#es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that

[jewel-kr]

Reminiscing the friendship

So hello Tumblr... After a few yrs, i am back w a banger lol jk no . Just a few simple short-composing-alike that i’d fancy to jot down here . On the other hand, it feels so good to be back after maybe 3yrs of being inactive . hahahah sorry for that , got no time w all these growing up issues and responsibilities , ya get me right? was prolly 18y/o the last time i wrote here, On the verge of being 21st this yr hahaha .

Okay, I am not here to shittalk abt myself (prolly some other time) . Legitimately, the caption written above *Reminiscing The Friendship* . Friendship can comes in any way, any time and only the realest one would stick to your dummy freaky ass  hahaha . I got homies myself: from elementary school , middle school , college , social media acquaintances and prolly a ‘hai bye’ kinda friends hahaha . ykno, when yguys only met once and not having the chance to introduce yourself on the first place so on the second meetings yguys just ‘oh hey tsup? all good? aight nice to meet you , again’ . yup, you can relate . But yes i still got my realest blood that doesn’t wants me to die hahaha *Forever Grateful*

In this “so-called-diary” ,I  would only include one and only honorable mention for one of my 3yrs long-servant best-buddy (coming 4yrs this September) . Oh first of all, I won’t gonna include name of her cause she would notice this too . YES A SHE OMG HAHAHAHA . A funsized , adorable , lovely little buckteeth of mine (IF SHE’S TAKEN THEN SHE’S NOT MINE SO THIS CONTEXT WOULD AUTOMATICALLY CHANGED) . where were we? Right , our size is really not an issue *sobbing cause i am a huge beast standing to her*

It all started on 2013 (Actually way earlier cause i’ve been knowing her eversince she dated my friend , But i wasn’t  fond abt knowing her that period) . SO ITS A ONE SUNNY DAY IN 2013 WHERE .. jk it was on break-time period around 10-10.30 in the morning where i (okay i actually really have forgotten either i stole her number from a friend or ask for it) NEVERTHELESS THATS NOT THE CASE (it will be the case Joul if she finds out you forgot abt it) UGHHHH...PLS...ENCOURAGE...ME... OKAY I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAD ASKED FOR IT (don’t lie Joul) ... ITS BETWEEN THE TWO FFS , STOP MESSING W MY FEELINGS YOU SICK HUNCH! *inhale-exhale peacefully* . I AM OKAY NOW :) SO :) HMMM (whats w the smiley face) *this paragraph is a chaos create new one*

*new paragraph* so its between those two , the reason why i *EITHER* asked or stole it, its bcs she seems friendly the way she texted w him (they actually talk abt Neymar that time hahaha i remembered) , and no im not gonna spit down what our convo looked like afterthat , but forreal we got that same thinking w all the pros and cons of everything , abt the past and the future , we coped well cause she’s VERY VERY VERY AND REALISTICALLY FRIENDLY so idts it would be so hard for her to make friends and make a bond w everyone (WAIT... IF YGUYS ARE COMPATIBLE , WHY DON’T YGUYS JUST DATE?) . well Tumblr , if i wouldn’t be thinking of my future w her. I might have dated her long ago , She knows the drill too but it was never an issue for us

Had a thought during our fun-joy texting period that I and her would only be friend for temporary or maybe just a “hai bye” acquainted . BUT ... 29th September , 2013 proved me wrong . Its the day where we actually met , Accidentally i shall said cause we didn’t really planned on meeting . As i walked past by her group of friends she called up by my nickname hahaha , w that “ HAI DITO” all clear and clarity to that sound so i just said HI back and smile . We don’t really talked that day (idk why) . We did texted when we reached home abt meeting eachother and “oh wow you’re cute in real life” kinda expression. i wish i could actually tell detail information abt our conversation and what we’ve been thru but this story wouldn’t get to its end for even in 2hrs hahaha . Since that day , we’re officially-lawfully-ideal best buddy for life.

Time flies so fast , as if i’ve just known and met her yesterday . We went to the same college for a year in 2015-2016 , she’s still there but not me . I still remember the first day we met on college after such a long-drought of not meeting each each other .We had this cute-little hugs on elevator on our way to the basement hahaha . ITS SO CUTE , and ofcourse many more hugs came from her . okay back to basic.. We shared our stories together, We called each other on phone tho very seldomly hahaha but the memory stays fresh in me . We talked abt how stupid , reckless and unworthy our ex-es were (mostly came from her) . i know i can sense if she’s not okay even that she said she’s okay . some ppl might say she’s problematic but that’s not how i view her . yes she got plenty of problems but she intends to keep it , that’s what i called that she’s just the victim of situation . Not truly her fault . Tho she can be so stubborn yet i would still love her . At some point i’ve been thinking that both of us is the contrast of each other character : Our attitude,  social life, style of living ... yet , its the same moment where i felt that I and her have that strong bond towards each other . We had our ups & downs , She was there when i needed her the most : I loved how she never judged me . I am always the pessimist and negative side but i know she got my back and vice versa, Cause that’s what bestfriends would do . Supportive and encouraging towards the journey. She might be a Diploma holder in the nearest time and i would be glad for her achievement , And i hope she would achieve much more in life.

We may not talk nor meet regularly due to focusing on studies but i know at some glance she’ll remember me , Even if i dropped drastically from her ‘important ppls’ charts . As long as i’ll have 1% chance of going top , I’ll put 99% faith on it . But hey, that’s part of growing up : Living w big circles of countless friends , active social life cause that’s what growing up needs to do for living (:

xoxo, J  *stopped writing at 3.56AM*  *currently missing the hugs hahaha*