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I am so scared of growing up. My eighteenth birthday is so far away yet approaching so fast and I'm just scared of it. I don't want to be an adult. I feel like I'll lose my freedom, my relaxation, everything I love won't be considered "appropriate" for me anymore. I don't know if I have the ability to get a job and pay for my own home or apartment, and my parents have mentioned plenty of times their plans for when me and my siblings move out. I don't know if I can get into college and if I don't, I might end up working at McDonald's or Wal-Mart in jobs I hear nothing but how bad they'll be. But I also don't think I want to go to college, though I feel like I'm expected to. thinking about all that scares me. Whenever I think about my future, my mind always wanders back to the same concept. I don't think I'm seriously considering it, but I always wonder if I should kill myself before I become an adult. Then I wouldn't have to deal with it. I'd die how I want to be.

#growing up is scary but real talk? at 17/18 you have NO idea just how insanely young you still are.#it's very cliche but you have your whole life ahead of you!!#being young or being 'you' does not end from one day to the next #if anything you only get MORE chances to build your life the way you want it and like it as you get older!#but yes the time inbetween being a child + being a full fledged adult in charge of their own life can be scary and hard to navigate and dar #*dark #and it can be REALLY hard to find what you want to do or be in life #some people never figure it out and that's okay!! not everyone has a calling or a passion #if you end up working at mcdonalds and earning enough to live and you're not miserable?#then WHO CARES if it's not a prestigeous job? you're making a living and being a part of the community and you're doing fine.#also even if you work at mcdonalds/walmart/etc at one point that does not mean you'll be there for the rest of your life.#like i said the next 5-10 years can be hard and feel like they'll determine your life and you can't see past the immediate future #but there is SO MUCH MORE beyond young adulthood. that's only the start!!#sorry if this is incoherent dskjdsajkdkja your position hits a little close to home #you'll get through it anon and you'll be totally fine :)#even if you don't end up where you think you want to go... as long as you're happy what does it matter if it went according to plan?#life is impossible to 100% plan for anyway!#secret #anonymous #confession #tw suicide

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