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#crying or saying something about how they feel they're called 'soft' 'snowflake' 'sensitive' or sometimes worse names i won't mention
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#another vent! don't read if you don't want to! it's long.
#so um. my mom and i got in a small fight while out shopping. not anything extraordinary just a regular small dispute and she got
#kind of annoyed. and whenever anyone annoys her she *always* says 'it's fine' or 'i'm fine/over it" and it has become noticeable to me
#over time. so i told her 'i know you're annoyed with me' and she literally told me 'fine. do you want me to just start telling me that
#i'm annoyed with you??' and i was like 'what? yes! why wouldn't i want you to??' but she didn't really answer it. we got into the car
#and i said 'sorry i didn't mean to upset you earlier' and of course she was like 'oh it's fine' so i just said to her:
#'what i wanted to say was that telling me how i annoyed you and told me what you thought would get us a lot further than just covering your
#emotions with a constant 'i'm fine' and not telling me anything.'
#and was just like: 'i love you madison but that's not how it works.'
#like ????? girl yes it is how it works!! good communication strengthens trust in relationships!! how is this a foreign concept to you??
#but something clicked when she said 'look your father hates it when people talk about their feelings or how actions and words
#make them feel. if i get used to telling you how you made me feel then i'll start doing it to your father.'
#and i just fuckin. sat there. i didn't even say anything for a good minute bc i was so astonished but everything like. made sense.
#this house is so full of 'i don't care' 'fuck you/off' 'i'm fine' and so many other harsh words and careless but hostile name-calling—
#we don't even know how to tell each other how we feel and think. there's no healthy connection. whenever someone gets emotional by
#crying or saying something about how they feel they're called 'soft' 'snowflake' 'sensitive' or sometimes worse names i won't mention
#but it's all the same shit. the shaming of being human is revolting but it also shows how dysfunctional this household is. like
#it seriously checks every. single. mark. i don't even tell my mom about my problems because all i ever get back is a 'just relax' or
#'stop being ridiculous' and there's no sign of comfort or trying to problem-solve anything. it's just 'get over it you'll be fine.'
#it made me realize that everyone in this house doesn't know how to properly communicate or work through emotions- thoughts- and conflicts.
#myself included. ever since the age of 9 i had such a hard HARD time showing and receiving affection (physical and emotional) from friends
#but i didn't know why! it just felt so goddamn foreign! but now it just. now i understand where my deeply rooted
#emotional unavailability came from. healthy communication of affection and conflict was never shown to me and all i ever saw from
#my parents were fights. lots and lots of fights. i think i thought that's all normal relationships looked like. i thought any affection or
#display of healthy communication was fake and a trap of some kind so i just never even chanced a good friendship. i started having healthy
#friendships just in late 2020 when i started realizing what in the fuck was going on. i'm more mature than a reserved 9 year old girl now
#of course so i'm learning how to be more emotionally available but. i just need a minute. what the fuck.
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