#but yipee i know how to change facial expressions

[karolinqdean]

amelia shepherd appreciation post

something about the way grey’s anatomy does their cinematography— the music, meredith’s voiceover, the focus on character’s facial expression changes.... I feel so.....?????? I can’t believe they’re giving amelia a FUCKING brain tumour I really... can’t... believe this..... I haven’t even watched private practice so I don’t know much of amelia’s backstory personally but god if I did.... I feel so sorry for people who’ve watched both grey’s and PP and who love amelia and have to see her go through this. seriously what the fuck she’s so precious and vulnerable yet so fucking strong at the same time having to deal with life all on her own. yeah she has her sisters but mere has alex and webber and people who love her so much and maggie has family, the kind amelia doesn’t. How megan and teddy treated amelia these 2 episodes was also unacceptable are you kidding me they had zero right to even THINK that they could understand owen and amelia’s marriage ffs they were in the damn hospital for a week or two..???? and here they are deciding that amelia’s not a great wife, and that their marriage is a “sham” the fuck!!!!! For so long the only person who understood how she’d felt seeing her father murdered was derek and sure they had banters but she always knew he had her back. And now he’s gone and fyi she didn’t even get to say goodbye wtf I can understand how amelia would feel completely alone. If I were her I wouldn’t even have the courage to get out of bed much less bloody conquer an “inoperable brain tumour” with so many naysayers (shut up jackson avery). Plus the way they introduced the tumour— with amelia masturbating in the MRI machine therefore finding out— suggests how amelia is as a person. She has so much baggage yet can lead her life with so much vigor and bravery and optimism and strength. I REALLY AM DUMBFOUNDED AT THIS EPISODE WHAT THE FUCK with all the shit she’s been through with the drugs and waking up to her dead boyfriend and struggling with her guilt over thinking she’d killed him....all the AA meetings alone.... YOU GIVE HER A BRAIN TUMOUR.

YIPEE DEE DOO, I GUESS

All I am feeling now is anger and frustration and sadness and who knows, maybe it’s going to be benign and everything will be fine, but this is just so unnecessary and if it’s just shock value then can we please have it happen to someone else who’s been through less shit than amelia because right now nobody has her fucking back and I want her safe and thriving for the rest of her life because for sure she fucking deserves it OKAY