#hellenar's rambles into the void

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me trying to sleep: bed is too warm :( feet are wrong temperature :( blanket is in a weird place and is also for some reason the wrong texture :(

me taking a nap: yeah this chair is cozy enough snrrrk mimimimimi

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southern california is Very On Fire right now so if i disappear then you probably know what happened

otherwise assume a lack of updates means nothing has happened to me because i probably will forget

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finals week is amazing i have not eaten in 22 hours :)

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clearly we need schlatt's blessing for next time

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my name is hellenar and im the sleepiest guy alive

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i hate my body not in the way you might think but as in "my body keeps malfunctioning and bullying me and i want it to Stop"

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i want unhinged fictional women to do unholy things to me

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math is like art to me in that the result is gratifying but i do not enjoy parts of the process

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the day i learn how to draw anthros properly is the day i become more powerful than god

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maybe im just relatively new to tumblr and haven’t done an awful lot of exploring but i feel like there’s not a lot of hololive fans here (at least not a lot of ones i can go brrr together with)

i know technically nothing’s stopping me from dumping my headcanons here into the void but sometimes you just wanna brainrot with other people yk

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maybe it's just late but this feeling of wrongness isn't going away i keep feeling like things are going to fall apart at any moment

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i need to get better at loving myself

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happy autism equinox to all who observe

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being sick is fun because sometimes you'll yawn and your ears stop being weird and plugged up and you'll go holy shit was the world always this noisy and anyway i think i take functioning ears for granted

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mfw im only three weeks into college and already lowkey tired :pain:

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call me grimmchild because all i do is look silly and go nyaaa nyerrrrp nyaaaa :3