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mokeonn · 1 year

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Hey if you saw my mini-meltdown last night or you found this blog because the OP of a post reblogged from it and was not happy with me, this is the apology for that. If you're here because a bunch of terfs decided to hijack my trans positivity post, I'm not apologizing for that.

Last night I had a mini meltdown because I woke up to 4 messages that told me that 2 posts on this blog were basically not good. One is a trans positivity one where I talked about my experience with how womanhood is viewed and how it is used against trans women, the other was a tone deaf post of mine, I'm gonna apologize for having a meltdown on my blog of constantly posting and deleting and I'm gonna apologize for that post:

What I did was I reblogged a post about white gays acting a certain way and I added my 2 cents (I am a white gay) in the tags. The post was not for me, and my 2 cents wasn't helpful at all and just came off as "not like other girls". That's on me. I deleted it and I will not be addressing it any further because, well, what is there to address? I tagged a post in a very tone deaf way, and didn't listen to what was being talked about. My bad.

I constantly posted the anon hate and other little posts (as well as a not good apology) because I was not in a good headspace (or physical space) and I panicked from seeing that I fucked up (and "fucked up" according to the other post I'm not apologizing for) and was triggered into a meltdown. Does this excuse the above behavior? No. This is an explanation for any who might have seen my erratic behavior last night and why this apology took hours after I saw the post.

I will be clear, there's nothing more I can do than just acknowledge I did wrong and I won't do it again. This post is for any who I hurt or really... just annoyed in the process of adding my 2 cents where it doesn't belong. I know that some people might go to the op's reblog rant and find my blog so here is the explanation for that.

And finally, once again: because 2 posts I made are causing issues, this post is not nor will it ever be about my "cis people see womanhood as pain" post. If you have a problem with that post, I don't care.

#long post #i was not in a good space to apologize before #but I now that I am I wanna apologize and leave it all behind me #and make it clear WHAT i am apologizing for #i realized this morning im just going to keep fretting over it until I apologize #so... here it is #there's nothing more I can do than just learn from this experience and not do it again #so im not going to linger on it #im going to move on because there's no point in fretting #you may not accept my apology but that's not really my problem. is it?#anyways im gonna go prepare for my flight home #probably just gonna draw (draw women to be specific)#also I will edit this later and add a read more but I cannot since im on mobile #and im also going to keep anon off forever #sorry some of the messages I got really just lost the anon privileges #like. if you're gonna tell me to die say it with your whole chest and with your face visible #anyways getting off topic #one last thing though #sorry if the tone at all seems snooty or mean. that is not my intention. i am just... AWFUL with tone #i kept rereading this to make sure it didn't seem backhanded because I want to make it clear #i am genuinely apologizing because that's all I can really do #just #make it clear I did wrong. explain WHAT i did wrong (so it doesn't seem like I'm being vague on purpose to dodge accountability)#and apologize for that wrong #i pulled a not like other whites without realizing that is a super white thing to do #well im not like that <- said the person like that #so yeah #my bad #post deleted #not gonna dwell on it because there's nothing to dwell on

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