#i can't enjoy a movie or really anything anymore cause she's glued to my fucking hip

[tillbonesshow]

Hey everyone back on another episode of why the fuck is my mother like this?

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cabin in the woods

Usually you would be happy to be back home, or at least most of the time. But right now, you just wanted to fly to another country as fast as possible. Of fucking course, Jensen had to follow you to Slovakia. It's not like you wanted to take a fucking break from him and think about some things and try to concentrate on School or your life.But he wouldn’t understand it, not even when you would explain it to him in a fucking Essey.

You texted him all kinds of stuff, that he should go away and that you won't let him in your House, that this was all for nothing and it fucking was. How dare he. Sure, you knew he was crazy sometimes, but this was out of the world. Even for him.

The only thing you got from him though, were cocky and arrogant Texts. He still thought that he could do everything with you, whatever he wanted. And you were sick of that.

The whole day he texted you how much he wants to see you and just be with you, because he misses you so much already.  But you kept saying no, which was probably the wrong answer all the time, considering how crazy he is lately.  But you just don't want to see him right now, you just can't. So, you got ready for Bed, turned on the Tv and watched a Show to be occupied and tried your best to ignore him. Which didn't worked of course, not even when you would try.

So you kept saying no to him, but he still insisted to meet you. He even threatened to do anything to Harry or anyone else. Which you were completely sick of. He always did this, and he's not like everyone else who would just say it. He would actually do it. And that was one of the things that scared you the most about him.

You eventually put away your phone and tried to concentrate on the Show. Which didn't work out that well either ...

„ What the hell are you doing here?“

you asked Jensen, as he somehow crawled into your Room through the Window. How he even got up here, you had no idea. He was basically capable of everything nowadays, so it didn't surprised you that you didn't even questioned it.

„ I am happy to see you too, baby“

he smirked at you, while you continued to stare at him, hoping he would leave just like that. Which wasn't the case obviously.

„ I wanted to see you, okay? Is it a crime to see my girl?“ he came one step closer, only causing you to back off. You had no idea why you were like this. A part of you, wanted to jump into his Arms and just enjoy the fact that he stands in front of you right now. But another – and maybe the better part, wanted him to go away and never come back again.

„ Why are you like this?“ Jensen said, as he noticed that you were trying your best to ignore him.

„ Like what?“ you said coldly.

„ Like this … basic bitch who tries to run away because she thinks it's the right thing to do, just like every other stupid girl would do“ He scoffed and you almost lost it right there. If he wasn't so strong, or out of his mind, you would kick him so hard over and over until he's unconcious.

„ Don't talk to me like that“ you said, as you looked everywhere but at Jensen.

„ Just stating the true, Sweetheart“ he grinned at you and came even closer to you. This time tho, you didn't backed off, you actually didn't care that much anymore.

„ Why do you hate me so much?“ Jensen pouted as he waited for an answer.

„ I don't hate you“ you said quietly.

„ Well, then I might be just fucking dumb. This whole thing -“ he pointed between you and him. „ would be so much easier if you would just let me in. Be with me. And don't fight anything. I killed two persons, yes, we're all going to hell anyway, Sweetheart“ he brushed his finger along your chin, making you look at him.

Sure, you've felt goosebumps before in your life, but this was something completely out of the world. And you weren't sure if it was the good kind or the bad one.

„ You have to let go. You know me. I am not a Monster or anything“

you could feel Jensen's hot breath on your face. He smelled of Whiskey and probably Peppermint Gum.

„ I can't“ you said as you closed your eyes, and a tear running slowly down on your Cheek.

Seconds later you felt Jensen's Hand on your cheek, wiping away the single Tear.

„ Yeah … I figured you would say that“ he whispered, before he placed his hand on the back of your head and pulled you closer to him for a heated Kiss.

You held your breath instantly as Jensen's tounge slid against your lower lip.

Every fiber of your Body told you to pull away and slap him in the face. But you just couldn't. It was like your Feet were glued to the Floor.

Eventually you pulled away from him though, and took a long and deep breath.

His Forehead was still against yours, afraid to lose you once again.

„ I just can't … I am sorry“ you said as you tried to get away from him, hoping he would finally understand you. Little did you know that he had completely other ideas.

" Big Mistake, Sweetheart”

Jensen said, as he held out a Knife, that was hiding in his Jacket.

„ What the hell?“ you said in confusion and shock.

„ You have to be a good girl and be very quiet now, you can do that right?“ he said in a complete different voice, one that you've never heard before on him. It was hot and pretty scary at the same time.

„ What the hell are you doing, Jensen?“ you said with a slight raised voice, as he placed his hands around your throat, stopping you from going anywhere. His grip was fucking strong. Even when you tried your best, you couldn't get away from him.

He looked at the Knife once more, before he looked back at you.

The next thing you saw, was him walking slowly towards you, pointing the knife right in front of your face. You knew he wouldn’t do anything that would hurt you. You just knew it.

He pulled something out of his Jacket once more - what looked like Tape. And before you knew it, he put it right over your Mouth. You almost couldn’t breathe anymore. You struggled against him, you wanted to slap him all over the face, but you couldn’t do any of those things in that moment. It didn’t even bring anything when you would scream your lungs out.

„ Don't try so hard, Sweetheart. No one can hear you!“ he smirked at you, and what you saw in that moment wasn't your Boyfriend, it was some Monster that just showed himself how he really is.

His hands brushed over your cheek, looking you directly in the eyes, but you kept them shut. Not wanting to see what’s right in front of you.

„ Look at me, Princess“ He whispered, as his other hand grabbed your ass. You whined slightly, his touch causing you to shiver.

„ I want you to look at me, godammit“ he said much angrier now.

You tried your best not to give in, not to give him what he wanted. You wanted him to understand that you’re not a toy to play with.

But you eventually looked at him, soft tears running down your cheeks as he looked at you with a satisfied smirk on his Face.

„ I didn't want to do this. But you just left me. And I can't let that happen“

He said, so sure of himself. He lifted you up eventually and walked towards your Window, while you just closed your eyes, afraid of everything that might happen next.

You just found out that he killed two people, how can you not be fucking scared? That's the reason why you wanted to leave in the first place.

„ Pshh, I'm not gonna do anything to you, Sweetheart. I just want you to be with me. You will fucking understand it soon. Or we keep doing this over and over until you finally will” 

He talked to you the whole time, while he put you in a Car – which you weren't even sure where he got it from. trying his best to convince you, but how the hell could he convince you when he acted like a fucking psychopath.

He put you in the Backseat, before he got into the Driver's Seat a few seconds later. You couldn't look at him, not when he was like this. Not when he wasn't the guy you could look at for hours without getting tired of it.

You kept looking straight at the Street. Seeing the City Lights, seeing People on the Street, seeing the Traffic Lights, and Jensen's fucking smirk in the Mirror.

You've never felt so much hate for him. You weren't annoyed, you weren't mad, you weren't angry. You just hated him. Like he was a monster to you, like he was scum to you. This was the low point. There were many times you forgave him. Forgave him for cheating on you, forgave him for killing two people. And just in general forgave him for everything. You always tried your best to understand him, always tried to keep pretending that nothing ever happened. But how can you fucking ignore this? How can you still love him after this? How does he think that this is normal?

„ Almost there, babygirl“ Jensen growled as he looked straight into the Mirror. You got chills over your whole body, from head to toe. You just wanted to jump out of the Car, regardless of the Pain you would feel from the Fall. Because nothing hurts more than this.

Eventually after a few more minutes, Jensen pulled the Car over and stopped at – what looked like, a Forrest. This was probably it. He was gonna fucking kill you. You wouldn't be surprised if he would. But the scariest thing is … that you wouldn't even mind anymore. It's like your mind turned off all the humanity you have left in your Body. 

„ Here we are“ Jensen said as he turned off the Engine and walked to the Backseat to get you. The first thing you did was screaming loud for help. Which was completely useless, since you’re in a Forrest.

Jensen lifted you up again and walked towards the – what looked like an old Cabin.

You watched way too many Horror Movies to know what's gonna fucking happen.

He opened the Door and let you down on an old, ripped Mattress. At least he was so fucking nice not to leave you on the cold ground.

He kneeled in front of you, looking completely serious and angry, as he took your wrists and tied them to the old Radiator.

„ You’re still gonna be a good girl now when I pull the tape off?“

you kept staring at him, not giving an answer, causing Jensen to lick his lip over his mouth. To be fair, he looked fucking hot …. stop thinking about this Kinga, this is bad. And messed up. Not hot …

„ You gonna be fucking quiet, or should I practice my next death victim on you?“ he stared right into your soul, as he said it.

You just nodded softly, looking straight into his fucking gorgeous but dark green eyes.

„ Okay, I'm gonna take off that tape now, and if you scream one bit, you're gonna regret even opening that pretty fucking mouth. Alright?“

You nodded again.

„ You are sick ….“ you whispered as he pulled away the tape and walked straight to the Door.

You were too weak to fight back, not right now any way.

„ Don't leave me here“ you said in a weak voice, as Jensen opened the Door, his Back in your direction, just about to leave.

„ I just don't want to lose you“