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paradoxikaa · 2 years

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i fuckin hate people >:) i hate the shitty social dynamics we have inherited and disseminated throughout our cultures >:) i hate the way a lot of parents feed both provision and poison to their children from the same hand in the same bite and then wonder why the family tree stays sick and rotten i fucking hate all of this >:) i hope we all fuckin die

#misanthropy hoursssss i am so glad i've shed the need to be the fair and mature and accepting kind of person in order to feel valid #my underlying misanthropy has always been warranted has always been the voice of knowing something's fucking wrong #has always been the part of me that couldn't be gaslit into being compliant when every other part was #has always been my only armour against converting myself completely into a commodity for a shitty society that didn't deserve my devotion #i fucking hate us i fucking hate u #imagine being a child of a species wired to attach to ur caregivers at all costs for survival #and still at a young young young age developing a sense that #u as a newly shooting branch of this family would need to amputate urself from the tree to have any chance of being healthy #of getting to grow instead of being starved and stagnant and diseased for ur entire life #pretty sick and done with always trying to turn crappy things i went through and see in the world into shit to be grateful for #there are always things to appreciate but a nice view and free food doesn't make a torture centre a healthy place to be #i'm tired of never having the permission to call something crappy crappy and to be angry and to protect myself #i gave too many fucking people all the chances they didn't deserve. i get to be a distrusting misanthrope. at least for a few seasons.

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