereditary. From family's fortunes and richness to behavior and inner rage. Jongsu was born poor and will die as such just like his father, and even though he seems like the most innocuous being, he's able to take out his rage on other just like this father. I guess it's in the genes.

• Jongsu is the calf. The calf represents Jongsu's pureness and naivety. And when he sells it, he's also selling his soul in a way.

• Haemi represents South Korea, Jongsu North Korea, Ben is the new Korea, the one always more and more Westernized.

• We're just reading the plot of Jongsu's book. When Haemi leaves for Africa he has plenty of time to write the story he's planning to put into words, and that's what he does. Everything we see after she comes back from her journey is just the plot of the book, and the creation of Jongsu's imagination.

• A modern reinterpretation of the Great Gatsby. Yes, obviously a VERY liberate view of the novel, but many details seem to be quite evocative.

• A criticism to how South Korea treats women. Even the movie itself does this, probably on purpose. The one who disappears is a woman, but the ones who are the main centre of attention are men. She's only a story device, never the real protagonist.

• Ben wanted Jongsu to discover his crimes so he could reach fame if the other ever made a book out of it. He's so full of himself he'd rather be punished for his crimes than never showing off how good he was at covering every proof. That's why he dies almost peacefully, and shed a tear, which he claimed to have never done before.

• The well Haemi reference to, symbolizes falling into prostitution. That's why Jongsu's mother knows about it too, since it's quite obvious she's now an escort. But she states the well is dry, as a way of saying that it's not how easy and fun it might seem.

• This is just the tragic story of a boy who's lost every possible source of love. From his father in jail, his mother who abandoned him, to the only girl that ever showed him affection disappearing, and a new friend who he decides to kill.

• Ben is Death or maybe the devil personified. He helps Haemi get the courage to end it one for all, and even pushes Jongsu to kill, cursing his soul.

[santaclausdeadindian]

Sorry for doing it this way, I think OP deleted their post or blocked me like a mature, balanced person would, so I have to tag you in

@mr-laugh

Oh boy, lot to unpack here.

So you didn’t even know there were that many subgenres of fantasy, one of the most popular classifications of fiction on the planet... And you think you know enough to tell ANYBODY what classic fantasy is?

And where exactly I attempted to do that, huh?

If you don’t even know the most common subgenres of this vast pool of fiction, why are you jumping into this discussion? You just admitted you don’t know anything!

There is no discussion, there is a stupid ass post. Don't flatter yourself, you don't know jack shit.

Me not knowing what exactly are the precize subgenres of a genre of literature, which, btw, are completely arbitrary and for your information, sword&magic is a legitimate category, has absolutely nothing to do with what that post you were so keen on agreeing with above. It was you who said pretty much any classic fantasy is like that: some poorly written, self-indulgent and borderline racist.

Did ya read the link, buddy? Howard talked about knowing what burning black man smelled like. He was quite approving of these things! And the books are pretty racist, it’s not hard to see, unless you ain’t looking.

Yes, I started reading and by the end of the first paragraph I was convinced he was ahorribly racist man. And? Still doesn't change the fact, that for my 12 year old self, there was nothing racist about it. I definetly wasn't looking for it, that much you got right. If I'd read it again, I'm sure I'd catch on to it now, that I know what kind of asshole he was. So the implied racism would be there. You got a point for that.

Rugged individualism? It always amuses me how that argument always pops out of the mouths of guys who are aping what they’ve heard their buddies say. If ten thousand mouths shout “rugged individualism”, how individualistic are they?

Then you should amuse yourself by looking up why this thing crops up as of late. It's coming from certain, supremely racist yet unaware of it publications that claim ridiculous shit like "rugged individualism" is a hallmark of white supremacy, among other, equally laughable things, like punctuality. It's a joke.

Again, I will give Howard to you, if someone that racist writes a black man saving the hero of the story, I bet there was something else still there to make it wrong.

Conan’s not some avatar of rugged individualism.

Uhm, yeah, he pretty much all that.

He’s as unreal and unrealistic as the dragons are,

It's called fantasy for a reason, buddy.

but more dangerous because White Men model their ideas of reality on Big Man Heroes like him;

Glad you are totally not racist, yo!!! It's such a relief that White Men are the only ones with this terrible behavior of looking up to larger than life, mythic superpeople and nobody else. Imagine what it would be like, if we would have some asshole from say, hindu indian literature massacering demons called Rakshassas, by the tens of thousands, or some bullshit japanese warlord would snatch out arrows from the air, or a chienese bodyguard would mow down hundreds of barbaric huns without dropping a sweat, or some middle eastern hero would fight literal gods and their magical beasts in some quest for eternal life.

it's a poison that weakens us, distracting us from actually trying to solve the world’s issues, or banding together to deal with shit.

This is what you just said. It's up to the white man, to get their shit together, be not racist and solve the world's problems, because those poor other people's just can't do it. If we would just not be oh, so racist, then China would surely stop with the genocides they are doing now, or blowing more than half the greenhouse emissions into the athmosphere, the muslims would stop throwing their gays from rooftops or ramming trucks into crowds and would just start treating women as equals, India's massive rape problem would be gone, subsaharan African would be magically bereft of the host of atrocities committed there on a daily, yeah, you sure have that nonracism down, buddy!

A rugged individualist would be smart enough to realize that even the most individualistic person needs others; no man’s an island, and a loner is easier to kill.

Individualism doesn't mean at all what you think it means, it's a cluster of widely differeing philosophies that puts the individual ahead of the group or state, it's ranging from anarchism to liberalism and is also has nothing to do with my point.

Central Europe?  What, Germany?  Because let me tell you, historically they are SUPER concerned about race!

Germany traditionally considered western european, central europe would be the people stuck between them and the russians, to put it very loosely. We are equally nonplussed by the self-flagellating white guilt complex and the woe me victim complex of the west. We did none of the shit those meanie white people did to the nonwhites and suffered everyting any poc ever did and then some. We don't give a shit about your color, we care about what culture you are from and if you respect our values.

I’m an American from a former Confederate state; trust me, race is everything.  It always is.

No it really isn't. How old are you? Asking without condescension, genuinly curious, because if you are in your low twenties at most, it's understandable why you think like this.

See that hike? Do you know what happened at that time that made virtually all american media suddenly go all in with racism?

Occupy Wall Street, that's what. It's a brilliant way to sow victimhood and hate and desperation amongst the people who have one common enemy, the powers that be, the banking sector, the politicians, the megacorporations.

Can't really blame you if you are in your early 20's at most, you grew up with this bullshit hammered into you. If you are older, step out of your echochamber please!

If you actually believe, that mankind doesn't progress naturally towards a more accepting society purely on the merit of there being more good people than bad and sharing a similar living with all the hardships in life, seeing that our prejudices inherited by our parents are baseless, that's how we progress, not virtue signalling courses and regressive policies. I was raised as any other kid, I had a deep resentment towards the neighbouring nations, I said vile, racist shit against people who I actually share a lot of genes with, of which fact I was in deep denial about, and then as I gradually got exposed more and more actual people of these groups, I started to realize I was wrong and everybody should be judged by their individual merits. It works throughout the generations, my grandma was thought songs about Hitler and how all jews are evil in school, she legit thought all black people at least in Africa are cannibals and shit, my mother stillsays shit that would get her cancelled in the USA, and I will probably have a mixed race kid as we stand now.

This whole racism is an eternal problem is laughable and disingenuous and I am actually sorry for you that you feel like that.

Moving on. As for Dany, the “noble white girl sold to scary dark foreign man” is a very popular trope, especially in exploitation films, which Martin draws on much more heavily than most authors do.

No, he fucking doesn't. I already wrote a bunch of examples from the books you seeminly ignore willfully. First of all, she is sold to those olive skinned savages by a white man, who is a terrible, increadibly evil man. He want's to fuck the then 11-12 ish Dany so bad, she picks his slave most resembling her and rapes her repeatedly, "until the madness pass." He also maimes children and traines them as disposable slave spies by the hundreds. There is no boundaries colour here, GRRM prtrays all kinds of people as reprehensible, evil and disgusting. Just like you can find plenty of examples to the opposite.

What is he drawing from your exploitation movies exactly? He writes about the human anture, he writes about the human heart at war with itself, that's his central philosophy of writing.

ASOFAI is basically just a porn movie with complicated feudal politics obscuring it, which is probably why it worked so well as an HBO series (up until the last two seasons or so.)

There is no gratuitous sex scene in the books, the rapes are described as rapes, they are horrible, they are very shortly described and usually just alluded to.

The people commiting them are not put into generous lights and one of the single most harrowing stories hidden behind the grand happenings of the plot is a girl named Jeyne Poole, whose suffering although never shown, is very much pointed out, along with the hypocrisy of the people who only fight to try and save her, because they think her a different person.

Honestly, if you actually read the books and they came of to you as porn, you might want to do some soulsearching.Btw, the HBO series was a terrible adaptation, it immedietly started to go further and further from the books with every passing season and the showmakers made it very clear to everybody, that they didn't understand the very much pacifist and humanist themes of Martin. And neither did you.

We also get no indication Essos will eat it when Winter comes; hell, they seem to not know Winter exists, given the way people act, even though that is also unrealistic and weird.  Essos was just super badly designed, and Dany is a terribly boring character.

to be continued

[irwen-s]

ok i'm back and WHEW sol!!! much to discuss...

QUEENDOM. i missed them so much...rv my beloveds ☺️ ngl the title track is not my fav (itll probably grow on me) but tracks 3-6 slap!! also sidenote about the irene dyed hair discussion: i think she never dyes her hair both bc of her brand deals but also i remember her saying she just prefers her natural hair colour. apparently she hated her purple hair during russian roulette era (luvies around the world being like 😭 at that)

anyways moving on...i love ur gyulwon arranged marriage au sm..the potential for worldbuilding and character studies is unmatched. what u said about gyuri coming from a traditional family but living in a time where there are more liberal ideas and her feeling conflicted bc of that..i can imagine gyuri being all soft alpha and subverting traditional a/o expectations when she's alone with jiwon but then feeling really pressured to act the part of the overly dominant alpha when they're out in public. i wonder how they would handle that 👀

now on to the 2jirom..thank you for feeding all 5 of us 2jirom fans lmaooo but it was So Good..'"she’s so small, but always manages to take the both of us completely . . . ”' [ceases to function] bye idk what to say bc im still processing but you did such a good job balancing the filth and the soft...it was dirty but like,, theyre not complete without the three of them together.. 😭 i love this trio and i will not stop pushing the 2jirom agenda

also i very much agree with your jisun pretty cock hc..i am Looking. if u have more to say do share with the class - here is my contribution: jiwon obviously being the needy omega she is and always wanting to be surrounded by both of her alphas..often times she gets this intense desperation that only really gets quelled by the feeling of being filled to the brim. so she can get a little obsessed w romsun's cocks (saerom likes to tease her about it bc she gets this adorable glazed-over look in her eyes when she's desperate to be filled). However the real truth is that saerom is more obsessed with jisun's cock than jiwon is, and not even always in an overtly sexual way..she just thinks it's so Pretty to look at and she can't help herself so she just has to reach out and touch it..which is when things escalate. sometimes she sneaks in on jisun when she's taking a shower, claiming that they'll get ready faster if they shower together, but the second saerom's hand curls around her hip, jisun knows it's gonna be a long shower. but maybe not...because saerom sinks to her knees with a deceptively innocent look in those doe eyes and says, "don't worry, unnie will take care of you,". she presses a kiss right at the sensitive spot on the inside of her thigh, and jisun fails to suppress the breathy whine that echoes embarrassingly off the bathroom walls. she hopes none of the others can hear them. "you never take long when it's with me, do you?" saerom's little giggle before she takes jisun fully into her mouth has her groaning and tipping her head back

WHEW

- flover anon

flover anon!!!! i havent seen you in my inbox in a while!! shoulda known youd show back up on queendom day ahahha

but yeah omg i finally got around to watching the music video after having the album on loop all day; its so fucking good im kinda just shfhjdjfjdjjfdg. i dont know what my songs ranked in order of favourites is yet but i literally love every song on the album???? like wow jesus they really destroyed it this comeback im so glad for them

also YEAH about irenes hair thats what i recall reading as well; and definitely the thing about her purple hair too HAHAHAHA how she hated it in reality

gyuri having to play the part of a domineering over controlling alpha in public cause thats all she knows . . . and in front of jiwon . . . [pain]

“all 5 of us 2jirom fans” CRYING we need to add more people to the agenda ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ also im glad you liked it!!! i know its a struggle for me to really write, , , like, , , *deep* nasty stuff since thats kinda unappealing to me but im glad it appears i balanced my soft style with the dirty smoot part ehehe

and yeah i tried to focus the writing so its not Just a relationship where two alphas cater to their omega but like an actually healthy one where saerom and jisun take care of each other and need each other too!

that being said i HATE the image youve put into my head now . . . based off that jisun headcanon that i myself started . . . like fuck. saerom being more obsessed with jisuns cock than jiwon is feels SO right like omfg and how its not even just a sexual thing she genuinely finds it so pretty and wants to touch it all the time im crying

to the point where saerom loves sucking jisun off and taking her into her mouth, just cupping jisun in her hands and pumping her with pure reverence. and all jisun can do is bite her knuckles and try not to buckle as saerom takes her down her throat. just. goodbye, fucking hell

i cant . . . okay maybe after im done with all my prompts i will write this . . . god i cant oh my god

also to complete the 2jirom triangle since it seems like saerom tends to take care of jisun, and jisun takes care of jiwon, i headcanon that jiwon is actually able to have the most sway over saerom. like jiwon and jisun are the same age so their dynamic is different, but saerom is older than the both of them and she gets super soft for her members, especially jiwon—who shed do almost anything for, and jiwon is just sometimes able to take advantage of that. basically similar to the idea that saeroms more likely to indulge her than jisun is ahaha

[wendynerdwrites]

You don't seem to like Jonerys. Why?

A bunch of reasons. Show!wise, it’s officially come down to “These characters seriously piss me off, period.”

Book!wise?There’s two prongs to this. 

The first prong is quite the opposite of why I don’t like Show!Jonerys. I LOVE the book versions of these characters.  I really, really root for both Jon and Dany, want them to succeed, and love their goals and ambitions. I want them to get what they want, and feel that is what they deserve. And I don’t think a romance between the two of them satisfies their characters, their inner hopes, dreams, goals, and ambitions. It simply will not allow them to get the endings they deserve.

Now, let me make this clear: I am not saying their motivations are utterly alien to each other. Both of them have severe identity and displacement issues. Both of them, on some level, yearn for home. But what those things mean to them as people, and the paths that may bring them… the things they want simply don’t mesh in a way that makes room for romance.

I WANT Daenerys to win her empire (not necessarily atop the Iron Throne, though, because it sucks, but Dany’s already building her own empire independent from that and I do believe the climax of her character arc will be her realizing that), find her true identity, reconcile her own ideals and background on which to build a better world on which she is at the forefront. I WANT her to find and build her house with the Red Door. I WANT her to be everything she’s dreamed of being: the great, immovable leader who has found a balance between embracing her heritage and the legacy left to her, while also DOING better than that and employing who she is towards betterment, rather than destruction.

I WANT Jon to be able to rid his world of the monsters threatening it, then return to the home he’s always known, finally secure and reconciled with who he is, his honor, and have that happy life back at Winterfell with a wife and children he can name after the loved ones he’s lost.

And, sorry, but Daenerys cannot, should not be the wife Jon dreams of. Her place isn’t at Winterfell. And once she helps save the world (which she will), nothing about her character suggests that she’s interested in retiring from there. Yes, like Jon, she yearns for a home and a solid sense of identity. But her struggle for that lies in the legacy she represents and an actual place to belong.

Jon, on the other hand, has his identity crisis more attuned to his bastardry, to his sense of honor. And when he dreams of home, he doesn’t dream of a vague area with a house with a red door. He dreams of his sisters, he dreams of his brother and the man who raised him, and he dreams of a place he knows every inch of: Winterfell.

He has absolutely no interest in thrones or titles or power, exactly. He considers his childhood dreams of being Lord of Winterfell to be selfish, childish, and shameful. To the point where when he is literally offered everything he dreamt of as a child — no longer being a bastard, being the lord of Winterfell— even when he considers it, his thoughts are more about having a wife and a son named Robb, not the power and prestige. And he ultimately rejects it, “Winterfell belongs to my sister, Sansa.”

Daenerys, should she survive kicking the WW’s frozen asses, isn’t stopping there. Despite how much she loved Drogo and Rhaego, how she did (briefly) consider settling down as Khaleesi (which, even then, it’s the Dothraki, so by definition they technically don’t settle down anywhere), even then, it was with the promise of mothering “The Stallion that Mounts the World.” And it also had more to do with her burgeoning liberation from Viserys and the love she found with Drogo than any real desire for domesticity (the only time she’s considered it is being with the Dothraki, which is a life of conquest and exploration anyways). Once Drogo dies, though, she knows what she truly wants. Despite detours and other desires that have come into play for Dany, despite various obstacles, mistakes, and distractions, all of it has been in service, ultimately, to getting her big, big prize. Of building her empire, taking her throne, being the scion of House Targaryen (granted, I think this will end with her doing these things, but in a way that is NOT what she expected. Daenerys will not be the new Targaryen Dragon Queen of the unsustainable, highly problematic empire her VERY unprincipled forebears built. Dany births her own dragons and builds her own empire. I think she’s as likely to be Queen of the Iron Throne as she is of being Queen of Old Valyria. Daenerys will build a new empire of her own and will be followed there. She’ll be a badass queen, but through using her dragonfire to light beacons for others to follow her, to forge steel beams and form glass palaces, not through conquest). Maybe she’ll settle all of Old and New Ghis. Asshai will almost certainly be involved. But Daenerys isn’t meant to just perpetuate that ugly symbol of conquest and destruction Aegon the Conqueror created. But she IS a queen. It’s what she wants. It’s what drives her. 

(And let me also make this clear: THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT.)

And, yeah, sorry, but neither of these characters have “endgame” desires and goals that meld together. Neither of these characters should have to sacrifice their particular desires and goals to serve those of a romantic partner. Both of them deserve better. They should be with people whose happiness, desires, and dreams already align with theirs so they can build the lives they want without stifling their partners’ destinies.

Jon, at his heart, wants to survive, be accepted for who he is, go home, and build a family in the place he’s always loved and known.

Daenerys, at her heart, wants to build/rebuild something momentous from what her family left behind, find and make a place for herself, and be the leader and beacon of it all. 

Jon has never shown the slightest interest in kingship, a throne, or such a level of power. Indeed, he seems to be highly disillusioned with the concept of it all. He’s never even had the slightest desire to go south of Winterfell. Even his desires for exploration (ranging) lay in the North. He wants to get through this shit, get rid of it, and live with a wife, kids, a son named Robb, and the home he’s never been able to leave behind. 

What part do either of these two characters play in the other’s dreams, really? I can’t see Jon as the ambitious emperor who wants leave Westeros behind to build a new kingdom on dragonback. I cannot see Daenerys as the Lady of Winterfell, living out her days in feudal domesticity.

This doesn’t mean they can’t mesh well as people, or have a wonderful bond, but considering the setting and what a “romantic” ending entails, sorry, I can’t. 

The two of them will likely form a strong bond. The story is definitely pushing them together… but that doesn’t mean romantically. It means that they’re going to connect, save the world together, and likely provide major growth for one anothers’ character arcs. 

The idea that their connection must be romantic? Yeah, sorry, that’s the second prong: I don’t like the fact that so many people, upon seeing that these two characters are connected, jump to that connection being romantic, especially given the other prong. If they were both men, or both women, I feel like there would be far less popularity around them as a romantic pairing. 

Don’t get me wrong: I want Jon and Dany to form a bond and come to love each other… just not like that. Daenerys has had no shortage of men who have been devoted to her based on romantic “love”. She deserves a respite from that, both personally and narratively, and where better to find it than with her only living relative? (who she’ll save the world with!) It’s why, if you read my fic, you’ll find that Dany is frequently a major character who does, in fact, form deep, emotional, nurturing bonds with Jon and his family. Both of them have identity issues concerning family. They happen to BE family, by blood, and when they do meet and discover this, there’s tons of potential for their arcs as characters to be fulfilled in that respect. Jon being a Targaryen is going to rock the largest part of his identity — being Ned Stark’s bastard. Just as it will with Dany, who has operated for nearly the entire time we’ve known her on the basis that she is the last Targaryen and is alone in the world. What would be far, far more beautiful and fulfilling, in my mind, is them being family. THESE TWO CHARACTERS ARE AND WILL BE INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT TO EACH OTHER. Given how the only relative Daenerys ever knew was the abusive Viserys, who just happened to abuse her sexually as well as physically, mentally, and emotionally, the idea of her finding a relative like JON, who knows how to have bonds like the gorgeous one he shares with Arya, and finding a true, loving family bond there would be breathtaking, poetic, and gorgeous. I like the dynamic of having the male character’s dreams and goals be fulfilled in a way that is tied to the romantic and domestic, while the female character’s fulfillment being divorced from that and instead being built on platonic love free from sexualization, building something new, and achieving pure, raw ambition and power. 

A Jonerys romance/endgame for me is the antithesis of that. 

Am I saying my position is right? No. But it’s my perspective. It’s how I feel about the whole thing.

[abassi-okoro]

THE ANGRY WHITE WOMEN

by Abassi Okoro Eziokwu

Hate is too strong of an emotion to waste on people who don't deserve it. I hate Meghan McCain. Rather I hate what she represents, angry white femininity. It was an angry white woman who caused the savage annihilation of Emmet Till. It is the knee-jerk reactions of angry white women who call the police on black people for doing nothing more than blinking one too many times. White women are just always angry with something or someone. Have you noticed that? Despite the racial stigma that black women are often awarded, the “ANGRY BLACK FEMALE,” at least black anger is justifiably directed at a specific or definitive idea – RACISM!

Black anger carries a certain rationale, a certain sanity. It's understandable to sympathize with the anger of a people who are systematically and institutionally oppressed, abused, and persecuted – and that's only talking about black MEN! Now add to that persecution the reality of being a black WOMAN and your abuse has just gotten worse. But in 2019, you would think that it is "White Women" who are the benefactors of white male infliction or structured social abuse and oppression. It seems that every time we tune into FOX, CNN, or some feminist round table television talk show - there is no shortage of snarling, beady-eyed, 'trembling in anger' blonde-haired, white women all too eager to tell the whole of America how they're outraged over something or someone or how “women” (which is really code for WHITE women) are discriminated against more than black folk in this country.

These white women remind me of yappy little – big eyed Chihuahuas barking uncontrollably at the slightest insignificant sound or purely imagined discomfort. When white folks profess their anger over something, they call it "Outrage." Black folks call it, "White Tears." They're always stepping out of line, ridiculing and pointing fingers and especially when it comes to American Patriotism. Nothing gets these white women barking louder than the notion that American "Ideals" are being threatened by black people's audacity to call to attention racism or the fear that immigration of Hispanic people is going to colorize and lord forbid, "colonize" lily white neighborhoods like Boise Idaho or Cedar Rapids Iowa (because I'm sure that one of the whitest towns in America is worried to death over some Mexicans coming in and stealing their warehouse associate jobs at the Adam's Lumber Yard). Or the worse case scenario, Colin Kaepernick takes a knee. Tomi Lahren every week on her show damn near had a complete mental and emotional meltdown anytime Colin Kaepernick's name was mentioned. Despite my thoughts of her anger being nothing more than a cover-up for wanting to sleep with him, she didn't fail once at getting her "outrage" out to the American public. Meanwhile, white male executives who control the FOX network had no problem offering her the platform to exploit her little annoying blonde ass.

Megyn Kelly spends a great majority of her airtime interpreting innocent remarks or acts as "sexist." That's why she always has a frog up her ass, she thinks everything is sexual. Meghan McCain's shtick is that everyone and anyone who falls short of worshipping white Jewish people is, "Anti-Semitic." Then there's the rest of American white women in general who have a long history of voting against their own best interests. White women historically have always been proponents of white supremacy and the Feminist movement is an off-shoot of that white supremacy. Black women told you that years ago that white women were going into the black neighborhoods trying to recruit black women for white feminine agendas while suggesting to these black women that they would have to leave their families, give up their black men before they could be part of the “Women's Liberation Movement.”

And so many black women did exactly that. They stopped being mothers, wives, caretakers, they got jobs in corporate America, became “secretaries” in white owned companies, put on a business suit, told their kids, “I ain't cooking shit - I ain't got to take care of you,” traded in their natural hair for a perm, learned how to talk “white” on the phone and if the police came knocking at the door, they had no problem turning in their black boyfriend or black husband and especially if he was not treating her right. The white feminist snatched up many of these black women and said, “We're sisters now” and eventually sisters became partners and partners over time became "lovers." Meanwhile, white men were locking up black men over petty shit like 10 to 20 years for $10 of weed. That's called, “Engineered Racism” folks.

BUT WHY ARE WHITE WOMEN SO ANGRY?

I'm not suggesting that only certain people are allowed to be angry (the oppressed) but it sure does make more sense for oppressed to be angry and non-oppressed to NOT be so angry. Unless of course you're implying that white women are an oppressed marginalized group? I was told that white women are angry over gender inequality and especially in the political arena. Makes sense - if I was ignorant that is. When asked a little under two years ago how Donald Trump got elected, the answer that was told to us was because the people who voted for him were white and angry. They were suffering from financial anxiety and Trump's rhetoric of bringing jobs back to America sounded pretty darn good to Becky and Bob. Now here we are in 2019 and those Trump voters who were white and angry are STILL white and they’re STILL angry but only now they're angry because they STILL haven't landed those good ole' American jobs that they were promised back in 2016 and on top of that, Trump is more concerned with building a wall to keep Mexicans out than opening up a factory in your already dilapidated - one sheriff- rural town. I'm sure it feels awful to white people who just aren't accustomed to being bent over and screwed in the ass. But if you need a shoulder to cry on white people, give people of color a call. We're experienced at being lied to by white assholes. The grief counseling hotline after being lied to by white men is 1-800-YOU-DUMB. Negroes, Mexicans and Native Americans are waiting by the line to accept your calls.

FEMINIST RAGE 101

White women in particular are encouraging each other to let out their anger in the face of the current administration. Yet, white women have failed miserably in dismantling racism. It appears that white women's rage only became a thing when white men became indifferent to white female sexuality. In other words, white men simply are not that into you (just like the movie suggested). When white men were abusing women of color, sexually exploiting black women, committing sexual violence against black women with impunity, and we didn't hear a single outcry from white women. Instead, white women actually downplayed and silenced the anger of women of color - hoping that it would gain favor in the eyes of white men. You held out for nothing, he didn't care that you had his back. White men don't need your help with being a racist or a rapist. But in recent years, white women switched and played the role of “Social Activist” and despite all the protests and public outcries and unpaid emotional labor by women of color, what did these "socially aware" white women do? White women turned around and sold black women out. They threw black women under the bus and went out to the polls and voted for the party of toxic white supremacy. It's safe to say that white women are more likely to betray their gender for their race, a proverbial gut-punch to black women who have been victims of white masculinity for generations. White women should be more ashamed than angry.

Bu let me tell you how angry white women really are. White women are so angry that 53% of them put their white privilege above their 2nd class gender status to vote for Donald Trump. Despite their "anger," white women believe they benefit from white male patriarchy by trading on their whiteness to monopolize resources for mutual gain. In return, they’re placed on a pedestal to be “cherished and revered,” by white men who in reality will not only be quick to deny them their basic human rights but will, "Grab them by the pussy" while denying them. Look, let's cut through the bullshit and just go ahead and be brutally honest: White women, your white man will NEVER love you the way he should (to full capacity.) Maybe because he spends most of his time fantasizing over black, Latin and Asian women. He'll never tell you that, but I will! Hurts doesn't it? Maybe that's why you're angry because despite supporting the system of White Supremacy, you know deep down inside your soul that the whole premise of white supremacy is predicated on white male sexual inadequacy (white genetic survival, penis envy and trying to get back into the womb of the black woman in order to recreate himself without the genetic deficiencies). Isn't that why many of your fellow white women leave their white men to be with black men to begin with? Because even white women know who the real KINGS are (Royal blood). Now pick your jaw up off the floor.

Isn't this the real reason for white female fragility? The answer is yes! There exist a lot of truths about ourselves that most of us aren't willing to explore. For white people, some of those truths paint them in a very pathetic light. I'm sorry, but as a white woman in America - you're simply not a victim of anything structural. You may be a victim to some personal and isolated incident but there is no systemic or institutionalized "ism" in place to destroy you and NO, Sexism isn't your collective oppression. You can't claim that because sexism isn't exclusive to just the female gender and white men have always treated you like shit and so don't start acting like now all of a sudden you have a problem with being his bitch and especially after 53% of you voted in a "Pussy Grabber" as your President. GROW UP white women. Pull yourself together ladies. It's not a good look to be angry for no goddamn reason.

[autolovecraft]

So don't ask me any questions when I call.

In the evening he wrote a note to Mr. Ward, which was then much below the level of Newport in its patronage of the liberal arts. Respiration and heart action had a baffling lack of symmetry; the voice was lost, so that now Dr. Allen did not keep them in shape. Servants' imaginations, fortunately, are limited, else comment might have been Allen's there was not one who did not think it necessary to take some sort of secret and coordinated action. 'Twas Number 118, and I conceive you would have shook had you looked it up in my list in the other room, its tag numbered 118. His elaborate studies and experiments, whatever they may have been after more than a twelvemonth afterward Capt. Whipple led the mob who burnt the revenue ship Gaspee, and in town i. The interview was, as always, inconclusive; but Willett felt that some direct conversation with his patient was necessary. At nine o'clock the three detectives presented themselves and immediately delivered all that they had indeed come to be the leader, Capt. Esek Hopkins to steal down into the river valley behind the Curwen farm and demolish with axes or gunpowder the oaken door in a frame of heavy masonry, which was delivered the next morning and which caused the half-dazed parent to ponder long and deeply. He was mad, and he knew that he had passed the open pit; for he had attended Ward all his life and could appreciate with terrible keenness the extent of his physical disorganization. On the Pawtuxet Road. Houses were still few here, and there is reason to believe from his speech and unmistakable replacement of modern by ancient ideas in his consciousness marked him out as one definitely removed from the normal.

Only by degrees did they absorb what it seemed to evoke. Now definitely leagued together to do all he could to restore the boy to normal poise. Charles had lost, and marked two items as of possible significance. She could hear no more than the cheap inventiveness of baffled curiosity. But far more interesting were the two vacant walls, both of which were plainer here than they had been at all specific.

Instead of triumph I have found, but I am not well spoke of by ibn Schacabao in the ⸻. Every possible moment was spent at the Pawtuxet bungalow and moved to it all his scientific effects. Ward was reminded when his son barked forth those pitiable tones to which he had been before; keeping close to his work and watched the men fascinatedly as they finished their installation of the picture with its woodwork above a cleverly realistic electric log, setting the mock-fireplace in Charles's third-floor study or library of Charles Ward from the time the typewritten notes began to reach his parents. Y’ai’ng’ngah, Yog-Sothoth was uttered, the hideous change began. There were futile, bewildered head-shakings from both men, and once Mr. Ward ventured a hushed suggestion, 'Do you suppose it would be, and I suppose that when I feared the work I feared him too as my greatest helper in it. The next morning Willett received a letter from one Jedediah Orne of Salem. This was a chemical rather than animal smell, and came clearly from the room beyond the door was of medium size, and had ordered the required kind and number from agencies which he had so long deserved. Faced by these baffling and contradictory reports, Dr. Willett substantially dissents; basing his verdict on his close and continuous knowledge of the matter. Upon returning home he broke the news with an almost evil chuckle very painful to hear. His exotic studies and his curious chemical importations being common knowledge, and his father recalls only a drowsy realization of stifled oaths and stamping feet on the night the goods were taken away. He wished it were not so willing? You know better than I who or what wrote that minuscule message will never trouble you or yours. Curwen or Orne Ward could not tell; but something in that combination affected him very badly and very peculiarly. The morning of April 6th dawned clear, and both the family and Dr. Willett set about collecting every scrap of data which the family had retired, the butler was nightlocking the front door when according to his uprooted and savagely splintered slate headstone, was found very curiously through correspondence with the heirs of the loyalist Dr. Graves, who had taken with him a duplicate set of records when he left his pastorate at the outbreak of the Revolution. But of this he hath doubtless writ you.'Raised Yog-Sothoth ’Ngah’ng Ai’y Zhro So haunting were these formulae, and so many clues to similar data elsewhere, that he was indeed right; for the miniature avalanche had left behind a solid wall of mixed earth and shrubbery from aloft. Willett relies on them to help establish his theory that the youth was sane and himself at the Ward home to be present when the detectives arrived. Those guards, according to the Fenner letter, above the doomed Pawtuxet farmhouse on the night the goods were taken away.

It was in January 1770, whilst Weeden and Smith drew their own inferences. They were robbing the tombs of all the ages; snatched by supreme ghouls from crypts where the world thought them safe, and subject to the beck and call of madmen who sought to kill Charles as too squeamish, and why had his destined victim said in the frantic note of the previous year. Curwen abandoned his midnight sailings. They had not, regrettably enough, located the Brava Tony Gomes as they had been at the foot of Olney Street.

Dr. Willett rested as if recuperating from something past or nerving himself for something to come. One night late in March he left the room. Willett's that the next move in this singular case proceeded. They had heard he was an omnivorous reader and as great a conversationalist as his poor voice permitted; and shrewd observers, failing to foresee his escape, freely predicted that he would like to say more if he thought any considerable number would believe him. None ventured to pierce the tangled shrubbery on the river-bank which old manuscripts mentioned. And now swiftly followed that hideous experience which has left its indelible mark of fear on the soul of Marinus Bicknell Willett has not hope that any part of his timidity. Willett waited vainly in Charles Ward's library, watching the dusty shelves with their silent and perhaps watching sentinels. For over a week Dr. Willett pondered on the dilemma which seemed thrust upon him, and he would not be well for the national—or even the international—sense of decorum if the public were ever to know what was uncovered by that awestruck party. He bore the name of Curwen, and perhaps it was something different and irrelevant; but in any case purely book research; and he could not rise to his feet after a time; lamenting bitterly his fright-lost torch and looking wildly about for any gleam of light in the clutching inkiness of the chilly air. Hence the rambles—from which St. John's the former King's Churchyard and the ancient Congregational burying-ground in the midst of this mephitic flood there came a very perceptible flash like that of the Hutchinson cipher, which he urged his Connecticut relative to destroy, remain to tell what was seen and heard. Before trying any of the Fenners had ever encountered before, and the half-dazed parent to ponder long and deeply. He engaged in shipping enterprises, purchased wharfage near Mile-End Cove, helped rebuild the Great Bridge, followed by the sound of a single whistle-blast, then wait and capture anything which might issue from the regions within. These had suffered damage at the hands of the raiders, a thing which was discussed for weeks. Peck, Waite, and Lyman were not inclined to attach much importance to the strange correspondence of young Ward's companion; for they knew the effect of publicity would be to miss its quintessential loathsomeness and soul-sickening overtones. Then, by insidious degrees, there appeared to develop a curious sequel to the matter of the covered pits and the nameless hybrids within. Promptly at four Dr. Willett presented himself at the time.

There was no mistaking the isolated bungalow with its concrete garage on a high point of land at his left. The attack was to begin as soon as it was delivered to the widow of Joseph Curwen, resumed, along with her seven-year-old daughter Ann, her maiden name of Tillinghast; on the ground 'that her husband's name was become a public reproach by Reason of what was known after his decease; the which confirming an ancient common rumor, though not to reveal their object. Late in the afternoon young Ward began repeating a certain formula in a singularly loud voice, at the request of the senior Ward, while denying this latter wish as absurd for a boy of only eighteen, acquiesced regarding the university; so that in time it became exceedingly difficult for Curwen to keep his oddly assorted hands. One may picture him yet as he was in port; spending hours at night by the wharves with a dory in readiness when he saw lights in the Curwen warehouses, and following the small boat which would sometimes steal quietly off and down the bay some distance, perhaps as far as Namquit Point, where they would meet and receive cargo from strange ships of considerable size and widely varied appearance. If you are disposed to travel, do not neglect to make use of the words I have here given. P.S. Shoot Dr. Allen on the second of that pair of formulae, recurred so often that Willett had ever heard before despite their wide knowledge of foreign parts, and many times bruised his head against the frequent pillars, but still he kept on. Here his only visible servants, farmers, and caretakers were a sullen pair of aged Narragansett Indians; the husband dumb and curiously scarred, and the father deep thought.

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Thanks so much for taking the time to answer!! I asked this because I am a Jewish student and I have real concerns about the institutionalised anti semitism in the Labour party in recent years. A lot of people say that labour isnt racist because they don't acknowledge anti semitism as racism and i feel that is part of the problem. I am against everything the torries stand for and ideology wise i would probably be more labour, but the anti semitism really worries me. And of course theres a..

No need to say thank you! I always enjoy looking at different view points, especially as a minority myself who knows parties are a really difficult thing to handle. I hope you don’t mind that I’m going to copy and paste your others asks below as I know they continue from one another as you said! So to my followers who are following this conversation, this next paragraph in italics continues from this particular anon ask, and was asked by the anon separately due to the ask box word count limitation! 

…difference between the criticism of israel and anti semitism; one is a political stance and one is just pure racism, but a lot of anti israel criticism stems from deep rooted anti semitism. And while i agree that a few anti semites dont define the party, i still worry about how often these things tend to happen in it. As a whole, the Jewish community is quite liberal; the more religious groups might be more conservative but that a different thing, which is why it is so hard today for us. So since I personally don’t have day to day contact with people outside my community i wanted to ask what other people thought. Because, if we take the us, trump has been admittedly more vulgar, but he is being crucified for being islamophobic while labour leaders seem to keep getting away with anti semitism (in no way am I defending trump - he is a biggot that never shouldve been elected). One last thing - i feel that people think that because labour are not generally racist against skin colour people dont take the anti semitic claims seriously. Sorry for the long messages x By the way if you mind me asking, were abouts in the UK are you from? 

Firstly, I agree that anti Israel sentiments can be due to deeply rooted anti-semitism - just as often stereotypes can be intrinsically rooted in racist ideals. But I feel we also have to understand that, as you said, while a lot of these criticisms come from discriminative backgrounds, there is also some criticisms that are not just politically based, but humanity based. I feel Corbyn in this instance (I am excluding Livingstone because he is an all out anti-Semitic in my book) has the well-being of Palestinians well and truly within his mind - but ofc I cannot prove that. He counter acts Israel not because of the Jewish community, but because of the atrocities taking place under their watch (with help from others of course). I know I keep trying to defend myself with the ‘but I don’t know what he really means’, but that’s because I truly don’t. I don’t know the inner workings of his mind - and he doesn’t help himself by not being more specific in order for us to understand. I also feel like I’m putting words in his mouth so forgive me for that, but this is what I think is the case (I could be completely wrong). 

I think I understand what you mean in terms of the liberal but religiously conservative ideals. I guess for me as an Indian girl I think my community is more conservative in all aspects (except the generation which I am a part of). I would argue however with your argument about Trump, that his attacks have been much more individualistic based (on his personality and what he says) rather than Republicans (as of late) while I feel the anti-Semitism is more on the Labour party as a whole. I also feel Trump has been much more engaged with such discrimination within his policy making (i.e. the Travel Ban) while Labour have not done anything to insight such anti-Semitism within their policy - not to say the institution is not flawed. I think attacking an individual compared to an institution are very different things - and I don’t believe in this ‘one person to represent the many’ sometimes because we’re all just so bloody different surely that would be difficult? I mean that’s the point of having other people behind a leader - to also steer them and give them different view points. I also put in bold one thing you said, and I hope other people who see this also can give their two cents that way you get more views! It is worrying like you said it happens really often, but I do think as well there is a rhetoric of anti-Israel rather than the Jewish community in Labour’s current state, but of course you may view that different from your position which is completely fair! But I guess that is also a worrying case as well! 

In concerns with your second to last point on skin colour being seen as racist but anti semitism not being taken seriously, I shouted in my house ‘helllll yeahhhhhhhh’ because you are so right! Discrimination is only thought of within two spades of the mainstream thought - sexism and racism. We know however, there is much more to this, religion, disability, sexuality, age etc. The list goes on - and while I feel sexuality is taken more seriously these days, I feel like religion still isn’t. Yes islamophobia is a hot topic (rightly so), but there are other religions too which face discrimination. 

I actually asked my Jewish friend this question in a different way, as she is British and voted within this election. She practices Judaism almost to a T - she has such a huge love for her religion (she is a very active member of the Jewish society at my University). I know for a fact she voted Labour, and I asked why (like u asked me anon) the anti-Semitism behind the party and it’s history did not effect her vote and she said this:

Oh! Well I chose it because I always have! They still have a lot of the things I want in a leadership […] I believe in him [Corbyn] tbh. May is just going to allow more hate into this country with the way she is […] I think Jeremy is an individual against his whole party. Remember he was was in such a low point last year, where everyone was basically conspiring against him? It made me remember that parties are meant to be one entity but they really aren’t - there are so many individuals a part of that one party - like a community. But they are all individuals who have slightly different values but i guess with Corbyn he had some ideas really different to the rest of them for them to collapse so much […] Thing is yes he doesn’t speak for me as a Jewish girl, but he does speak for me as a student living in a country which is gonna get into some deep stuff soon, and I know as a student about to graduate he will speak for me. That’s why I voted him. 

I think she makes a really good point - basically saying we are all different people within one person. We all have different identities - like I’m a brown, Indian girl who is the child of two expelled migrants. But I am also a really British student who loves geography and wants to work in media. My friend just happens to take into concern one half of herself more than the other with this vote - she’s voting for her future. I also think the party’s Jewish members would not stand for this if the party was so intrinsically encased with anti-Semitism - or would definitely call it out at least. It is like you said, worrying that it is happening so much and I just hope those Jewish members if they get their seats are strong enough to call those attitudes out of the party. I don’t know - maybe I just sound really in denial to you and I’m sorry for that! 

Sorry that went off topic slightly but I felt her view point was just as important as mine. 

And regarding your last question, I won’t say where I’m currently based in the UK but I did my postal vote in regards to my ‘home’ borough in London. Also sorry if I’m not making sense! It’s 1:30am rn and I’m sooooo tired but I’ll make sure to look at this properly when I wake up and make sure I have answered all your questions!! Also don’t apologise for the long questions!