lotusillustration · 10 months ago
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having my annual ✨️christmas eve breakdown✨️ so I'm going to ramble some lilistarions/liliths. it's 3am don't expect it to make sense
cw: toxic relationships, cults, nfsw, dsh if you squint (it's more scarification)
-lilith is dead fucking terrified after the I-tried-to-kill-him incident and refuses to meditate out of fear for days. astarion stays up with her and figures out how to cuddle pretty damn quick when she's a sopping wet cat
-when lilith figures out gortash is their ex they're like "babe. stari. is it cheating if I try get some just so I can divorce him again" (they wouldn't actually go through with it bc they know it'd make astari uncomfortable but I love a good divorce meme ok)
-astarion is basically the only reason lilith didn't become bhaal's chosen, like how he didn't ascend for her. that's codependency babes! they can fix each other (in like, the worst way possible)
-lilith bites too bc ofc they do
-every time someone scathingly calls lilith a heretic she really has to think abt which cult they're referring to bc gods she's joined like 5 at this point
-after cazador dies and astarion is comfortable with sex again. they are fucking nasty All The Time. everyone in camp has caught them probably. they probably sneak off into abandoned rooms and shit literally in the middle of their quests and the rest of the party is just "sigh"
-lilith has a shitton of scars, some are "art" from their time as bhaal's chosen. I will make a ref for this eventually prommy
-it takes a long ass time for astarion being okay with his back being touched, and tbh for both of them to have people come up behind them. it would be very in character for them to be the gross couple who sit on the same side of the table, but they do it so they can both have their back to the wall. lilith slowly acclimates him to allowing her to touch his back, and he periodically asks her to try going "further" (it starts with back of shoulders/hips being okay, and slowly he gets used to her touching the whole thing.
-re: above. lilith is a scratcher so they tend to scratch his thighs during sex since they can't scratch his back. meow.
-knife kink. that's all.
-they can basically instantly sense when each other is triggered, and are naturally the only ones who can calm each other down. they'll near instantly whisk the other away to help them through it.
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