#i'd rather not remember my creepypasta phase

[kaiya-player2]

Yes, I do have a type.

Masked murderers with blue hair.

When I say they can barge into my room and-

[eldritch-spouse]

I don't know if you've already answered this type of question before, because it seems like a such an obvious thing to ask, but here I go.

What was your ''awakening'' to that you like monsters? Maybe some top 10 childhood cartoon crushes or something?

TW: A little bit of tmi about yours truly.

To this day, I can't pinpoint it. Honestly, I could write endless paragraphs about what I think started it, it's entirely unclear. I think it was a mix of everything honestly?

I've always liked horror, and as a kid I would beg my parents to watch horror movies that they thought would be too "extreme" for me. Like SAW, the slasher classics, the Alien and Predator franchises at some point. The type of cartoons I was into didn't help, since I'd spend hours watching The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy or Courage. I was surrounded by horror media since basically the start and I always seemed to find everything else a bit boring?

Unsupervised access to the Internet as a kid did not help at all. See, I got onto YouTube very quickly, and it was around that phase where everyone was obsessed with horror games like Amnesia, Slender the 8 pages, Fear, Gray, RPG maker games like IB and Mad Father. I quickly got into the Creepypasta scene, and I was exposed to nsfw content of that sort. Not by anyone in particular, I was just far too curious. I didn't really understand too much of sex at the time, but one thing was for sure- I would much rather stare at naked Slenderman than I would a human model. Never did I participate in these communities, but make no mistake, I saw everything.

There was a brief period of time where I thought I was a scalie, because I had a thing for Reptile from Mortal Kombat, and I also enjoyed dragons, especially nagas- So I thought that was it. That's what I was.

I think it only truly clicked in my brain when I began playing Alien Isolation and felt... Well, the game of cat and mouse with the xenomorph didn't really scare me, let's put it that way. I played that game way too much just to feel that thrill over and over. It really confused me that I didn't have a term to refer to this preference. I knew I was into non-humans, but I didn't know the terminology. Scalie didn't fit anymore because some of the characters I enjoyed weren't scaled or reptilian.

I have absolutely no idea when I became aware of the term "teratophilia" , but I remember a period of immense satisfaction and incredulity at finding people who basically thought like me.

Perhaps, the reason I can't pinpoint the moment I became a monsterlover was because I never really had a "normal" sexual awakening. My first awakening was with monsters, I'm pretty sure of that.

There's definitely something to be said about folks who don't socially fit in for a variety of reasons, and the love of monsters. Monsters can't judge you for your looks, monsters don't have the same expectations as the rest of society, monsters will accept you as you are because you love them for themselves. I, just like plenty of other people, leaned into that comfort heavily and used it to cope with crippling loneliness and self-image issues.

What I'm trying to get at is, I think the circumstances were just perfect for me to develop this fetish.

[whaleofatjme1920]

I never realized how bad it feels asking for a match-up- it's a really self-centered feeling lmao. But yeah, can I please have a match-up for me and either a Creepypasta character and/or Marble Hornets? If you don't want to do this, that's fine. Thanks for reading anyway!

To start, I go by all pronouns but I prefer she/her since I'm closeted. You can say I'm a straight ally or toric and it'll still be right, I suppose. I was born female. I like to be called questionable names such as Grass, Broskeet, etc in replace of my real name (believe it or not, people mispronounce my name to Elsie when they read it.) But I go by Lee now as an official name to replace my dead name, but I'm still closeted so only certain friends call me Lee.

I have long black/dark brown hair that's flat on top and gets really waves at the bottom, making it really poofy. I have green eyes that turn blue sometimes, and othertimes combine. I love my eyes so much tbh; sometimes one eye would be green and the other blue but it's very rare. I'm 5'2 and 130 so I'm slightly chubby but overall have an okay figure. I'm C-cup but I have like no fkn hips since I take after my dad lmao. Well, I have some but they doesn't move very much.

I'm a pretty neutrally opinionated person if that makes since. Oh, you like [unfavorable political party]? That's great, but just don't push that on to me. Oh, your friend likes [favorable political party]? Spectacular, but don't get me involved. Pretty much like that. Even if I like something, I ain't gonna act on it knowing it could be bad also. I don't have grudges or feelings of hate towards anyone really aside my sister, and it's a long story as to why.

Despite how neutral I can be, I can be one of three things: hella hyper and stupid, anxious and irritable, or tired and easily compelled to be either personality. Whenever I'm hyper, I go overtop if I'm playing a game and often times can make people laugh, but I also get too caught up in that to realize if I'm about to do something stupid. Since I was 3, I was known to be anxious and irritable a hell of a lot whenever; it would just happen randomly, even in the midst of having a good time. Whenever I'm tired, I usually try to sleep but get pulled into being hyper or anxious at some point.

I want to say I have ADHD but since I was never diagnosed, I can't say that it's a true statement. I was supposed to be tested when I was young but it never came. I pretty much struggle to pay attention and remember things, and often times talk too much. Anyway, one of the most notable features of mine is how I try to get people to laugh. It's one of my favorite things to do, especially with my close family.

I have two sisters, two half sisters, and a half brother. Only my half siblings I really get along; one of full sisters hated me as I hated her since forever, and the other other sister is a toddler who'd rather be by herself. My younger half sister and I get along great, but me and my cousin are so close. I'm not exactly family oriented but my cousin is hella important to me. I try to be loyal no matter what with people I care for, and these are good examples of those people. And friends too; I don't have many of them, but I would protect them at all costs even though I probably couldn't do much lmao.

I guess, on to hobbies? I love to draw, write, and read for basics. I've been neglecting how often I write though, I read so much everyday. The Outsiders and The Hunchback of Notre Dame (original) are my favorites, and so many lovable fanfictions too lmao. I draw semi-realistic but always manage to make a cartoon-anime combination on accident. Also, I collect alpaca stuffed animals. No reason other than I need to make a movement on the alpaca market that these creatures are so unfathomably perfect is all ways. I give them all stupid names like Karrot With A K, Kangaroo, MoshPit (it's a rainbow alpaca), etc. They also have backstories~~

I also try to go along with what other people like. Whether in an NSFW setting or not, I can be hella submissive and just go along with what other people want. I don't like like gey my preferences out there very much but I will speak up if someone's being disrespected in some way. I don't put up with that shit.

I love Mexican styled music and dances! My cousin had a Quinceanera that I got to be her Doma in, meaning I got to be part of a dance crew with her and got to give speeches. If you're unfamiliar with a Quence, it's basically a 15th birthday party for girls that's as big as a wedding, and a Doma is like a bride's maid. El Tao, Tao, and Soltera (Remix) are my gavorite lmao.

I love some 80s rock early 2000s rock/metal though. I love Japanese music too, and know the full lyrics to a fee Japanese songs. When I had a vrinfy weebo phase, I started "learning" Japanese but then got serious with it, and now I continue to learn it. I want to learn Spanish too since I clearly have Mexican in my family.

I like to wear all kinds of clothes. I like poofy, short dresses that twirls, Hot Topic styled skirts eith suspenders and chains, plaid pants and shirts, any shirt without sleeves, and a few signature red hoodies. I go for all looks really. But damn, I've recently been in love with skirts.

I watch anime so I might probably suggest my S/O to watch it. Nothing forceful though lmao.

As for NSFW if your up to it- I'm pretty submissive. Anything he likes, I would do. I would do degrading or praise as a kink as well. However, I'm a virgin so I'd be hella inexperienced lol. But yeah, that's pretty much it. Sorry if this is too long or short or just not good enough-

Hi love bug, I shut down matchups a little while ago! I don't know when I'm opening them back up again, but when I do, please feel free to send this in again! My sincerest apologies. It's also never self centered to ask for a matchup, if they were open rn, I'd do this in a heartbeat! <3

Also I briefly skimmed it and people refer to me as "Elise" instead of my actual name, "Elsie" and it's garnered my hatred of the former.