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aktinopterygia · 2 years

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now that it's been two hundred years, i can observe that absolutely nothing has Ever broken my heart as much as her actually believing all those horrible things about me. how can a person be with you for years and not see you in the slightest bit?

#it wasn't worth it is an understatement #the fucking absence of any compassion whatsoever #misconstruing me to make herself look good has always been top priority #it makes me want to vomit #you could have at least used my actual character flaws against me #but you'd have to be observant for that lol #i wonder when i'll stop feeling bitter about the unfairness of it all #the damn emotional damage i've sustained dude #i've been reconstructing on top of the bloody ruins for years #all because i couldn't end it all those times i should have #and it was nobody's fault #if i have to blame someone then that's me #and i'm done with the self loathing #forgiving myself was the hardest thing i've done in my life

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