hey everyone welcome BACK to my blog , hi , how are ya ? i’m RUZZY ( or ru , rudy idk if thats too much lmAO ) & i have not been apart of a group in 84 years ............ that graphic is so extra but i was bored & first impressions are everything , ANYWHO this is my mans WARNER played by my mans GRAYSON DOLAN , who lacks f’n resources so i gotta work some magic w/ all these gifs on tumblr lmao so any gif icons are noT mine for the most part they’ll be taken from gifs alr created ( s/o 2 the fly hunnies that made ‘em ) anyway ya’ll don’t really care abt me lmao soooooo here’s warner ! PLS feel free to hmu ANYTIME for the plots & things of that nature u could lit never bother me idc , my discord is 𝐫𝐮𝐳𝐳𝐲𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐝𝐚𝐮𝐳𝐢#1643 if u everrr need to get ahold of me when im not on tumblr !
𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐒𝐎𝐍 𝐃𝐎𝐋𝐀𝐍, cismale, he/his. → look out, there’s 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐑 𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐋𝐃. you know, the 𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐘 year old 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 of 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐀 𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐀𝐃𝐀 𝐌𝐔. you know, i overheard someone say that they were 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄, 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 , 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆 and 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐃. but that’s just rumours. fresh new pairs of air jordan 1's, the roar of a crowd in a stadium, and lost weekends come to mind when i think of them. what about you? [ ruzzy, he/him, 18, est ]
TW : CANCER MENTION , SMOKING MENTION .
// » GENERAL :
FULL NAME : warner evangelino alexander vandergeld ( inspired by the antagonists of white chicks lmaooo ) .
HOMETOWN : new york city , new york .
NICKNAMES : dumbass .
AGE : twenty .
BIRTHDAY : october twenty-first .
ZODIAC : libra .
GENDER : male .
PRONOUNS : he & him .
NATIONALITY : american .
ETHNICITY : german , italian , irish .
LABEL(S) : the golden boy , the lothario , the jock .
TROPE(S) : chick magnet , hormone-addled teenager , unwitting pawn , upper class twit ,
OCCUPATION : college student & collegiate football player & full time frat bro .
FRAT : beta lambada mu .
MAJOR : environmental science .
POS : charming , charismatic , brave , athetic , dedicated , eco-friendly , high-moral compass , book smart , kind , energetic , optimistic , loyal ( most of the time ) , respectful , well-rounded , level-headed , ambitious , debonair , life of the paty .
NEG : compulsive , easily-influenced , dimwitted , hypersexualized , problematic , addictive , rebellious , bemused , defensive , clingy , hopeless-romatic , overly-competitive , envious .
INSP : nate archibald ( gossip girl )
// » PAST :
warner was born & raised in the city that never sleeps and is the product of evangeline moretti-vandergeld , an intelligent american-italian socialite turned environmental politician , and captain william vandergeld , a former navy captain , and now a shareholder in some boring fortune 500 company that allowed his wife and son to live an affluent , and privileged life . his mother however , was the real deal , often using their sum of wealth to donate to multiple charities , organizations , etc, she was dedicated to keeping new york city ( and all who lived there ) clean and safe , and she instilled those same values onto her son.
some people are born lucky , and others , lucky to be born . warner was the first option . his childhood was nothing short of happiness , and happiest days were with his mother , for as long as he could remember , any happy moment in his childhood was faded right into her.
things took a drastic change his freshman year of ( private obvy lmao ) high-school . warner’s mother was diagnosed with breast cancer , and little to his knowledge , it wasn’t looking pretty from the start . she was frequently in and out of the hospital for a few months at a time and it was not looking good on any fronts . one day when she went to the hospital it seemed like she never left , maybe she didn’t , those days were a blur for warner to be honest . watching his mother lose life , every single day was not a task he was up for .
by then it was just warner and his father , they were all they had in the big city . ( when he wasn’t always away on business ) warner grew up in that big luxy town house all by himself , with the company of loyal maids , chefs , and nannies of course . but in high school , the more he really submerged himself into it , it was a crazy world & he loved it . whilst getting demands from his father in tokyo to attend those boring sailing classes , warner instead headed out to their beach house in the hamptons for an early 20 rager .
warner undoubtedly knew the power he possessed , big man on campus type & it felt good , until about towards the end of his junior year he was honestly all partied out , but of course reputation is everything , in order to keep up thats when he picked up the real ugly habits , that were of course fun . smoking numerous amounts of marijuana , various girls in - and - out every other day was a feeling like no other , he knew it was wrong , he knew his mom would be ashamed , him doing all these things and not carrying on her legacy in some way . but he couldn’t help himself in a all honesty , and no doubt some of that transitioned over in college .
// » AES :
lost weekends partying , chicken wings & french fries , air jordan 1′s , gucci guilty cologne , friday night lights , clouds of smoke & red eyes , diamond encrusted jewelry glistening under bright lights in a dark room , nike sweatsuits , game winning moves , new york city at night , hamptons in the summer , spring break in miami , impulsive decisions .
// » TL;DR :
( and some stuff i probably missed oops ) warner is a conflicted mama’s boy who knows half the shit he does is wrong but can’t stop . after his mothers passing he had an absent father who seemed to always be away on business , only in town for a month or two , missing his sons’ multiple feats to keep himself distracted from the fact that his wife was no longer with them. created immense daddy issues for warner , especially since he was a standout football star & 2x stage champ in high school , and is currently playing collegiality for the irish , with dreams of making it in the nfl cause screw his dad he don’t wanna go 2 the navy , or work for dat company # not gonna happen . warner took great advantage of wealth & his fathers absence , but he’s lowkey partied out in college , or so he likes to say but he fakes it ‘till he makes it bc he doesn’t his brothers to think he’s lame . HE’S LIVING FOR EVERYBODY BUT HIM BASICALLY .
// » HEADCANONS :
warner is on a football scholarship majoring in environmental science bc although he most likely won’t do shit w/ da degree its for mommy .
he can EASILY be manipulated or taken advantage of , he’s book smart but lowkey dumber than a fucking box of rocks
immastonerbyyoungthug.mp3 . occasionally , but , more so than that ? he always manages to flush out his system in time if needed be , but he loves 2 roll up # stress relief
a BEAST on that field ( student athlete meme here )
has all the canon gray tattoos bc fuck what dad thinks . he wears a solid 16 inch gold chain , and another of the same length with his moms’ name on it , never fucking takes it off , showers with it cause he can .
ok ........ he rich , but like not i can do whatever i want rich ??? he may not ever have to work a day in his life , but he don’t got the pull u think he does w/ his dumb ass u probably couldn’t even tell he’s got money with his minimalist fashion sense .
he has a higher moral compass than most of his frat bros , but the stupid shit he does , u most likely won’t even be able to tell , he’s definitely a serial romeo and a heartbreaker , one compliment ? he’s ready to drop his pants & fall in love w/ u .
HE DUMB , but like he can talk his way into & out of anything , most of the time , batting those big brown eyes & a million dollar smile has saved his ass on multiple occasions .
// » WANTED CONNECTIONS :
EX-GIRLFRIEND : i’m thinking his first & only “ serious “ relationship while in college . were going pretty steady until he cheated on her ( hmm wc on who he cheated on her w/ ?? ) , she never found out but that guilt ate warner TF UP so he cut things off with her via text message and blocked her number , ignores her any chance he gets ‘till this day , cause he doesn’t have any balls and cannot face his fears .
FRAT BROS : lowkey what i’m MOST excited for asdfgh like whoever is in beta lambada mu hit me the fuck UP so we can discuss dynamics , roomates , allat .
FOOTBALL TEAM : same for above , he’s lowkey cocky & got sly comments when he’s on the field , he constantly humbles himself but can’t helps it , he is hot shit and he knows it , how does his team feel ab that ?? w/ his defensive ass !
GOOD-LUCK CHARM : prolly a girl ( bonus points if a cheerleader ??? im not picky tho i promise if ur muse don’t shake poms idc ) it happened out the blue , they screamed his name while the team was walking out for a game , and she called that he’d get 3 td’s and thats exactly what he did now they joke ab it and shit ( maybe a goodluck kiss b4 games bc its warner lolol ) idk i came up wit it on the spot but i love it.
// » MISC :
i’m a dumbass & this got way longer than i expected but if u made it all the way thru ily .
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soooooooooooo bb,,,...,.,,,strawberrry.
......I JUST FIND IT
interestinggggggggg
how you Big mad cuz MY block game seeems
skrong or summn
hanh???
oh.
well.
i never blockedt you
on snapchat
or whatsapp (you weren’t even muted),
yup, i still haven’t
but i didn’t have a properly working phone...
still......don’t
but either way you keep threatening to split on me
like a weapon…fcking
manipulative as shit
it just seems to me that you just want to?
you never imprinted tho
but she did
so why should you?
i won’t ever, again, fight....
….with you.
my favorite accomplice
i wanted to learn with an open mind
even after my phone died
how to remain soft with you.
even after being callled
“old news"
pffft
at least until
i ‘m eventually murdered by a cisgender man...
but
don’t fckn
pppppppop shit
cuz like….. literally…..all i did was change my url.
shit, i Only blockedt you AFTER i saw you referencing gaslighting.
bc uhmm IIIIIIif that is about meeeeeeeeeeee
ha!!!
how fucking dare you.…..lyk....wuhh?
like when you said there is no difference between syn and alesia?????
HANH?
oh, but you think i blockedt you first bc i didn’t wanna get my feelings hurt?
….mhhhhhhh. ok.
seeems odd since you’re not liar
right, eli????
but,,,,,so what’s this about the cozi password change? am i just shifting too rapidly between your and my reality???
bet.
no, i blocked you on things after THAT
AND THAT WAS TODAY
oh, and didn’t your friend, my so-called “fighting buddy,” anan…
.just,,,,,fckn block me like i’m useless
trash
randomnly
after all
i asked
was that they
not speak to me
about you?
but YAAAAAAS twas ONLY Me and simply Myself and just i
who ain’t wanna get….hurt.
hanh?????
oh ,
obvi,
yeaaaaaaa
yeeeei
truuuu,
sooooo
sssssorry,,,,but
calling me “old news” or saying i’m “old too”
don’t forget your girl is 2 yrs older than you
and then staying silent for these few days about changing passwords
that..... already did that, boo
at least i sent alesia third party emails thru the app, boo
she pushin 30 and can only talk you
venuse....????. no....a
talking and
w a l k i ng tragedy
entyway don’t bring that up just to be loud and wrong about that too
you’re not always wrong tho, you know
you’d probably fuck up and slit my throat
powertripping
when i’m wrong about you
and you can only do that if you
black and white
me out
to NEVER BE WRONG
AND I DO
ACTUALLLY HATE THAT ABOUT YOU!!!!!
WHY CAN’T I EVER BE WRONG, ELI????
WHY????//
OH your emotions....? about your father that after 6 yrs you didn’t tell me about?
your reality? when you have a habit of projecting?
and lowkey being dishonest
to yourself first
and then subsequently
to me????
your time? when i’m mostly on yours?????
your efforts? like ripping up notes and telling me
“my turn” to get fucked
by you
was over
when the only reason i was tiredt
was bc i crashed
too tiredt after explaining to You
that
i‘m not even going to LET you play middleman
for a baby pushign 30????
oh. bet.
but since we’re being transparent:
here are receipts with timestamps:
http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-hop-hop
http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop+hop+bun
http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-bunny
yea you must love dirty laundry
oh.
but that’s what i knew about you.
oh:
be yr own guest my love
i Knew you would ignore the “old news” message since that's literally when you started telling on yourself
you do treat trans partners
like side hoes,
thasssa wholeBET
and some change
for you to create
cuz thassssssss
how you feel about me fr fr
so that “like” is mine but
i…..actually really Really love that you laughed tho.
bc i haven’t heard you fully belly laugh in a long time.
if ever iirh.
even after knowing you for 6+ years,
your supposed “first friend “ in the DMV
the person i can trust my life with
the only
you’re my only...
,,,,,even after i spiraled
and cut myself for the first time since middle school?
now my friends are fucking spotting you
and talking to each other
about you
oh, you didn’t know.
but i got mehndi done today
let a summer baby boy
love
a cut up
by me
body
before noon
today
thinking i’d see you and we could talk like,,,,
…..like real people do.
and you’d be distracted by the design and not zone in
on the failed cuts
on my wrist
since i’m shit at not just repeatedly carving into
white meat
when i can only use a ceramic blade
i just didn’t WANT you to
so i never “came home to [you]”
you said that on nov 4th/5th of last year
and
i’ve been looking up bpd all day
eventho i told you
i don’t trust the internet
sooooo you not telling me
didn’t hel p
but it’snot at all your job to
and i sitll
stilllstil stil stilllca’t see
....and i dind’t want you to see.
bc i’m not just a man.
i’m still femme
which you seem to love to forget
and still soft enough, i think.....
i hope…..or learning to be soft,,,,
where it won’t get me killed,,,,,
but where it still counts.
with…or without you.
either way i’m a man who loves you. a man whose phone died at 28% trying to get you to see that i was trying to be soft even after you called me
“old news”
but,,,,,.....,,,compared to …..who?????? sh....oooo??????
your new girlfriend who is 1 or 2 years older than you?????
and can’t speak to me
a man who is only barely out of 23???
and instead only whispers
to you?????
bruh, she’s clearly not fond of me.
and you’re not a liar ,
so don’t
she had to tell you that she wasn’t the one putting out “aggy energy”
specifically
during yennayer which
i ruined
and im still sorru
but which means
she’s probably done it in your apartment on purpose already, boo
didn’t think of that, did you
lingustically.,,,,,nope.
oh, but there’s power in a whisper, darling.
i am just cardinal like you
i am air too.
i should know
bc i accidentally whistled....and,,,,,,
i only blockedt you so that you wouldn’t “hurt [your] own feelings”
like you told anan you sometimes do.
sooooooooooooo yea... i
did it so you wouldn’t hurt you.
as cardinal water/pisces moons
are prone to do.
you can;t drain
and you can’t drown
ain’t that how i affirmed you
i already hurt me
when i dissociated
and i’m STILL FUCKING sorry
that there was blood that you had to see.
i couldn’t stay in my body long enough to clean fast enough
but i still didn’t want you to hurt you bc of me.
like you did repeatedly
bc of bpd or bc of basically cishet or at least cis ~queer girls
or other partners
like when you were with kat,
who’s still disgustingly attached to a messy white
and now a new black kid.....
or with shushoo.
and how you might with alesia.
no, correction: how you have with alesia.
how you will continue to, if you’re not careful, with alesia.
you’re a lion facing a prince of a house kitten ,....,
.,, who is homeless.
do you feel good, big boss?
all i asked was for you to listen t
o how you were speaking to me
on the phone
at your place of work
and when she’s there
possibly a place of worshiop
..... even after i told you
that i was intentionally putting energy into Not fighting you
and you
say you
"don’t wanna be a middle person"
but you also….wanna cape for yet another fucking cis girl.
who isn’t even muslim this time.
HOWtragic.
i couldn’t laugh
couldn’t ever laugh at sway
bc by whatever fortune if you do split or don’t
i still love you
i love you too much
but in those moments after that phone call….
after my phone died…
and my body couldn’t move to charge it.
wouldn’t move….
and all i could do was cry during the adhan.
bc you’re tooo much like matt now
i wish i knew what it could feel like to
hate someone
who called you
"OLD NEWS”
compared to a bitch pushing 30
youza WHOLE fuckn clown, dawg.
matt did this same shit
move me out for a new side bitch
yet anotehr cis
look at how cute trans love can be
oh
no
NO
no,
no
no
this is what you give me:
laughter.
BC what fucking luck.
BUT IT’S gotta be TROOF
s ince you don’t lie?/?
shit I LAUGHED TOO:
it sounds like….
NEITHER OF US
KNEW WHAT COULD
HAVE BROUGHT US
HERE, ELI.
maybe you nursing poison in your own home
and telling me i’m making you feel unwelcomed
on a blog and not to my face did it
fuckingggggggggg. why’ald.
you think it’s too much sweat????? false.
that apartment stayed cold.
too many tears?
ok ok yea troof.
but too much love? forreal?
we?????
ooooop
hoooop!!!
oh, you speakin’ french now. our collective colonizers tongue in 20gayteeeeeeeen?????
CAN’T RELATE
bc I’M TOOOOOO GAY
wow. we ruined it, fam???? fr fr?
nah, chosen fam.
you ruined us.
you ruined us over:
a cis girl and
your own impatience
and your own anger.
and my slow brain and my slow body
//
i’m not sure she’d find you from maryland
if you dissociated bc your other semi
but not
girlfriend emotionally abused you
until people who didn’t know you were muslim
thought you were fucking drunk
and you fucking stilllllll
work with her?????
why couldn’t you just wait until she found a new job???
ain’t she trying????
or izzzzzz she??????
hahhnh???
where was the damn rush?????
you’re like two goofy high schoool kids
reaching for the quickest nuts every 6 hours
like jesus fuck.
you’re irresponsible as shit telling me i’m a grown man making grown decisions and i see this
?????
unREASONABLE, ELI.
this isn’t a situation of a kettle calling a pot black
babe
bc i’m actually Black
and you’re not
but she’s black too.
what did i tell you:
"you datin’ two whole Niggas. if you fight me over her, you will lose either way.”
but instead you called me “obtuse”
SAT words for me
but not for you…….what.,,,.,,,,,,,, fckn luck……..
what luck,,,,,that the one person who housed me consistently
and kept me alive
when i trusted no one
would call me "old news”
and let their cis girlfriend
turn herself into your
personal "healing” …...
sibkid. \\\\
howTragic like all of CC’18
you know what happens when you slip and get sloppy and let a baby bitch be responsible for your healing?
she leaves.
for a real bitch
with microhealing abilities,
GOOFY.
she worships a new goddess every friday?????
well, i know only of orixas
and only of black power
but from what i know of goddesses OFF of OUR continent…
soooon...
at least one of them WILL want a soul from her
just letting you know it might not have to be hers.
…..OH!
and when i chargedt and openedt my phone after days of wandering. ….the last messages from you are:
YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID “LEAVE [[[[MMMMMYYYYYYY]]]]]] KEYS”
like a fucking baby.
imagine that.
even to you, i’m still a whore.
out…the…bakc….dooor.
??????
i couldn’t even work a john when i wanted to
if i was sad about you.
but imagine?????
a cis-pixie woman older than you
letting you treat her like a child?????
then
imagine me feeling shamed into leaving
bc of pictures of your smiling face
after i cut myself and felt shame
that
in your unwelcomed to both me and you
BLOOD
blood
is what brings me back
to life.
how.
fucking.
why’yald.
i blockedt you so that you didn’t lurk.
bc THat is what you do.
instead of speaking with me,
you seem to have expected me
to read your blog back 7 years.
and just know all of the fatherly things that trigger you.
like…even during the times when i was afraid of my own phone and laptop for 2 months bc of my sister, brother, and birth parents????
funny how i’m the youngest of us “grown folks” and yet still find that really
FUCKING
immature.
of YOU
to do
you really never knew me, or did you…..??
you donated to me before you even knew me.
so i know your heart has parts made of gold.
but now you show off your crystals and your gold.~~~
yep.
here we are.
you’ve "only every seen [me] as a boy.”
ok. bet.
and unti this post:
i’ve hardly heard you refer to me as a man.
so:
ain’t you late?
ain’t you late, babe??
ain’t you late?
i’m a year younger than you.
which means if you grown
i musta BEEN a man too, boo.
but you’ll always be
my favorite accomplice
and always be my favorite friend too.
but you cannot think you can play me by calling me
“old too” or “old news"
for young fish who is basically femme trade
and thinking i won’t cut open a fool.
which coincidentally always happens to be me
she’s hardly out to anybody important and lying at work too.
i must be bigger fool.
bc you knew better and didn’t do better.
but i’m being immature.
ok ...,.,,.,,
cute.
your pisces moon is keeping you from seeing clearly but that’s what young water seems…to do. to much light reflected; tho it is a fountain of youth.
she’s pushing 30 baby
but true, you’re her boo.
yea, a childish boo.
you ever wonder why her playlist from you had more songs than ours did?
why she can never keep a man around for valentines day?
oh but don’t you love “patterns”, baby????
unless it’s her leaving shit around the apartment
or her triggering you
or her treating your dick like it’s foreign,
even to you.
my gay ass was shookedt
when you told me you voluntarily
triggered yourself
for her kitty too
but i AM
a grown man
who is “running” from….you
you think that statement is not…. dishonest??
you really think that statement is true???
—
i didn’t run. i just
needed space
and you afforded me none.
you couldn’’t afford it.
february is before march which is before april
sooooooo it’s always a tight month ain’t it???????
oooooooh but you afforded her plenty.
she gets to take off her fucking pants while i try to figure out if i should move from a spot next to you….
on your fucking bed.
she took off her pants to climb near you before she could even say hi to
nooonoo
ahh right
and THEN ME.
“Oh, you CAN stay”
that’s what She told me.
and you said nothing.
so i left….the room.
i never run.
you pushed me out with your captain save-a-cis silence.
it’s violence.
and
you’re still pushing and pushing and pushing and pushing
until me…you know
i, the "old news”
just feels like he should just
fucking fall
onto the district streets
and she finds it
to her fucking fancy
to fall
into your lap
like a damn,,,,zel.
distressedt.
with a roof over her head outside of your apartment too.
woooooooops!
yip, as she is probably prone to do.
her kind….isn’t new….boo.
her kind isn’t new to me
her kind isn’t new to you
you ever wonder why she feels so familiar to you?
she reminds Me of the girl who told you
she could never marry you
and is now trying to date someone just like you
so don’t be so unkind to me
or to you
or be so foolish
as to believe i gave up on you
you gave up on me
and on top of that
you think i just...ran
ran….with what clothing?
the ones you packed up for me and left at the door
that i was suppose to pick up
and slide out the back….like a fucking whore?
you just tryna be
a cissie's bae
who stay clownin on trans folks now?
oooooooh issa bet, mo
. i mean.,,,.,,.mhhhh i guess?
—==—
but troooof, i don’t “need" anybody.
but i want you.
but you need her.
that’s how it work, don’t it?????
that’s why you risk job security every day.
and let her leave her panties on my clothes.
and let her tell me i "can stay" in …..A, not MY, spot next to you
in yo'bed?
what fucking fools. the two of you.
but “no one is forcing [me] to"
oh, baby you /are/ forcing me too
i look on your blog and then find out you’ve been feeling “unwelcome in [your] own home”
this whole fucking time
all the way since early november, innit?????
if i love you at all,
what else am i to do?????????????
??????????????????????????/
know that you will self-destruct
and just…wait for you to????????????????????
???????????????????????????????/
no
i didn’t run.
you just fucking pushed me.
and you’re still fucking pushing.
and you’ll keep pushing.
bc that is what you do.
embe…..@strawberreli
se sá’m te konne nu’ou.
you like microblogging so much
so like it if you read this shit
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