#i'm not gonna be surprised if i come in tmrw and there's still things to process

[hyuuukais]

i just got home from work like 10 minutes ago and omg i am in so much pain (cramps) i almost asked to go home early like 5 times

[taegularities]

Hey bubs!!! How are you doing?🥹

Celebrating my 5 months unemployed ass today. Happy monthsary to myself🥰🥰🥰. More seriously I am in the verge of breaking down actually I am already. Getting a Master Degree and yet not finding anything cause all of them said « very good profil but unfortunately lack of experience blablabla » like duh if you don’t give me a chance how do I get experience huh. I AM GOING CRAZY HERE.

Also I am feeling lonely af. And want to be loved so much too, to give and to receive. Saw your deleted post earlier. Tried dating app but guess what? Deleted it right after I donwload it. As you know I have comitment issues too, think I am not ready for that. Genuine question tho, where do you guys find nice and sweet guys? I still believe that I will have a YN moment in this world…

Oh and why do I feel that everytime I slide to your inbox I am always complaining? I really need to be fixed and change that.

A year ago : kookoo first weverse live after 2 full months being mia. Was on my way back from ytc screening in theater that day. Miss him a lot lately </3

Okay from now on I will only spread positive vibes in your inbox!!!!!!!! Hugs ans kisses 🤎 oh and can’t wait to listen to your cmi audio commentary <3

hi, beloved!!! i'm doing okay! i'm off work for a weeeekkk after tmrw + the uni semester's finally over (kinda bummed i didn't get the A in one of my classes but the others got C's, so.. i'm happy about that B :')). so i'm looking forward to relaxing lol :')

i'm so sorry for what you've been dealing with, though :(( that whole cycle of hell is a true mystery... they need employees but experience, too 😦 i'm crossing my fingers and manifesting that you land a job soon, though, babe!! please keep trying, bc it'll be worth the effort [gonna be the first to celebrate with you. i better be >:)]

and i know :(( it can get lonely for sure. i was a bit overwhelmed this morning, so i kinda vented a lil jejdjdhsh but yeah, love isn't easy to tackle and find. and i think we shouldn't look for it anyway!! i always "preach" lol that the best things come to you when you go with the flow and don't seek them too desperately.. so let's hope for that y/n moment to arrive as a surprise and when we least expect it, and just heal and vibe in the meantime. for now, you have my love, if it means anything 🤍

it's okay!! honestly, you can talk about whatever, whenever :') i'm just happy to hear from you. besides, it shows that you trust me and feel comfortable sharing your thoughts, and that's a top tier compliment. always gonna inhale your positive vibes, too, though 🥰 (also, will you believe i shed an actual freaking tear when i saw that pic like i miss my sleepyhead bunny baby so much it hurts 😭 GIVE HIM BACK TO ME)

[kithtaehyung]

hiii hehe i’m back from my little shell :) i was going to send an ask about the two 3tan fall drabbles, only to be pleasantly surprised by the arrival of 3tan9! i think what i’m gonna do is just send in two asks instead of combining them into one super long ask, if that’s okay :)

i felt so engulfed in fall while reading these two drabbles🥺 apple bobbing was super cute and hot at the same time. i loved seeing the dynamics between the whole friend group and i personally loved seeing oc egging yoongi on hehe. “that right?” oh brother 😮‍💨 and the ending where yoongi sent oc a pic with his hair still wet going “you’re next :))” consider me gone🥴

you’re next was also cute and hot (emphasis on the HAWT)! someone give tae the friend of the year award bc he’s really coming in clutch :,) i hope everyone has their own little 3tan tae in their lives atp. i also loved the banter between yoongs and oc btw hehe. i always love seeing them interact and having moments like these where they’re just teasing each other and truly having fun. there’s just something about yoongi and oc being in their own little bubble doing whatever and wherever that makes me so happy (even if it’s yoongs grabbing oc’s ass in public and not caring if someone sees LMAO).

now yoongi pretty much telling oc that he would like a pic of her ass got me😭💀 my man’s was not leaving her cheeks alone😭 ALSO I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD PICTURING 3TAN YOONGI WITH HIS FISTS UP IN THE HAUNTED HOUSE BC ALL I COULD PICTURE WAS THE RUN BTS ZOMBIE EPISODE WHERE YOONGI HAD HIS FISTS OUT AND SCREAMED BACK AT THE ZOMBIE BUT I DIGRESS😭😭 i loved seeing my girl oc have so much confidence in this drabble, whether it was pulling yoongi into the bathroom for a quickie or initiating the kiss between them at the end?? LOVE THAT FOR HER! this was a super hawt and cute drabble and i was living for every second of it :)

if it’s okay, i’ll probably send in my thoughts about 3tan9 tmrw (it’s gonna be lengthy i’m sorry😭 i had too many thoughts and feelings throughout it and was just so in awe throughout the whole thing). sorry i was mia for a good sec, but i promise i’m okay now and am back hehe :)🫶🏼

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MOONCAKE hello!! so this was definitely sent months ago but i'm still gonna respond bc it's just so lovely :(( and yes, forfeit came shortly after the fall drabbles!

i felt so engulfed in fall while reading these two drabbles🥺 apple bobbing was super cute and hot at the same time. i loved seeing the dynamics between the whole friend group and i personally loved seeing oc egging yoongi on hehe. “that right?” oh brother 😮‍💨 and the ending where yoongi sent oc a pic with his hair still wet going “you’re next :))” consider me gone🥴

GODDD the fall drabbles just made me wanna write the main storyline even more! like seriously, this whole friend group is one of my absolute favorites to write and come back to. and 3tan yoongi with the wet hair?? don't make me sob again. and the damn selca at the end DSKFSDKFJS

you’re next was also cute and hot (emphasis on the HAWT)! someone give tae the friend of the year award bc he’s really coming in clutch :,) i hope everyone has their own little 3tan tae in their lives atp.

TEAAA like tae is just. the best friend that we all want and need and i'm glad reader has him in her life :(( friend of the year!!

i also loved the banter between yoongs and oc btw hehe. i always love seeing them interact and having moments like these where they’re just teasing each other and truly having fun. there’s just something about yoongi and oc being in their own little bubble doing whatever and wherever that makes me so happy (even if it’s yoongs grabbing oc’s ass in public and not caring if someone sees LMAO).

LORD HELP ME these two?? when am i ever gonna get tired of them the answer is Never. Never Ever Ever and i will stand by that until the ends of the earth. them being able to have fun and joke around in public? ugh. it was just too good to pass up :((

now yoongi pretty much telling oc that he would like a pic of her ass got me😭💀 my man’s was not leaving her cheeks alone😭

3tan yoongi is consistent. very, very consistent LMFAO and i'm blushing just imagining him begging for pics WHEWWW

ALSO I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD PICTURING 3TAN YOONGI WITH HIS FISTS UP IN THE HAUNTED HOUSE BC ALL I COULD PICTURE WAS THE RUN BTS ZOMBIE EPISODE WHERE YOONGI HAD HIS FISTS OUT AND SCREAMED BACK AT THE ZOMBIE BUT I DIGRESS😭😭

HAHAHAHAHH SAMEEEE IM CRYING!!!

i loved seeing my girl oc have so much confidence in this drabble, whether it was pulling yoongi into the bathroom for a quickie or initiating the kiss between them at the end?? LOVE THAT FOR HER! this was a super hawt and cute drabble and i was living for every second of it :)

i'm glad you praised reader here too bc i was also so proud! like yes baby you initiate this time - and look how yoongi reacted. he couldn't believe his fcking eyes and you could just tell he almost didn't know what to do dsklfdskfjds

if it’s okay, i’ll probably send in my thoughts about 3tan9 tmrw (it’s gonna be lengthy i’m sorry😭 i had too many thoughts and feelings throughout it and was just so in awe throughout the whole thing). sorry i was mia for a good sec, but i promise i’m okay now and am back hehe :)🫶🏼

i'm just happy to see you back, love! thank you for being amazing and sending in commentary. apologies for such a delayed response, but i just wanted to still show my gratitude :D here's to more fun times!

[cluelesslesbian]

alright tumblrinas prepare yourselves for me using my blog as my own diary for a lil bit uwu

i gotta hand in the proposal for my senior research project by tmrw night and gUESS WHO HASN'T STARTED ANYTHINGGGG

me. it's me. i'm so unmotivated and oddly tired lately?? like fr slept for most of my reading week and I'm so confused how???? i was so excited to start researching n drawing stuff in my free time?? wack. i blame depression- that evil bastard swirling my poor innocent noodle brain around on it's demonic pitchfork... idek what I'm saying alright NEXT SUBJECT---

im working w a local medical aesthetician who wants to create a guideline/course for medical professionals and beauty technicians to take in order to improve their bedside manners (aka how u talk and interact w clients/patients, the extra jazz on top of your scheduled appointment stuff ykno??) and ANYWAYYSSS I'm so down to help her bc!! i totally agree that some ppl are so casually insensitive when handling patients? and she was telling me about how heartbreaking it was that some of her clients were so surprised by her?? just being a decent human & doing her job??? like,,, yall I'm talking if a trans woman wants a brazillian wax?? like I personally don't like touching other ppl but like?? there's nothing wrong with that at all????? but apparently some places will deny that kinda service bc of their [prejudice OR lack of training in waxing diff genitalia... it's easy to say it's just a transphobic professional but sometimes,, there's just no resources for ppl to access and they don't want to hurt ppl in the process ykno?? its complicated but ethics b like that lol] and anyways ugh ok now I'm remembering how she hesitated telling me the details of waxing someone who's faced fatphobia and BRUH- I'm a twig, I can admit that but?? HOW would u not know or be comfortable asking someone to hold up their stomach or arm while u did ur job???? like I get it- some ppl might say it too harshly and that's a subjective tonal issue.. but?? like it's not rocket science to just BE POLITE- and anyways idek but yeah..

so ok im getting excited one again yay this was a good idea- imma start researching what ethical considerations are directly mentioned in physician training, how medial education is formatted, and bedside manner things... then I'll start compiling a report about what SHOULD be done and how it can be taught instead... (me and the nice lady r thinking of starting by creating awareness on insta via infographics and fun stuff before creating an online course... she wanted to do like a community college typa course but I recommended an etextbook course bc?? i mean I've done plenty of university courses primarily using an online textbook site soo it's def worth a shot and can be mass-distributed & can b formatted to allow for accessibility ..things.. wait whats the word.. uhh OH- ACCOMODATIONS yeeeee im so smort

....ok thats it. probs. this was neat. 10/10 brain feels more on track now omg..

OH yo i gotta remember to declare in my research intro that I'm a cis woman... wait or not... depends on if I focus more on soft-skills vs. hard-skills in my research.. no wait i still need to bc yeah i get diff treatment as a woman who fits the stereotypical "girly" standard than others might.... hmm ugh i don't wanna do a survey but now I'm wondering if i should get ethics clearance to (anonymously) question lgbt+ folks in my area about their experiences since it'll def be more reliable than some paper in a fancy-schmancy medical journal .... but that's so much woooorkkkk nooo 😭

okokokokoK one thing at a time.

gonna start summarizing some medical research to start a lit review.

then identify if there are gaps in existing research (specifically around patient mental health when it comes to demographic characteristics)

then summarize some marketing research to make informed predictions/recommendations on how tooooo... like productively change your habits or at least identify them? yeah? hmm marketing for how to present that info but psych & epidemiology research to get the content of the info probably....

OK BET YEET