#i'll check ely's blog later on uwu

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Hii Fox !!🥺This message may not be as bright as the usual since I am totally feeling unwell 😔;; i have just chosen to read your recent messages + reply to you :D I do hope you are sleeping well too?? It was afternoon in here when I was typing this. Around 5pm to be exact ✨ i think it's 5 or 6 am there so hopefully you're resting nicely.

I honestly don't mind the time spent in writing these messages because they are well spent at least~ 😂 About my meds, hm there's 3 new prescribed meds to me and the 2 are probably the cause of my dizziness yesterday(?) So i just took the 1 that is similar from what i was taking before. To answer your question, antidepressants and such meds will make you feel the side effects first around the week of your first intake to probably make your body get used to it!! (Maybe this stuff have been discussed in your classes too, i wonder 🤭🤔) I'm lowkey afraid to take the first 2 i mentioned since i really experienced dizziness that makes me unable to stand up and such 😰

I'll be sure to keep in mind about sending a request 🤭 i'm just pretty, pretty clueless about what kind of plot i should put in there ;;

Was also cracking up with your emoji demonstration of you holding your laughter,,, The intense inhale and exhale 😭😭 and let me tell you something: one time when our class attended mass at a local cathedral, i have this classmates that sit at my left side around 2-3 seats apart and they are tryna make each other laugh- and ofc since they're laughing i'm holding it IN so hard, especially at that part of the consecration at the Holy Eucharist where you all gotta kneel on both knees at the kneelers and position your hands at a praying/receiving position— i was totally doing the "😮💨😮💨😮💨" LIKE HEAVENS MY REPUTATION WOULD BE CRUMBLING TO DUST IMMEDIATELY IF I BURST OUT LAUGHING IN THE MIDST OF THE MASS. Totally one of the days i prayed so intensely like dear God don't let the demon inside me get out pls. 😭😰 My friend, which is closest to me by the left, was like 👁️👁️⁉️⁉️"U ok bro?" "Are u hyperventilating???" "Do you have asthma??" "Why are you breathing so loudly???????”..... I was holding on for my dear life inside the cathedral..... 😭😭😭

Also the "high praise omg omg 🙈🙈" i find it really?? Very cute??!?🥺 xD (in an adoration way rather than creepy way)— another one of the moments of just Fox being shy 👀 🤭

I'm actually feeling nice that you- 🥺 you😤 are v happy that im proud of u 🥰 🥳🎉 also so true about how weird the tags are in my previous message 🤭 the content is actually missing bc i haven't said much in that message so you don't also have smth to put @ tags! Since we're talking about tags, i actually very much appreciate your side comments???🥺 It was very nice and it invokes smth in me 😚 soo keep going with it im having fun reading those 🤭💞

Being an adult means lots of responsibilities, expectations and liabilities too— 💀 it kinda,, kinda be scarin me lowkey. Especially when befriending or being friends with minors too,,, I'm actually all fine with the asks for the story-length asks and casual stuff lmao 🥰 tho i'd prefer it to be @ dms if you have to talk abt something more personal or private w/ me- such as me helping you to reach out/ encouraging you 😂 or maybe you would like to ask for my thoughts about some fic drafts/ideas... Maybe brainrots are okay too if there are some,, 🤔✨ another one for the DMs is, let's say you'd like to surprise Dan with a gift 👀 and then you're comfy with talking about it with me 👌 since it have to be secret info in the first place. Asks are generally displayed for the public audience so i'm alright with dms if some info couldn't be disclosed publicly😚 basically more on planning stuff and info yet or should not be disclosed to the public!!

Also talking about stepping into adulthood or whatever it is called when you become 18— i basically have this friend who will be an adult this year and it's making me reflect a lot like i would have an adult friend close to me 🤔 i def can't take the information in like i'm still a minor til this year and they're gonna be an ADULT?? Like they are gonna be liable for crimes too,,, 😰 this is such a weird feeling ngl 😂😂

Ahaha,,, about me being a dry texter- this usually happens when me and the other party i'm chatting w/ isn't in the same vibes as i do?? Or it's simply just awkward... It's hard when the vibes of both parties clashes with each other or simply isn't just right. That's a sign that this certain person ain't someone meant for you (usually; this is taken in a generalized point of view). But maybe it'll be fun between us?? 😂 Idk,, i feel shy ngl (ฅωฅ♥)// how should i even talk to you 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

Didn't realized I- made this ask quite long 💀 the reason why i put the "im feeling unwell 2day" @ the beginning is because i might ?? Just rant 😂 since yeah, apparently today's the deadline for the computation of the midterm grades and i'm totally f cked bc i have this... 10+ more... and i kinda sat down and apologized to the air + I'm feeling really bad from the side effects of the meds— 😔😔😔 so adieu my beloved grades </3 my parents love me too much even if i'm literally failing this semester bc i have to recover and i am struggling @ finals season too 😌 i havent done any thing yet. Just that one assignment i'm so happy that i completed 😤 and ahh, i saw your question asking abt my diagnosis- to put it simply the first meeting i was diagnosed w slight depression and the second meeting (this one i have mentioned!!) I've been diagnosed w inattentive adhd ( ･ิω･ิ ) i might as well just answer that question in here and so i did xD tho u could go check Ely's blog too since i have said a few things abt my condition there ?? :D i will take my time in replying to your previous (long) message ✨ i actually can't wait tbh?? But it will definitely be too long so— i gotta prepare for it.

Hope your day will go well!! 💞💞💞

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helloooo 🍰!!!!

addressing the request suggestion first: yep! i'm gonna do that later today when i get home from classes. thank you 💕💕 also if u could please check it to see if the link works when i do–

i actually got very little sleep 😮‍💨 if i didn't have class at 8am today i would've slept in. i was very tempted........ also, what are you feeling? is it the meds? 🥺🥺 i hope you feel better soon, but rest up ok???

ok, so... i'm not very good at pharmacology? but i've taken antidepressants before. and tried another med for my (correct) condition, so i know by experience those side effects. i hope they're temporary for you 🙏🙏

dude LFNDKSNAKNSKSNSKSNSKNSKSNSKSNS omg what IS it about churches and cathedrals?? i bet that if you couldn't hold it in there'd be an old lady (or more) to scold you right then and there 💀💀 good thing you managed tho dkdndksn also, is this the position??

i think me being shy is funny bc i'm a lot more open here than i am irl, so like– if it comes through this prominently i wonder what i look like to the people i interact with on the daily 👀🥲 also!! the tags are not stopping anytime soon, i'm glad you enjoy them 😂😂

dude, it does. but it also comes with a lot of freedoms!! so it balances out, i think. it all comes down to the head you have on your shoulders 😌 i'm more aware of this stuff now because of my past, too, so. feel free to just hmu man!! i'm pretty sure my dms are open 😂 idk if it makes you feel better about your friend, but from my friend group from high school i was the first to turn 18, so... i got teased a lot. istg on my birthday they told me "LOOK YOU CAN BE ARRESTED NOW" and i was like "please don't remind me i'm also now required to vOTE–". all in all it feels very weird 😂😂😂 please tease your friend a lot too 🤪

and omg that's so true. i guess it can make me a dry texter too? 🧐🧐 i don't force the whole ~vibing with another person~ thing, it's not worth it- but i guess ours is gonna be fun!! we have a nice conversation flow. and just say whatever is on your mind!! seriously don't think too much about it. just let me know you're you 😅

thank you for telling me!! i can't imagine what it's like to live with both depression and adhd, so good luck!! and please let me know if there's anything i can do to help you. i'm really grateful you have good parents who support you! 🥰 focus on recovering - school is literally always going to be there, and even if you don't pass now, you've focused on yourself and your health and there's nothing that compares to it!! 💕

i hope you're feeling better by the time you read this - take your time ok?? 💖💖