#i don't think i ever truly wanted to rule out the idea of reeeelapsing and i knew that obviously
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okay peace and love i'm never posting like that again
#now i look like someone who's like. “my 🌟trauma🌟 made me funny”#or a someone who just says “ed” loosely but doesn't mean it and/or brags abt being anorexic#things got way bad again at a speed i didn't know it would have. that's a bit of what i've been up to lately#@cronenfag blog is the worst bc in like april 2023 i made a post like “that's it i swear off recovery i'm better off being worse”#and then in like late 2023 i was posting like “yay ^_^ i'm gonna get better FORREAL. i'm seriously gonna try this time :)”#and now we're here#the entirety of 2023 was a back and forth of that#to be fair even when i was in the “i wanna get better” stage i was directed to a clinic and was like “i don't need to go i'm normal now”#when really i didn't wanna go mostly bc it's like. a coping mechanism i don't want to let go of in case i need it#i don't think i ever truly wanted to rule out the idea of reeeelapsing and i knew that obviously#i've dug myself so deep i have no idea how long this whole mess will go on for. because i don't want to die like i used to#but it's all still been engrained in my mind over the past few years#whatever#m
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