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fantasticalleigh · 8 months

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there is nothing more humbling than putting everything into the things you make and then having it amount to nothing each time. no matter how hard i try none of it matters. but at the same time it's kind of freeing and allows me to be more cavalier about the next thing. ¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯¯_(ツ)_/¯

#i have to remember i do it for ME and nobody else. and it helps me. and that should be all that matters.#leigh speaks #i practically killed myself working on my senior body of work for an exhibition for 2 years #and then covid came and it didn't happen and the prospective buyers i'd been talking to went silent #even my own family didn't care so i stuffed all the art in a storage bin and i hate looking at it #sometimes i think about just not doing art of any kind anymore but i think i would literally implode without it so guess not #this has been on my mind since 2020 tbh and obvs my dumb little art show is not more important than the pandemic #but that was so important to me and i never got that closure. i'm allowed to be sad and bitter #sorry you got sad emo leigh today :( maybe i just need to take a social media break for a while i'm just tired of everything #for the record i am PROUD of everything i make #i will never be ashamed of any of it #but it sucks when you try and share that with the world and all you get is confirmation that once again it doesn't matter

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