#i can't brreeeaaaatttttthhhhhheeeeeee after writing this

[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

Taylor Swift Songs That Mention Cars That Are Totally About Phoebe and Silas - Breathe

i see your face in my mind as i drive away / 'cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

I think there could be a part in FHH where it really doesn't look like Phoebe and Silas are going to end up together in the end. And I think it's going to affect both of them pretty deeply. With Phoebe, I think she thought that she would eventually figure out a way that she could have Silas and still be Priest and still have everything, even though she's too scared to try. When Silas finds out about her being Priest, I think his reaction is going to crush a lot of that hope for her. Once there is no more facade to keep up and her identity has been revealed, I'm not sure she's really going to know what to do.

people are people and sometimes we change our minds / but it's killing me to see you go after all this time

I think Silas may have clung to their promise to do well together a bit harder than Phoebe did. And her reveal as Priest is going to feel like a betrayal of that promise. He's going to feel as though she abandoned him. When I think he was really counting on them staying close forever and would have never thought that something like this could happen.

And there could potentially be parallels to Rosalind in OVE when she says, "I would have abandoned them for you," in reference to Dimitri. This is not to compare Phoebe to Dimitri in any way. Silas, however, could have some interesting parallels with younger Rosalind as he also has little sense of self, seems to have a family that is relatively apathetic to him unless he has accomplished something, and is caught up in a fight where he isn't particularly loyal to his side.

the music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie / it's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see / 'cause it's a tragedy and it'll only bring you down

I think Phoebe has been terrified of finding out how this was going to end for a while. Because she probably feels horrible about lying to him but also feels trapped in the lie. And she's been lying to so many people for so long about who she is that it must feel impossible to break out of. She's known that something like this was going to happen for a while I think.

now i don't know what to be without you around

Yeah.

never a clean break, no one here to save me

With Phoebe and Orion gone there is no one left to be there for Silas. Without Silas and Orion, there is no one who even comes close to understanding what's going on with Phoebe. But even in FLF, she was still isolated. She's trying so hard to save everyone else that she has made it impossible for anyone to be there to save her.

you're the only thing i know like the back of my hand

They've known each other for a really long time. Also. In The Priest and the Shepherd, Phoebe made their cuts on the backs of their hands for the blood oath.

and i can't breathe without you, but i have to / breathe without you, but i have to

"When he looked at the girl before him, the world wasn't some large, unconquerable entity. It shrunk down to the four walls surrounding them, easing the tightness in his chest and distracting him with thoughtful solace." + the Silas FHH snippet I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.

i never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt / every little bump in the road i tried to swerve

Phoebe swerved around so many little bumps in the road that she stopped paying attention to the road more than a few feet ahead of her and accidentally drove off a cliff, if that makes sense.

it's 2:00 a.m., feelin' like i just lost a friend / hope you know it's not easy, easy for me

Now I'm picturing Phoebe being far away, unable to sleep, hoping that Silas knows that she never meant to hurt him and Silas, far away unable to sleep, wondering if he ever really knew her.

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry (yeah, yeah), I'm sorry / i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry (ooh, ooh), i'm sorry

I just know that regardless of how Silas finds out about Phoebe being Priest, the scene where she tries to explain is going to hurt.