#for which both of those things are true i've like waaaay spiraled far outside of what is reasonable and proportionate | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

coquelicoq · 8 months

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usually i don't have any problem not thinking about work when i'm not getting paid to do so, but i made a big mistake earlier this week and spent five hours today dealing with the fallout and still have not managed to resolve it, and when i clocked out it was actually with this vague dread about leaving it unsolved instead of relief that it's finally the weekend. like it's bad that it's the weekend because it means i have to stop working on it?? wow. gross.

#it's interesting because it's 1) a pretty bad mistake and 2) not the end of the world. and in the past when i have done something #for which both of those things are true i've like waaaay spiraled far outside of what is reasonable and proportionate #and just really beat myself up about it. and this time i'm not at all. i'm just like well that was dumb and the consequences are #unfortunate and i really wish i had made different choices before this. but i don't have any control over that so there's no use #crying over it. all i can do is take responsibility‚ take steps to prevent it in the future‚ and move forward #so that's what i'm doing. which strikes me as very healthy and a big step up from what i used to do #however i keep having to quash the impulse to open my work email to see if there have been any developments #which is CRAZY like i've always thought of that as workaholic behavior from which i am shielded on account of having #excellent work-non work separation but I GUESS NOT

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