#can't get a major project going at work (which im doing at home bc i got sick after vacation 🤪) and customers are saying we're too slow

[kalashtars]

the worst feeling in the world is thinking you understand something and then taking a quiz on it and realizing that actually, you understood nothing at all

[seoafin]

tbh,, i havent read the raws of the interview yet, only the translated ver from fan-translator and b4 i start, i think that this will be just me talking in circle and in no particular order AND a real mess (my brain does weird things after exams) but uhh here we go

gojou collects talented people, and by doing so he finds the people he can most probably relate to, except that he can't, not really, because something in the universe shifted when he was born. and it makes me think of how he's always known it, that he is special, and he's proven it, time and time again— he wants to take in talented ppl and he does, but there rly isn't much he can do for them. for they are talented, more talented than the world can understand,,

but they aren't gojou satoru

gojou took in megumi, bc he knew megumi was strong, and would grow up to be someone even stronger, but gojou can't facilitate or encourage his growth, bc for all they're similar, they are so fundamentally different. ALSO,, while geto was in his life, gojou rly judged everything according to his understanding of geto’s moral compass. gojou wears a human suit and geto is how he learnt to wear it well 🏃

the dragonfly analogy regarding to geto’s response to gojo, who was shown wearing a dragonfly patterned yukata in HI arc,, i’m trying to not think abt the fact that dragonfly symbolized victory in jpn....pain. i quoted from a web here for more explanation : In Japan the dragonfly is known as the "victory insect", or kachimushi, because of its hunting prowess and also because it is known to never retreat. Dragonflies are agile and fast fliers and can even hover, but never fly backwards

and bringing this up again, matricide and patricide are 2 of the 5 worst act to commit in buddhism, and it was said that if u commit one of those act u’re going to spend a real long time in the deepest pit of hell before continuing the samsaric cycle (higher chances to be born as an animal after that probs)— this might be geto’s divine retribution. held no power over his own body and could be considered that he’s the same as those “monkeys” 💀

ALSO the fact that sukuna's interest is "eating" rly drives home his hedonistic philosophy of seeking pleasure for himself. and he’s a cannibal...makes me think if he’ll just chomp on ppl with the mouth on his stomach

randomly, to date i think he hasn't really called himself a human, shaman, or a curse, and has held himself apart from all 3, and we've also the intro of the cursed wombs so i wonder if he’s trying to become, or is, a different entity altogether

so onmyoji got mentioned in the interview and what they practice is called onmyodo and abe no seimei and kano no yasunori were the notable practitioners,, and the kamo in jjk is the same as irl who served the imperial court back then

maybe i was right when i said that the relation between the govt. and jujutsu elders are similar to how the shogunate and imperial court work (ie, the former holds the actual power) but... lets see later,,

and i cant believe that i actually nailed it on the analogy of jujutsu practices by religion,,, so mahayana buddhism, shintoism, and taoism is present in jjk along with their respective jujutsu practices...but between the 3, it shld (?) be taoism > shintoism > mahayana buddhism (which could took a path to pure land buddhism)

it’s weird that the number of curses are supposedly higher in jpn comparable to other countries when taoism was brought from china....tengen sus

so the zenin family tree is sth like :

brothers: [toji's dad] ; naobito ; ougi

so toji, naoya, and maki & mai are cousins of the same generation

[toji's dad] → jinichi (probs) ; toji → megumi

naobito → other brothers, naoya

ougi → maki, mai

but yea i’d call anyone who’s within/close or below my age range as cousins and others above 30 as uncles/ aunts LMFAO,, i dont rly memorize my own family tree 😭😭 especially since most call the other by honorifics instead of names : aunt, uncles etc or attaching said honorifics at the end of a name for an older sibling figure/ older cousins [but like ppl in my country also call the other who are older with sibling honorific even if we’re strangers,,, rly similar to korea’s hyung/oppa—eonnie(unnie)/noona but some uses more genderless honorific] (1)

tw // topic of incest, mentions of abuse

if anyone got the wrong idea when reading this : i am not glorifying/ romanticising incest(uous themes),, i’m looking at this with absolutely no lenses of bias even tho im rly against it

初恋 = literally : first love, or puppy love

恋 = romantic love/ deep longing

i literally don't know how else to put this...🧍and with language barrier...using a western interpretation of the eng word "love" to explain a jpnese term is not quite that simple, unfortunately

that thread omg,, i rly do understand how exactly someone could associated kindness with love bc of my upbringing, it was when i was slightly older that i was just...oh so its not like that orz,,, so the most plausible explanation would be that

but the problem is that,, akutami never specify when exactly she had a crush on them,, and when megumi answered todo’s question she had a “♡” reaction 😶,, uhmmm there’s rly no way to look past this if its this way or be in denial

i’ve seen some of "why wouldn't mai react that way after hearing megumi say he'd like someone who's compassionate when she's surrounded by men like naoya",, well I MEAN,,, that, but also mai probs admires that megumi grew up so well out of the clan, regardless of the fact that he had the foundation (10 shadows) to do so. imo she seems happy for him the way she can't be for maki, bc maki ultimately had to leave her behind

hate to say it but yea,, the 3 clans most likely still practice inbreeding in order to preserve their power and presumably their wealth too 😀

i had an idle thought abt it at first but i filed it deep in the back of my mind asap,, bc i ont wanna jump to conclusion abt this out of all things too early. it’s probably not even in jjk, but all those elite clans in other ani/mangas that produce powerful heirs and whatnot also do the same,,, but this way of (my personal) thinking was influenced when i first got into tsukihime (type-moon),,, i read abt the nanaya family background and found out that they practice that in order to keep their bloodline “pure” (to keep it short : they have an optical power),, and i had this kind of assumption ever since so there’s that

i’m,, convinced the zenins' inbreeding made it more difficult for them to get powerful shamans bc they got 2 jujutsu technique-less children with heavenly restrictions in the same generation: toji & maki

even more convinced that maki might be a bit stronger than toji bc toji could see curses without aid while maki can't so the pay-off must be higher,,, SJJASN IDK ,,, plus naoya sort of implies his older brothers are nothing compared to him, and idk if we should take that as his arrogance or that his older brothers rly are weak/powerless. it would make sense as to why naobito had a lot of sons, ig, as head of clan

i feel so bad that if one of the factors that can caused heavenly restriction is inbreeding,, toji and maki and mai had no say in how they wanted to be born but are scorned for it,, typical asian families projecting their traumas and ideals onto their kids but get mad when they realize that those ideals are ugly...😁😁😁

since the zenin are conservative,, i wonder if they still hold onto old jpnese dining traditions. where in ancient jpn, hierarchical relationships were made readily apparent even within families. a dining table where everybody sat down and ate as equals would be unheard of. rather, each individual is given their own table that indicates their status,,, someone who is not considered “strong” according to the zenin’s views most likely have no place at the table, and probs eat when those who are “strong” finished/ serve them when they are eating

if toji was tossed into a swarm of curses,, i dont think abuse during said time is below them,,,

the zenin clan was already great, but they further amassed power and strength by, what i assume to be, marrying and adopting powerful individuals into the clan 🤔 ,,, i imagine they're like the hiiragi but without doing what they did to shinya (ons reference)

BUT after all that, i like to think that since akutami’s a big horror fan, jjk might be an outlet to explore said topics or even darker ones, so i wouldnt be that surpised abt it. given that there’s more than enough “red flags” before this was dropped : a reference to “tale of hikaru genji” when a grown woman asked for gojou’s number in HI arc (out of all things); granny who transformed into the man’s daughter, sat on his lap and man just touched her waist; mei mei and ui ui ; and...this (incestous theme is in the novel btw)

lets not start with whatever the fuck in kubo’s head in the interview otherwise i’m writing paragraphs with every curse words possible,, those big 3 mangakas are so— UGH,, a planet w out (cis) men like him sounds real good rn 😌 if one of yall out there decide to do it,, pls hmu rly cant do this shit anymore

akutami said i like my men pretty and i like women who will step on my neck and spit in my face (I REMEMBERED TATSUKI FUJIMOTO’S INTERVIEW WHEN HE WAS ASKED ABT MAKIMA AND IT WAS SO 😭😭😭😭) but ykw,, love that for both of them <3

when i said 3 : one piece, bleach, naruto. aside from the blatant depiction/ characterize of women in those 3,, idk if some ppl arent aware yet but oda is friends with two (2) convicted pedos,, man...the major disappointment and disgust when i first find out abt it

anyways this is just my 2 cents (which i think rightfully belong to the trash can) so pls just take this w a lil to no grain of salt - 🐱

YEAH THE ♡ LMFAO I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A “good answer ♡“ heart BUT NOW IM RE-EXAMINING?????

honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if the three clans practiced inbreeding. but ik people are going to be  😡😡😡😡😡 about it when the queen of fucking england is literally married to her (something) cousin. i’m not justifying it but like....love the double standards, just as always with the west 😍

DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT FUCKING PED* LIST THEY SHOULD ALL BE IN JAIL. JAILLLLL. it’s all so gross. that’s why i fucking hate when people look towards manga for positive representation because the chances of that are super slim to zero, especially since the industry is saturated with misogyny and ped******* and a lot of other gross stuff.

i think ppl forget jjk is a horror manga LOL so obviously it’s going to confront darker themes. the question is whether it’s going to be done tastefully or not......

[missfitartistar]

It's HARD to BUILD a PeaceFul SPACE / LIFE around chaos & hostility. That's all I ever wanted. I'm a small women who's had to STAND her ground to Abusive, insulting people for many yearz, to the point of SERIOUS mental & emotional exhaustion. I HAD TO STAND MY GROUND & FIGHT HARD IN MY OWN SELF AND MIND, TO GET PAST THE TRAUMA AND HARDSHIPS Endured CAUSED BY HATEFUL BULLYING TYPES OF PEOPLE . IM BARELY PAST IT. Not ONE WOMEN should ever have to feel this way. EVER. I STOOD MY GROUND OVER AND OVER to many mean Ass SELFISH hateful TROUBLESOME VINDICTIVE PEOPLE.

I HOPE PEOPLE CAN UNDERSTAND this is the WORK I promote to bRing stability to the World w live in by first building up your Women & PROMOTING OUR HAPPINESS & WORK, SO we can BETTER SERVE you WHICH BRINGS BALANCE TO THE EARTH WE ALL LIVE ON. Not treat US Lyk CRAP & BEAT DOWN OUR HEARTS, MINDS, SPIRIT, WORK & JOY bc you(THE HOSTILE PEOPLE) ain't right in the HEADS.

THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN WORKING ON FIR MANY YEARZ W VERY LITTLE APPRECIATION OR SUPPORT. JUST THE OPPOSITE.

YAH I USE CUSS WORDS & MADE A BIG DEAL BC I COULDN'T HANDLE ANYMORE STRESS. I WAS RAISED BY AN ARMY DAD WHO HAS HAD ALCOHOLISM MY WHOLE LIFE.

ALSO RAISED BY MILITARY UNCLE WHO WASNT ALWAYZ EAZY GOING.

I RARELY HAVE HAD LONG BREAKS IN MY LIFE. IVE ALWAYZ HAD MY OWN FAM & RESPONSIBILITIES. SOMETIMES MOSTLY MORE THAN ENOUGH.

I WAS RAISED TO BE TOUGH BUT HEY I DESERVE A BREAK FROM Low STANDARD people(NO GOALS OR FOCUSED UPBRINGING), HOSTILE PEOPLE. Can't stand people that lay around( AND DONT HAVE HOBBIES OR BACKUP WORK when I'm coaching them), drink alcohol too often, ass cracks hanging out, waste my time, LOUD MOUTHS, don't show up or follow thru on meetings or anything I'm TRYINA help them with collectively, have to be told the same thing over and over.... don't pull the BACKUP CHORES WITHOUT BEING ASKED OR DIRECTED, so I can get a break.. TO FOCUS ON MY Own WORK.

I've only recently started taking small naps bc I need them.. THERE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GETTING REST & BEING LAZY.

IVE SAID THIS FOR YEARZ. IVE HAD NO REAL BREAKS ON MY ENERGY BEING ATTACKED, BLOCKED, HINDERED OR SQUELCHED FOR MANY YEARZ. NO FAM WHO WANTS TO BUILD OR SUPPORT MY MENTALITY. JUST INSULTS & INJURIES.

THANKFULLY IVE HAD SOME BREAK FROM HOSTILITY WHICH HAS HELPED ME & BEEN DOING MY ENERGY HEALING WORK AND STUDIES ARE WIDE VARIETY OF WORLD CONTENT.

THIS IS WHY I PROMOTE A LIFESTYLE FOR MYSELF THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY AND THATS BC IN AN ARTIST, MOTHER & ENTERTAINER.

ITS HARD TO BE COOL, CALM, & COLLECTED WITH HATERS CRAWLING UP MY ASS FOR SO MANY YEARZ. But I did pretty good considering.

TRYINA GET MY ENERGY & SABOTAGING EVERYTHING I BEEN WORKING ON BEHIND THE SCENES To Help Myself & other people stay safe & FOCUSED. PEOPLE I DID ALOT OF WORk FOR SERIOUS CLEANING, Errands DRIVING, Child rearing, ALL OF WHCIH TOOK ALOT OF MY ACTUAL ENERGY AND CAUSED ME AOMETIMES DEPRESSION, 'TRIED TO Help OTHER PEOPLE ALOT OF THE TIME.. WHO AINT GOT NO TIME TO HELP W HOME, LIFE PROJECTS OR RESPECT TO MY CREATIVE CONTENT /WORK OR LIFE. PEOPLE WHO ARE INTO BUILDING A BETTER LIFE NOT RUDE OR LOUD OR DRUNK.

IM LOOKING FOR A GROUP OF PEOPLE THAT ARE INTELLIGENT AND INTO TEAMWORK. NOT ABUSIVE OR DYSFUNCTIONAL.

NOT INTO Fakes, PLAYERS OR PEOPLE W NO SOUL.

MY WORK PROMOTES #SELFCARE, FREEDOM TO BE CREATIVE AT MY OWN DISCRETION, TO Rebuild NY OWN ENRRGY BC ITS BEEN PUSHED DOWN BY SOME RUDE, PUSHY, HATING, LOW LIFE ACTIN PEOPLE, MEN & BITCHES -TRYINA BLOCK MY SHINE or Add more insults to my VIGOR, choice of WORK & Music. I HAVE A SERIOUS #SUCCESS #MINDSET, WHICH IM TRYIN TO EXPRESS TO #PEOPLE AROUND ME WHICH IS EXTENSIVE & REQUIRES MORE PROFESSIONALISM & SUPPORT!

THIS IS A VERY SHORT LIST OF MUSIC IM INTO AND SOMETIMES SING

E-40 G-Eazy Tina Turner

Pink Floyd Sa-Roc Reba McEntire Lil Wayne Too Short Eminem

Bon Jovi BIG SEAN 50 Cent Tech N9ne Dax Nitty Scott Nikki Minaj

Madonna Cardi B

MUSIC IS ONLY ONE OF MY MAJOR INTERESTS, ART, DANCE AND HEALING COACHING WORK ALL GOES TOGETHER.

I LYK THINGZ TO FLOW. CANT DO IT UF PEOPLE CANT LEARN TO WORK TOGETHER AND GET IT BETTER THRU BETTER MORE PEACEFUL, MOTIVATIONAL, ACTIVITIES SUPPORT, DISCIPLINED YET CHILL LIFESTYLE. NOT STRESSFUL CHAOTIC OR COMBATIVE.

TO RESPECT THOS WHO ARE COACHING YOU, NOT FUXKING OFF, OR INSULTING US OR BREAKING US DOWN.

#LykaBo