#hiding this in the tags bc embarrased

[reorientation]

Hi. So I got into detrans kink because of my ex boyfriend. When we first stared dating, I was pre-T and I was very dysphoric about it. He assured me he saw me as a man, and that he was bisexual.

However, I gradually realized he was a straight man. Whenever we fooled around, he was very focused on my tits. He told me he wanted me to shave my pussy bc it was easier to give me oral that way, and I believed him so I did. He said he would love if I "crossdressed" and I tried it too.

The weight of the situation I was in caught up to me when he raped me. I had told I didn't want any vaginal sex ever, but that day he fingered and then put his whole, raw dick inside my virgin pussy. I wasn't on birth control either. He didn't cum inside me but I was worried for days after I would get pregnant.

I broke up with him, told myself he was a stupid idiot because I am not a woman, I am a man. Started T slowly after.

However, I started to have weird fantasies... I needed extra money at that time, because of a project I wanted to do. So I just. Took that as an excuse to start doing porn.

I was still early on T. So I was able to start a Chatroulette account as a girl. I would hide my face and just play with my tits on video, let everyone assume I was a a woman. My voice hadn't dropped yet, so I would answer their questions too. What size my tits were, what type of sex I liked and so on. I bought lingerie and raided my older sister's closet for slutty clothes to wear for these men.

I also had a reddit account and I would post nudes every day, talk about how much I loved dick and wanted to be used. Got into misogyny, breeding and free use kinks. It was so embarrasing to me to see that, even on T, everyone saw me as a girl who also was enough of a slut to show her pussy and tits to all the internet. I uploaded a couple of videos too. I would also use omegle very often to find misogynists and then I would be their sex toy on Kik for a couple of hours too.

The most embarrasing part is that I made almost no money for this. My Only Fans had no subscriptors because I was already posting my body for free on Reddit. I got some tips on Chatroulette, but that was it. Less than 200 USD in my whole three month career as a online whore.

I kinda wanted to do it irl too. Started a Twitter profile as a prostitute and was approached by many guys in my city who offered to pay money to use my girly body. But I chickened out and deleted everything. It was very distressing, but also hot, that these men didn't know I was a man. They saw a pretty girl who is whoring herself out.

Some days I want to start all over again and maybe go all the way too. But I am 4 years on T now, and I am quite sure I can't pass as a girl effortlessly.

—I might send more asks so I thought about signing this as Chatroulette anon, but it will be hotter if you give me an anon name yourself.

As you wish: your tag is reor: wannabe whore anon. 🖤

I do love this. You started dating a straight man based on some easy reassurance, shaved your pussy and put on a dress for him, unwillingly took his bare cock when you thought you would never take anyone's, and then told yourself that he was the stupid one, for not realizing that he was actually fucking a man. How blind he must have been!

And then... You realized that what he wanted from you was what the whole world wanted from you. That no one cared about your identity, just whether you'd show them your tits. That the easiest way by far for you to get positive attention was to stop insisting that you were a man, and instead tell everyone how much you needed a man to fill up your cunt.

And attention was all you got, wasn't it? Because even though you were embarrassing yourself in public in order to entertain strange men, there were a million other girls trying to do the same. Because you weren't any different than any of them.

It's cute that you nearly tried to make it all real, though - that because your boyfriend forced his way into your pussy, you ended up trembling on the edge of letting in any man who could pay. Quite a long way from never wanting to have a man spread your legs.

I'm sure you would have made a pretty little whore at the time. And maybe it's too late to look as feminine and innocent as you could have then. But I believe in you - one way or another, I'm sure you can still make plenty of straight men happy with your cunt. 🖤

[wiltedthrone]

@shelcved says:

i'm here to tell you that i love you and auds so much and you are a blessing in the rpc and just sunshine on my dash. thank you so much for the kindness and softness of being just you 💋💋💋💕💕💕

i’m here to say i think you’re so so so so lovely and i’m glad we get to write together and cry over auds & lj )): auds is so grateful for her and i’m really grateful for you and now i’m at the risk of rambling but thank u thank u thank u thank u ))): what to heck

[serenscarlett-moved]

Last Line of WIP

Thank you for the tag @lordviridis 💜

Well, admittedly I had half-written wips, some not fully finished, all because I'm bad at making myself motivated for writings. 😅

tagging @vespertine-legacy @darthvronton @nusaran and anyone else who does writing for fun.

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Unmasked Trust snippet.

Aris looked away from Marr and pulled up the top of her jumper to hide her embarrased face, "It was an innocent question."

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disable the eradicators snippet, yeah, it's a boring title to come up with.

"Watch and observe, darling." Jadus leaned into her ear, fingers grasped the cipher's shoulders tightly eying the holo-screen, "This was the start of 'our' vision."

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Unexpected Guest, still half-written and unfinished... but this was the closest I gotten.

"Or I'll call Darth Marr." Aris warned.

Aris wasn't sure if she was imagining things, she could've sworn she had seen Jadus stiffened at the mentioned of Marr's name from the tip of her tongue when threatened.

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throwing in some untitled Kritanta/Vowrawn snippet bc why not.

"Not at all," Vowrawn smiled, leaned into the embrace craving for more of Kritanta's kisses, "Infact, I welcome them."

[k-itsmaywriting]

First Lines

Tagged by @claudeng80  ty!! <3

Rules: list the first lines of your last ten published stories. 👀 if there are any patterns yourself, and see if anyone else notices any! tag up to ten friends! 

1. Before she even leaves Shidan’s office with Ryuu, Shirayuki is about to burst with excitement. (Magic!AU/Drink Up)

2. “No problems, Master. She still hasn’t had any severe malfunctions.” (Android!AU/Vessels ch1)

3. On Monday night, Obi paces outside Practise Room 408. (Music!AU/jazz hands but they’re a bit embarrased)

4. Taehyung leans over the pale wooden counter, hand steady at the base of the metal jug as milk pours into latte. He watches the way white swirls into brown, waits, watches closely, before he tips his hand just a little forward. Thin white cuts through light espresso, and the sides curl inwards towards the line. (BTS coffee shop!AU/aromatic and a little romantic)

5. “Miss.” (Magic!AU/Don’t Hide)

6. “Where did I put that rooibos…?” (Magic!AU/The Time Behind)

7. The thick red curtain swishes open and Kiki steps back into the bright lights of the dressing room. Her eyes lock with focus onto the mirror back inside, the heels of her boots quietly clocking on the wooden floor. (KPop!AU/Glow)

8. “Someone’s looking for me? Specifically?” (Host Club!AU/Crashing and Crushing)

9. His nimble fingers slowly button up his uniform, black fabric smoothing over his back and tightening just so around his lean shoulders. (Rogue Shirayuki!AU/Potentials Cut)

10. Obi can hear the crackling of the fire and bubbling, drunk laughter outside the motel from where he lies on the stairs. (Bucket List/Reincarnation!AU/Motel on the Hill)

I think my go-to is either a short line of dialogue or a small action, both of which set a small scene. I think there’s been more of the latter lately?

not tagging bc i’m super late sry :(