#externally wrapped in a fluffy blanket sleepy

[tiredyetsoft]

Important

My girlfriend's birthday is today, It's 12:32 am and she just went to bed And I would sell my soul to get her what she wants most for her birthday, but I can't... But I can say everything about her that I love and just how much she means to me My girlfriend, Cynthia, is literally amazing. I've wrote paragraph after paragraph about her and have only posted a few of them. If I use cheesy sayings she's the apple of my eye. But words can't explain exactly how much I love her and how much she means to me. If I could pull down the galaxy and hand it to her in a ring I would. If it made her happy I'd pull my heart out and hand it to her. If it meant making her smile I'd give her everything on this planet. If it meant her being happy and smiling I'd give my own life. Sounds intense I know, but she's the reason I'm alive, the reason i have any will to live. She puts color in a black and white universe. To use a saying I've seen, "I'm the pen and she's the highlighter, I drew the world and she makes it brighter" she's got a heart of gold and is the sweetest, kindest, most amazing person I've ever met. She lights up a room with her silly jokes and memes and is so talented and smart, she's literally so amazing. I can't even think of something she can't do, she's just that amazing. If I could I would spend the rest of my life giving her absolutely everything she ever needs or wants. She's the first girlfriend I've had that doesn't use me or abuse me, she's never hurt me for as long as we've known each other. Any time I'm with her it makes me fall in love with her all over again, every time I see her face every time I hear her voice no matter what she always looks amazing to me. She's human, has flaws, but like every other human her flaws make her even more amazing and complex, but they're not important. What is important is her cute smile, her bright eyes, her soft hair, all the good and amazing things about her. Flaws make her human, but her personality and actions make her the amazing princess she is. Now, in detail, her amazing looks. Her hair is soft and fluffy, and because she's growing it out it looks cute in ponytails, and is super fun to pet and play with Her eyes are soft and expressive, I'd sit and drown in them if I could, they're so beautiful that they take my breath when I look into them Her face in general, every time I see a picture of her, or if I'm with her, holding her soft body against mine, I fall in love over and over again Have I even mentioned how soft and nice her skin is? It's always cold and I love warming her up by cuddling and hugging and it makes her happy to be cuddled so extra points. I love her with every piece of my heart and soul. Her soft skin, with her prominent little hipbones and collar bone that I love to kiss, her squishy curves, her cute waist, her thighs, her legs, everything about her is absolutely gorgeous and I wouldn't ask her to change, she's amazing and perfect to me. Her sweet little voice and her soft little lips. I could go on and on but I have more to talk about. She can play music, she plays trumpet along with me and she's amazing at it. She does really well and I'm so proud of her for being in band with me. It's how we met, and it makes me so happy that I fell in love with a talented, sweet, amazing person with similar interests and I'm so, so grateful to have a girlfriend like her. I love buying her little gifts, giving her little kisses tag make her giggle and smile, cuddling her and petting her when she's my sleepy little princess. My love is the best person and I can't imagine being alive without her, she's talked me out of self harming, all the way up to talking me out of suicide and i can never, ever say thank you enough to any being that exists or the universe that I have someone like her, or should I say I have her, cause nobody can be as great and amazing as my beautiful princess. She's the only person I've ever thought about having a future with, the only person that I've wanted to live with and be together for a long time with, the only girl that makes me realize that I am just as good and nice as people say I am, that I'm worthy to be alive and that I have a meaning, even if it isn't that big but as long as I'm with her I have purpose, I have a reason to believe in the future. My beautiful girlfriend has so many amazing things that I could talk about, and I could go on for much, much longer, and I will lmao I don't know exactly what I should say now, but I do know that she makes me the happiest girl alive when that little smile starts to peek out when I'm kissing her or tickling her Oh wait Her laugh Let me tell you about her amazing adorable perfect laugh It's a little giggle, a happy laugh when I tickle her and it makes my entire week if I can make her laugh, it's so cute and sweet and amazing. Her laugh is like turning a light on in a dark room or a nice smelling candle being lit, it just is so nice to hear that I will never ever get tired of hearing it. Now I could repeat myself and talk about how beautiful she is And I will again in a moment But right now I wanna talk about how calming she is for me. I've been in full out panic attacks or extremely stressed or disassociating into next week and her talking to me, hugging me, holding me, makes me calm down almost immediately, and she helps me so much and again I can never thank her enough for that. She's quite literally is my blanket. I'm not joking she lays on me constantly and it's amazing, I love. LOVE. Cuddling with her Her cuddles are sooooo nice, she wraps her arms around my waist and lays her head on my chest and looks up with those baby blue eyes and just *screaming into void* I love her so much and her cuddles make me remember that love is real, and I have fallen deeply in love with her Her personality Her soul Her body Her face Her existence Even if she doesn't always see how amazing she is Cause same To me she will always and forever be the most internally, externally, and any other -nally that associates with being amazing that I will ever know e v e r I know people will have other opinions of her But they're not my problem But if someone tries to say she isn't beautiful as she is I will shred them I'm sane I swear Anyway, Cynthia, I love you, and I've tried to say how much with this post, because it's your birthday and you deserve it. I will always mean every word, every kiss, everything And no matter what anyone, anything, or any doubt says You are amazing You are sweet You are the best girlfriend I've ever had Ever And no matter what I will love you, unconditionally I hope that I made you at least smile a little, you're my beautiful princess and you deserve all the happiness in this universe. And I'll be damned if I don't try to give you all the happiness in the world So last but not finally least, for god knows how many times I've said this I really, really love you Now it's almost 2 am, and I'm so tired I can't think, but it doesn't matter, I love you so much... Happy birthday Princess, too bad I can't pick you up in a carriage and ride into the sunset for our happily ever after. Because I would if I could, trust me...